The Boxers of Brule
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At 23 years old, Shaionna Grass Rope lost her best friend Cheryl Ziegler to suicide. Cheryl—her cousin by blood and sister by culture—was an aspiring boxer who battled depression and addiction. Though facing the same struggles, Shaionna creates a boxing team for the girls following in their footsteps, determined to end trends of youth suicide within the Lower Brule Sioux Tribe of South Dakota. The preteen squad faces the challenges of growing up on a reservation together with humor, sass and slushy-stained smiles.
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Main credits
Rector, Tracy (film producer)
Nordenswan, Hanna (film producer)
Adler, Jessie (film director)
Other credits
Music, Alexandra Kalinowski; cinematography, Jessie Adler; editing, Jessie Adler.
Distributor subjects
Native American,Physical Health,Women's StudiesKeywords
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You girls ready?
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Yeah.
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Careful, you girls. Slow down.
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Careful.
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Shayla, you will find one, I believe in it.
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Me too! I believe in you!
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You girls, keep looking!
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You guys gotta believe...
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I found one!
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You found one
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Yeah.
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Oh, she found one!
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Dang, that one's a nice one!
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Dang, Waŋblí waŋkiya wanted to give it to you.
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That's many blessings for you, my girl.
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Thank you! For shedding this for me.
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Alright, you girls, round it up, round it up!
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Before we leave I want you
guys to grab some tobacco.
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And then I'm gonna say a prayer, k?
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Wakȟáŋ Tȟáŋka, Tȟuŋkášila, Até Waŋtȟáŋka
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Great Grandfather, Great Spirit, Great Creator,
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I ask for healing for each one of these
girls, Tȟuŋkášila,
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cuz we're all hurting, and
we're all here for a reason, Tȟáŋkala.
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I ask that you give us the strength to be strong
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and give us the tools to be
on that Red Road, Tȟáŋkala.
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Mitákuye oyásʼiŋ.
[All our relations.]
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Oh there he is, there he is,
there he is, right there!
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There he is!
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That means good luck, baby!
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Something good's gonna happen.
I just know it.
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Time!
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Time. There you go, relax.
Give yourself about 30 seconds.
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Relax, relax, relax.
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Good. Always keep that tucked in,
ok, keep it right here.
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When you’re throwing a punch, all that
energy transfers right in the ball of the fist.
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The boxing, I think is natural.
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You're fighting a lot more on the mental
part than you are physical.
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Let's start to build on that confidence.
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Ok, you can do it, you can get it done.
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Hey don't don't shake your head.
I'll kick you out of my gym.
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You gotta be here.
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You got no control over anything else
other than where you're at right now.
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Ok?
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I just keep thinking that
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if Cheryl can't do this, then I can't do it.
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One, you can’t be Cheryl, you can’t be anybody else.
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Ok? Control what you can control.
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And right now you're here.
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You want different you gotta do it yourself.
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C'mon. Let's get a few here.
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Here we go, one, two.
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One, two
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One, two.
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One, two.
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One, two.
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Good. One, two.
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[from laptop: Fighting out of the city of
Lower Brule, South Dakota
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she is our current 2009 Queen
of the Hill Women's Champion
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Let's give a nice round of applause for Cheryl Ziegler!"
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[crowd cheers]
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Me and Cheryl grew up together as sisters.
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We call each other sisters because
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in Lakota way we call our
cousins brother and sister.
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[children's laughter]
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I didn't really have someone to look
up to, so I looked up to her.
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We’d spend every day with each other.
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When we’d have hard times we’d go to the river.
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And forget everything.
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She was my other half.
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I started boxing club in memory of
Cheryl Ziegler.
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She's the one that inspired me to do boxing,
she's one that motivated me to do boxing.
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so I’m doing this for in memory of her.
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I'm glad you guys are here with me.
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So, let’s just work together. We’re all sisters.
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The boxing team is for people that
wants to be a part of something.
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So we don’t do bad things during the summer
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like burn down houses like all the other
kids around here and drink and smoke.
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We're like a traveling team, and my
sister Raelynn is the boxing team manager.
