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(clanging)

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♪ One two three four ♪

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(rock music)

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♪ Mirror mirror ♪

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♪ Mirror mirror on the wall ♪

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♪ Mirror mirror on the wall ♪

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♪ You don't see me at all ♪

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- [Kristen] These
are my breasts.

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They're a big part of my
life, as you can imagine.

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I'm the chick with
the big boobs.

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You may think life is easy
for a woman so blessed

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in this area, but
they're also a curse.

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- Can you take off
the bra, please?

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- [Kristen] After many years
of schlepping them around,

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I've decided to get
a breast reduction.

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- [Aritta] And I can show
you, if I remove here,

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and I will fix the tissue
here, and the depths

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at the chest wall, so that
you will have a nice again.

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And I show you on both sides.

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Which is really
heavy for me to hold.

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So I can imagine what kind
of weight you have to bare

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all the time.

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- [Kristen] One
and a half kilos.

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Each.

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The pain is too much.

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My body can't
carry them anymore.

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But my mind still isn't made up.

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- So after the
operation, you will have

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a very roundish,
half a bowl rest,

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which after six
weeks will drop down,

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due to the gravity,
and then you will have

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the nice, natural form.
- OK.

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- My experience is
that the ladies feel

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much more feminine
because they get back

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a part of the personality.

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Because very often
people around them

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are fixed on the big breasts.

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Maybe you won't be that
eye catcher anymore,

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which means maybe you
become kind of invisible.

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But maybe you will love it.

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You get kind of--
- Invisible?

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- Freedom of--
- Is that what I'll be

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when I'm no longer the woman

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with the biggest
breasts in the room?

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OK.

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Apples, too small.
- Apples are too small.

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Definitely.

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And we remove them.
- Oranges.

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Too small.
- This is nothing.

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- OK.

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Oranges.
- Well, yes this is

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something like B.

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- That looks nice,
but it's too small.

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- That's too small for you.
- Yeah.

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- [Aritta] So I guess
what you have now,

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something like this.
- Oh my God.

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That's heavy.

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(upbeat music)

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There.

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Never has to be a slight look,

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I completely get rid
of my, like that.

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No one's gonna pay
attention to me with this.

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(laughing)

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- [Aritta] Or even more.

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- So, I'll be the invisible

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middle aged American
woman living in Zurich.

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How depressing.

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That's not who I want to be.

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(jazzy music)

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In my head, I'm five
nine with a little waist,

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delicate back, and
broad shoulders.

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Yep.

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I never loved my body.

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That looks better.

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So having the power to
fix it is thrilling.

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I think that's good.

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How about the last, can
you make my legs longer?

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- Legs longer, of course.
- Yeah.

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Oh, look at that, now
I'm a super model.

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This is fun, and addictive.

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But also disturbing.

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The hips, I don't
know if you could.

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Wow.

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I look hot.

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I'm a feminist.

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I don't want to be hung up on
unattainable beauty ideals.

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She could get a date.

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That Kristen could
totally get a date.

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Look at her.

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She looks good.

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Forgive me.

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I don't always
practice what I preach.

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(jazz music)

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I'm forever on the
hunt to find the root

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of the world's
obsession with breasts.

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And I try to understand
why they've become

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such a source of pain
for me in so many ways.

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There is a connection
from breasts

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to objectification to
misogyny to assault to rape.

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And even murder.
- It's true.

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Approximately.

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That's a lot of weight
to be carrying around.

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- And now you're all probably
looking at my breasts,

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if you weren't before.

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And I will say to
you, it's OK to look.

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Here's the front view.

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Here's the left
side, my good side,

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my (speaking foreign
language) side,

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as we say in (speaking
foreign language).

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And the right side.

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But just know that because
I have large breasts

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does not automatically mean
that I am dumb or easy,

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and because a woman
has small breasts

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does not mean that
she can't breast feed

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or she is less feminine than
a woman with larger breasts.

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And if a woman is
wearing a tight sweater,

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that does not mean that
she's craving attention.

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And if she's wearing
a short skirt,

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it doesn't mean that she
wants to be catcalled.

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(jazzy music)

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My breasts are all
people seem to see.

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As I can't hide them,
I've decided to show them.

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To be a provocateur.

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To play with the stereotype
of the big busted woman.

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(oscillating)

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Hello.

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Are you interested in
talking to me on camera

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for my documentary
about breasts?

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(laughing)

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- About breasts?
- Yeah.

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(laughing)

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Excuse me, sir.
- Yes?

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- Can I ask you what you
think about my boobs?

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- Big.
- They are.

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- Yeah, they are really big.
- Anything else?

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- They are really big.

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- I wish these were
brains, really?