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It's a really cool experience for the girls
that wants to be a part of something.
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[off camera] You said that twice.
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Then Thursday, what should we do, start sparring?
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Yeah!
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Alright, Friday's was our time to get to know
each other bond with each other.
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So that's, you know, sister time -
put sister time.
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And now we gotta train.
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Geez.
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Yeah, we gotta actually work.
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Two miles.
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Let's go, grandma!
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Let's do some ladders, ready?
We'll do ten ladders.
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Gee!
What? No, not ten!
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Five.
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No! Only Jada can do five!
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When I run,
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it makes me happy.
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I ran from the cops one time.
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That’s fun, that’s exciting.
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I don’t want kids to do that when I’m older.
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I want people to live a better life than what I’m living.
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Like way better.
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Let's shadow box.
Do you know how to shadow box?
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You wanna guard your jaw.
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When you reach out....
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[interview] I wanted to be on the boxing team because
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it just feels good to stand up for our tribe,
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our reservation, our people.
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I see their pain and I see
what they're going through
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because I used to be in their position
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I just want to let them know that
they're not alone.
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That they are worth something.
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This is um...
what's today
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This is April 15th.
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I'm Cheryl Ziegler Fairbanks,
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and this is my mom, Pam Johnson.
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And we're having a mother
and daughter hike adventure.
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Ina, [mom], you're supposed to take
a picture of me with my muscles.
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This grey house coming up over here with the flagpole,
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that's where she committed suicide.
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It's just really scary because all these people
are using drugs and then it leads to suicide.
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My first time ever getting high,
I remember it like it was yesterday.
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Cheryl got mad, but she couldn't stop me
because she was doing it too.
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It was my first time ever seeing
meth and people using it.
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It's the only way knew to cope with my feelings-
just doing drugs and alcohol and fighting.
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Fighting someone in the street you still feel angry.
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A boxing match, you feel like you worked hard for that fight
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and it makes you feel like you have a future.
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And that's why this is something that I really
want to do for myself and for the girls.
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I don't want to hear no female arguing - go!
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This won't put weight on 'em.
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It's not heavy.
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Good that means you can take a
punch!
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Life on the road!
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Cheryl, we're having fun, girl.
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Sure wish you were here, man.
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Hi, we're from Lower Brule.
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What's your name?
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Shaionna Grass Rope.
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You ready?
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Yeah. I hope she's not bigger than me.
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If she’s bigger than you just go for the
stomach and under here, ok? Good?
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Just remember who's watching you.
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Cheryl. There's your brother, there's your grandma.
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You know all those people are watching you.
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Stay strong for them.
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[bell rings]
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Box!
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[crowd cheers ]
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Punch straight!
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Keep going!
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[bell rings]
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Time! Time!
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Shilea Grass Rope!
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Our own Lower Brule Shiley won!
She won her match, man!
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[announcer:] Bout number 10 is between
Cheyanne Grey Grass and Shaionna Grass Rope.
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[Raven] Come on now, come on now keep it clean.
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Come here you girl you. She's proud
of you man, I know she is.
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She ain't here no more but... She's got us.
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[Shaionna] Cheryl, I miss you so much.
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Yeah it still smells good, but it just smells like it's been warming...
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Eww! That is gross.
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Fine I'll just give her warmed up water
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You're ok, baby!
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I wonder how much the cat food is.
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[Kitten meows]
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Mommy got you some water!
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Oh gee, baby.
Here, you want some water?
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Do you guys have any milk?
- Yeah
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Can you get me some?
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[Shilea] Did you know dogs have seven lives?
[Kitten meows]
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I thought cats had nine?
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Right?
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I got up this morning and I prayed.
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After I started praying, thinking like that,
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then my pain kind of went away.
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Mind over matter.
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[Nurse] How's the pain today?
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[Nurse] Four? Four in the leg?
Took something before you came?
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[Davita] M-hmm
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My life was very...very tough.
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I didn't have no one to go to.
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So if I wasn't working then I would go
drink.
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My kids, that's what they remember.
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Then I got sick.
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I have diabetes.
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I got a blood disorder called calciphylaxis.
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People with calciphylaxis live for six [months] to a year.
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And I'm going on a two year mark.
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I fight that pain every
day because I want to be with my kids.
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You're scaring me Shaionna!
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[Shaionna] Ok I'll back it up.
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I try to make up for what I did, but it
feels like I'm running out of time.
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[Shaionna] What's one thing you remember about Cheryl?
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[Shilea] I remember one thing about Cheryl is whenever you used to take me over there with you
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and you guys just sat down and talked mostly.
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People don't even want to sit down visit and talk to you.
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Either want to get high or drink.
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That's the only time they ever want to sit down or, you know, actually be a friend.
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You want to have a contest?
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[Shilea] What do you mean? You have way more than me!
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Ready, set, go!
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Shit.
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[Shilea] We talk about suicide when
someone dies.
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But we never talk about, like, wanting to do it.
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My brother actually died from a suicide.
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I really know the whole story,
but we never talk about it.
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[Raelynn] We named this team Akicita, which is 'warrior' in Lakota
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The big reason we are typing this letter is we need help for
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all of us to have [typing]
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the gear we need.
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This is for every kid out there who is
struggling to be happy.
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[Girl's voice] Does it matter how it has to be like balled?
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No.
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These things are so hard to make cause they're really sticky.
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You are what you eat.
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And I'm a nice piece of fry bread.
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Oh look, I'm making the ears!
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Now that looks like something!
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[Rianna] Lord Jesus, I want to pray for the youth boxing team so that...
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no more girls and people
will feel left out, and
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hopefully everything will go good. Amen.
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[Girls chatter]
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You guys going to the pow wow?
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Yes!
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Woo!
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[Announcer] Junior Miss Kul Wicasa: Josette Pretty Sounding Flute.
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[Crowd cheering]
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Miss Kul Wicasa.
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Yaaas!
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[Drumming and singing]
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[Shaionna] I love pow wow.
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When I watch them dance and
hear that drum beat,
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it just reminds me who I am and where I come from.
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Jingle dress dancing
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it was used to be a healing ceremony.
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All your prayers- the jingles
that you put on your dress- go up in the sky,
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and waŋblí - the eagle- he would take 'em and send 'em to Tȟuŋkášila.
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[Drumming and singing]
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[Davita] I always dreamt of making her a nice dress.
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Her sleeves were ruffled out
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but then they'd have like five roses you know representing her brother and sisters.
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I dreamt of that dress.
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I dreamt of her dancing in it.
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[Singing]
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[Shaionna gasps] It is, too! Oh my gosh!
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Oh my gosh, look at that! [Screams]
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Pink ones! We got pink ones!
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Oh my god, I already feel like a champ!
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The team's gonna look beast!
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I really wanna go to my fight.
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I gotta call my mom and...
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[Phone ringing]
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[Shaionna on the phone]
We got our boxing trunks.
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[Davita on the phone] Did you? Right on, Shaionna!
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[Shaionna]
Just trying to find some help
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'cause I wanna go to this fight really bad.
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What's Grandpa Marlow's number?
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[Shaionna sighs]
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Do you know Grandma Sue's number?
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Well what about Josette, would she have any gas money?
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She don't - she didn't make that much this week.
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[Shaionna] Every day is a battle for me.
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Every day it's something.
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[Shaionna] I just feel like giving up sometimes.
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[Raelynn] Whatever happened to our schedule?
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We need to start traning.
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I feel like giving up.
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No!
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We made it this far.
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We made it this far and we ain't get anywhere.
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Yeah we are!
We actually are.
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[Shilea] We actually get to our boxing matches.
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We actually got some somewhere.
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You just need to get back on track and rest.
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And probably take some warm showers.
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[Girls] And when you get better,
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you won't be saying that you feel like giving up.
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But I'm never gonna get better, for real man.
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[Shilea] Yes you will. You'll see.
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[Raven] I want to talk to you real quick.
00:20:55.840 --> 00:20:59.520
The last thing Cheryl would want you to do is to give up.
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Part of your healing is those kids.