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- Yes, I do.
- You don't have brain,

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or what?
- Well, I do have a brain.

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Yeah.

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What do you think about
women with big breasts?

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- Sexy.

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Sexy or nice.

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Really powerful.

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(speaking foreign language)

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(laughing)

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- [Kristen] So we're just
gonna stand for 10 seconds,

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just straight like that.

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OK.

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And now we're gonna just laugh
and raise our shoulders up

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and (laughing).

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(chattering)

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We're all becoming invisible.

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We're no longer young, and
we're told we're less valuable.

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Hey, everybody, we ready
to go in five minutes?

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OK.

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(laughing)

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But it's easier to handle
when I'm with my friends

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and there's music
and a bit of booze.

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We're trying to hold
on and still be seen.

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It's always been
easier to get attention

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for my breasts than my brain.

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And there's some
comfort in that.

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I was hiding my insecurities
behind the big boobs.

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It wasn't always that way.

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Sitting in English and
I keep thinking of you.

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I'm sure by now you're
tan and beautiful

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and fighting the guys
off with a stick.

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When did it all change?

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When did I change?

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I long to be the
sweet, confident,

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not boob obsessed
girl I used to be.

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(jazzy music)

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I never wanted to be
sexy, to be a thing.

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I love standing out, but only
when I decided I wanted to.

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- [Woman] Sexy, no, I don't
think anyone saw her as sexy.

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- [Man] Kristen was pretty
and smart and funny, innocent.

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The girl next door.

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- [Woman] She dressed
like a teacher.

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- [Woman] She didn't
drink, didn't smoke,

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didn't kiss boys.
- Boobs, average, regular.

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She was in proportion.

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- I loved being the good
girl, the innocent girl.

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But that all ended at
22, when I grew an inch

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and my breasts went
from a C to a triple D,

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then got even bigger.

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I went from the girl next door

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to a woman with a huge rack.

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And that changed everything.

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How people look at me.

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How I look at myself.

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I wish I could find her again.

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Before I let go of
these giant melons,

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I'm heading home to talk
to people who knew me

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when I was just plain Kristen.

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(jazzy music)

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(chattering)

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Hi Mama.

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This is where I grew up.

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A little farm in New Hampshire.

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I hated it.

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I used to shout at the
cows and cry in the barn

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while singing show tunes.

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I was always waiting for
someone to come and rescue me.

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And that says
Kristen, maybe, '83.

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- Here you are, right here.

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Go ahead.
- But you're my.

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- I'm doing it
without touching you.

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You're right here.
- OK.

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- I'm your mother.

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- I'm taller than I was in '83.

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I think that does say
Kristen right there.

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In my family, talking
about bodies was taboo.

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When my period came, I
had no idea what it was.

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And when my breasts arrived,
I just wanted to hide them.

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So then we got to keep
this, if you ever.

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There's another
picture of all of us,

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and I had a big sweater on.

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And I remember Dad said,
in front of these people,

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all of them, when we said
goodbye for the summer,

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"You look pregnant."

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In front of all of them.

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I mean, mortified.
- I know.

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- And I know he was
just trying to be funny,

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probably, he was trying
to, he didn't know

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how to deal with having
a daughter who maybe

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liked a boy for the first
time or I don't know what,

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but it was mortifying.
- Of course.

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- Mortifying, you look
pregnant, I mean--

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- You were 15.
- I was 15

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and I didn't have any
breasts, I mean, like really--

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- Well, you were normal.
- I was probably a B then.

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- Probably, yeah.
- But, so, I mean,

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when I got bigger and
bigger and bigger,

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we never talked about this.
- No.

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We didn't talk about a lot
because of the family members,

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you know, it was just, we
just didn't talk about a lot.

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- But what do you think
about the surgery?

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Do you have an opinion about it?

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- Oh, I think it's long overdue.

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I mean, the doctors that
you've talked to in the past

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all said, "Oh, well,
it's cosmetic surgery,

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"you don't really need it done."

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But I'm curious about
how this is going to

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affect your personality.

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I mean, you're gonna
go from this voluptuous

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blonde or brunette--
- It depends.

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- To a still beautiful woman,
but with the attraction

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that men give you now just
because you have large breasts

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will go away.
- Right.

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- And you will be
like a normal girl

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walking down the street, and
guys will still look at you,

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but they won't look at
you with that same vavoom.

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- Right, right.
- We don't know

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what they're thinking, really.
- Which is good,

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but it's also going to
be, it'll be different.

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And I mean, that's what
I'm kind of thinking, too.

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I mean, it's gonna be
great because I will,

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I'd like to not
have that attention.

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- Right.
- But then, as you know,

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like when you get older,
you don't turn heads

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as much as you used to--
- I still do.