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They don't need you to quit.
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They need you to power through it.
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And don't use Cheryl's being gone as a reason not to.
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You can't give up to the first rough
patch you run into.
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Because if that's the case - look at me, this is serious what I'm getting ready to tell you-
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If that's the case I wouldn't be here
right now talking to you, do you understand what I'm saying?
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Tell me what you think I'm saying to you.
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Suicide?
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Yeah. That was me.
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I just didn't get to complete it.
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[Raven] You're here for a reason.
You've got the ability to inspire.
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If you give up that person behind you gives up,
then that person gives up.
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Our people are suffering. You just, you can't give up
because those kids are depending on you.
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Let them feel your strength, you know?
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That you may not fix it, but you...you're there.
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You know? You care about them.
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Which one should we go through first, David?
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This one's my Auntie Naomi.
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She passed away of kidney failure.
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This one's my Grandma Doris.
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And this was my friend Nora Goodface.
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She passed away of cancer.
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This was my mom's friend. She died of liver failure.
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This one was my niece Zarayah.
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She commit suicide.
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She was 16 years old.
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And last but not least, was my sister Cheryl.
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I miss her.
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Faster! Like this.
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Owww!
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[Shaionna] Tȟuŋkášila, Até Waŋtȟáŋka
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I ask that you protect these girls
and watch over them,
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and I hope that we inspire more girls to jump in,
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and I pray that you watch over all our relatives,
watch over my mom...
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The people are having a hard time struggling,
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I ask that you protect us.
00:23:40.080 --> 00:23:41.720
[Announcer] Alright we're headed to round three.
00:23:42.080 --> 00:23:45.120
In the red corner: Shaionna Grass Rope
00:23:45.480 --> 00:23:48.080
In the blue corner: Micaela Fox
00:23:49.680 --> 00:23:51.860
Remember, this is loser out now.
00:23:51.860 --> 00:23:54.060
Winner advancing and the loser, done.
00:23:54.800 --> 00:23:56.400
[Raelynn] Go Shaionna!
00:23:57.940 --> 00:23:58.900
Go!
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[Cheering from the audience]
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[Referee] Ten seconds!
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[Bell rings]
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[Announcer] Alright, your winner advancing
00:24:23.960 --> 00:24:26.680
The blue corner: Micaela Fox!
00:24:27.180 --> 00:24:30.100
Let's give Shaionna a round of applause. She's done here tonight.
00:24:30.260 --> 00:24:31.780
Show her some love.
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[Music]
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[Davita groans]
00:24:58.500 --> 00:25:00.580
[Davita] I can't do this all night.
00:25:10.160 --> 00:25:14.060
[Davita screams] God, help me.
00:25:14.760 --> 00:25:16.880
Help me!
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This is too much.
00:25:34.700 --> 00:25:38.800
I don't want the girls thinking I just
up and left them and I don't love them.
00:25:42.820 --> 00:25:48.100
But I need something to cure my pain. I need something to, you know, make me feel numb.
00:25:57.020 --> 00:26:00.740
[Sound of thunder]
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Did Shaionna get a hold of you?
00:26:29.240 --> 00:26:31.240
No she's not at the house.
00:26:34.920 --> 00:26:36.600
I hope she's not using.
00:26:37.260 --> 00:26:38.500
I pray that she's not.
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If you run into her just tell her that I'd like to talk to her.
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[Shilea] How come Shaionna put "R.I.P Shaionna Legacy Grassrope Ziegler?"
00:26:52.960 --> 00:26:56.720
She put "I give up on everything this time."
00:27:22.880 --> 00:27:24.720
[Machine beeps]
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[Doctor] So we'll just plan for later on today
for one of us to do the amputation.
00:27:28.280 --> 00:27:31.400
All depends who can get to it sooner but
she'll be on later today, okay?
00:27:31.840 --> 00:27:33.760
Alright, then I'll come talk to someone later.
00:27:34.080 --> 00:27:35.520
[Josette] Mom, you want to listen to a song?
00:27:35.840 --> 00:27:38.120
Bring up some wicked old memories with this song.
00:27:39.360 --> 00:27:41.760
[Both singing] I don't wanna dance,
00:27:42.200 --> 00:27:45.160
Dance with you baby, no more.
00:27:45.820 --> 00:27:49.360
I'd never do something to hurt you though.
00:27:50.260 --> 00:27:52.580
Oh, but the feeling is bad, the feeling is bad.
00:27:52.580 --> 00:27:54.440
[Josette] Go Grandma, get down!
00:27:54.960 --> 00:28:00.520
I don't want to dance, dance with you baby no more.
00:28:00.800 --> 00:28:02.320
[Davita] I miss Shaionna.
00:28:05.960 --> 00:28:10.620
[Singing] Oh but the feeling is bad, the feeling is bad.
00:28:25.280 --> 00:28:27.040
I got it, yes yes!
00:28:34.080 --> 00:28:37.000
[Shilea] Boxing made made me feel
like...
00:28:37.000 --> 00:28:38.400
all the girls in there...
00:28:38.960 --> 00:28:43.520
made me feel like they were like sisters.
00:28:47.560 --> 00:28:51.020
But, Shaionna just kinda went downhill again, so...
00:28:51.040 --> 00:28:56.480
just gotta wait til she gets on the right path again.
00:29:03.160 --> 00:29:06.700
[April] You guys are the ones that need to get
it all together.
00:29:06.700 --> 00:29:10.240
And keep each other positive and hang in there with each other.
00:29:10.240 --> 00:29:12.840
Maybe you guys could ask... what's his name?
00:29:13.700 --> 00:29:15.860
Daniel, yeah.
00:29:15.860 --> 00:29:18.820
[Rachel] Maybe he might know somebody,
you know that boxes.
00:29:19.840 --> 00:29:21.600
[Raelynn] Alright, I'm messaging him now.
00:29:21.640 --> 00:29:23.280
"Would you like to meet up at..."
00:29:23.640 --> 00:29:25.640
[Jada] The library, cause he works there.
00:29:26.020 --> 00:29:27.620
[Continues] "...at the library"
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[Jada] On Monday
00:29:29.160 --> 00:29:31.100
[Raelynn] "On Monday to talk about..."
00:29:31.340 --> 00:29:33.320
[Rianna] Alright, after this who's ready to have some fun?
00:29:33.320 --> 00:29:34.400
[Doris, inhaling helium] What's up dudes?
00:29:34.500 --> 00:29:36.500
[All laughing]
00:29:37.140 --> 00:29:39.140
What's up!
00:29:41.160 --> 00:29:42.060
[Rianna] Jada's gonna sound really weird.
00:29:42.560 --> 00:29:44.200
Hey guys!
00:29:46.300 --> 00:29:48.620
Oh my god, I sound really funny!
00:29:54.500 --> 00:29:56.120
|Raelynn] We talked to Danny yesterday.
00:29:56.500 --> 00:30:00.340
Yeah cause we're serious about this boxing
thing, and we really want to do it.
00:30:00.420 --> 00:30:01.980
[[Raelynn] Can you stop interrupting me?
00:30:03.000 --> 00:30:04.520
As I was saying...
00:30:04.960 --> 00:30:06.780
Like I don't wanna start something
00:30:06.900 --> 00:30:09.980
and then have it all just end, how Shaionna did it.
00:30:11.540 --> 00:30:13.820
[Danny] Don't use this as, like a...
00:30:13.820 --> 00:30:19.020
a thing to decide if she's a good coach,
if she's a good role model, anything like that.
00:30:19.760 --> 00:30:24.280
She started this, she's brought us together and
now we want to keep moving on.
00:30:24.420 --> 00:30:26.520
[Amara] So this is basically a new start for us.
00:30:26.520 --> 00:30:27.800
[Girls] Yeah
00:30:28.480 --> 00:30:29.800
So when do you guys wanna start?
00:30:31.280 --> 00:30:32.640
[Amara] Soon as possible.
00:30:46.960 --> 00:30:48.720
[Micaela] Just keep from your cheek straight.
00:30:50.700 --> 00:30:52.800
Hook's like that. It's like your guys' power punch.
00:31:20.660 --> 00:31:21.400
Shaionna.
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[Shaionna sighs] Got a fight next week.
00:31:29.740 --> 00:31:30.460
[Davita] Where at?
00:31:30.640 --> 00:31:31.520
In Heron.
00:31:34.500 --> 00:31:36.520
Been working out, training
00:31:38.160 --> 00:31:39.680
[Davita] Training with those girls?
00:31:40.540 --> 00:31:42.540
[Shaionna] Mmm... no.
00:31:43.360 --> 00:31:45.280
[Davita] You're gonna take them with you, right?
00:31:46.720 --> 00:31:49.100
[Davita] You know, you guys gotta
make your own choices,
00:31:49.100 --> 00:31:51.000
but I hope you're making good ones Shaionna.
00:31:54.960 --> 00:31:59.160
I pray that you change your life.
00:32:02.780 --> 00:32:05.000
You're a fighter Shaionna, you're a warrior.
00:32:06.080 --> 00:32:07.920
You got a good heart, Shaionna.
00:32:14.240 --> 00:32:32.480
[Lakota singing.]
00:32:33.760 --> 00:32:36.640
[Shaionna] I feel pretty lost right now.
00:32:38.720 --> 00:32:44.600
I feel like my spirits not here - like my body's here but my spirit's not here.
00:32:44.920 --> 00:32:47.520
Like this ain't me right now.
00:32:53.540 --> 00:32:57.520
I had all that time to spend time with my mom and be there for the boxing team.
00:32:58.740 --> 00:33:02.120
But I decided to do drugs and push myself
away from everybody.
00:33:05.680 --> 00:33:08.180
What comes if I just keep going and keep going?
00:33:09.860 --> 00:33:11.860
I don't wanna feel this way no more.
00:33:13.200 --> 00:33:16.000
I wanna figure out how to cope and not use no more.
00:33:17.760 --> 00:33:57.040
[Lakota singing]
00:33:58.000 --> 00:34:01.280
May the Lord make his face shine upon
our sister Davita.
00:34:01.680 --> 00:34:04.400
May her soul and the souls of all the departed
00:34:04.400 --> 00:34:08.560
through the mercy of God, rest in peace.
00:34:09.200 --> 00:34:12.960
[Shaionna] Mommy! Oh, mommy!
00:34:12.960 --> 00:34:27.840
[Music] I found a way to make it home.
00:34:27.840 --> 00:34:36.880
[Music] I'm here to stay. With you I found another way.
00:34:36.880 --> 00:34:43.040
[Music] Another way.
00:34:55.840 --> 00:34:57.840
[Leroy, falling] Oh, shit!
00:34:57.840 --> 00:35:03.840
[Laugter]
00:35:04.800 --> 00:35:08.320
[Leroy] My friggin foot got stuck!
00:35:08.320 --> 00:35:13.760
[Windy] Gee, she really got him already...knocked Leroy down, eh!
00:35:18.560 --> 00:35:24.240
[Shaionna] You guys feel that energy? That's mom.
00:35:55.200 --> 00:35:58.080
There's a good side of me that just
wants to do good.
00:35:58.560 --> 00:36:00.080
Try to fix everything.
00:36:00.480 --> 00:36:06.160
And this other side just wants me to
destroy everything and make everyone feel how I feel.
00:36:06.560 --> 00:36:09.920
Like when I'm with the girls,
I feel more spiritual.
00:36:10.320 --> 00:36:12.960
It makes me feel like you know I have a purpose here.
00:36:17.440 --> 00:36:20.320
[Raelynn] Ok, three, two, one!
00:36:24.560 --> 00:36:27.760
[Laughing] Oh, it's actually warm!
00:36:27.760 --> 00:36:29.760
[Rianna] Amara, you're turn!
00:36:41.840 --> 00:36:43.480
[Marley] Yes! Shaionna!
00:36:44.960 --> 00:36:46.880
[Shilea] Get it, girl!
00:37:02.400 --> 00:38:00.160
[Music]