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- No, I know you do, I'm
just saying like less than

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we used to, maybe, right?
- Yes, I know, yes.

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- So there are people
who still appreciate.

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My mother saw an ad for
the Miss American Teenager

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pageant in the newspaper.

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But there are plenty of people

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who don't even turn their heads.

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What convinced me to do it
was the talent competition.

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- You won, of course.
- Well, I don't know if--

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- [Mom] There were
some beautiful women.

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- [Kristen] I wanted
to be a performer

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and I hoped this would be my
ticket out of life at the farm.

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(indistinct singing)

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When I won for beauty,
I was disappointed.

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Someone else won for talent.

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(indistinct singing)

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Grandma was there.
- What have you

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got to say, grad?
- Well.

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I'm grown up now.

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I'm inspired.

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And, let's eat and
get me a drink.

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♪ Yesterday ♪

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♪ Take me home ♪

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- It's nice to have this.
- It is.

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It's great.

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♪ West Virginia ♪

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♪ Mountain mama ♪

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♪ Take me home ♪

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- No one ever came to save me

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from my life at the farm.

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When I was 30, I finally
felt brave enough

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to leave for the big city
and make it as an actress.

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I left a world where
everyone knew me.

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In New York City, all
people saw was a blonde girl

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with big boobs.

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I learned to use it.

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♪ And a fancy pair ♪

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♪ Tighten up this derriere ♪

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♪ Nose with it ♪

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♪ Goes with it ♪

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♪ Tits and ass ♪

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(indistinct singing)

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The roles I was offered were
the sexy one, eye candy,

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the high class prostitute.

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I wanted to be a
serious actress.

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But with these boobs,

00:16:49.293 --> 00:16:51.293
the world was looking at
me with different eyes

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than what I saw when I
looked in the mirror.

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I'm getting a couple
of like side eye,

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there are some people, I think,

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that are very good at it.

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I think a lot of men have
become really, really good

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at totally looking
really quickly

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and looking away when they
could convince themselves

00:17:07.432 --> 00:17:09.432
that they weren't
looking at your boobs,

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but they totally were.

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There's nothing
wrong with looking.

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It's gawking and staring and
making inappropriate comments,

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that's the problem.

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You know.

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I'm Kristen, who are you?

00:17:24.929 --> 00:17:26.929
- I'm purely Patricia.
- Purely Patricia.

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You're gorgeous.
- Oh, thank you.

00:17:29.692 --> 00:17:31.295
- But I mean, I saw you
walk by, and I was like,

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this is a New Yorker,
this is amazing.

00:17:32.860 --> 00:17:34.860
- I am a New Yorker, I'm
known for being a New Yorker.

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- You are.

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And I'm making a
documentary film.

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And so I'm here,
actually, about,

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I'm making a movie
about my boobs.

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- Well, I kiss them, here.

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(laughing)

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Now that's what a
real New Yorker does.

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No inhibitions, you go for it.

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I think she should
take her coat off.

00:17:49.915 --> 00:17:51.915
You know, I'm also a
New York City stylist.

00:17:51.915 --> 00:17:53.157
- You are a stylist, yes.

00:17:53.161 --> 00:17:55.161
- So, where are your
boobs most popular,

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besides the fact
that they're real?

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You can tell that
they're real, right?

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You know how you
know they're real?

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- How?
- Because when you kiss them

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they have a little bounce.

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I love that.

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I have to tell you.

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Those are my lips on that.

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- My goodness.
- She kissed them, yes.

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If this had happened
when I first arrived,

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I would have thought it
was wonderfully amusing

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and left it at that.

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A very New York thing.

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Today, not so sure
what to make of it.

00:18:23.548 --> 00:18:25.548
(jazzy music)

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I did a performance
art piece about this

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to mess with people's minds.

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I made my breasts
the ultimate objects.

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- [Woman] Welcome to
the weight of breasts.

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Please take a seat.

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The artist invites you to feel
the weight of the breasts.

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- OK.

00:19:06.146 --> 00:19:07.632
- Now?

00:19:07.636 --> 00:19:09.636
Yes.

00:19:09.954 --> 00:19:11.954
(oscillating)

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- [Woman] You have just
touched a pair of breasts.

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How did that make you feel?

00:19:27.492 --> 00:19:29.492
- [Woman] A little bit
anxious, embarrassed.

00:19:31.213 --> 00:19:33.213
- [Man] Less erotic
than I thought.

00:19:33.217 --> 00:19:35.217
- [Man] It was like a bag
full of water or liquid.

00:19:37.342 --> 00:19:39.342
- [Man] I think it was
like touching, really,

00:19:40.142 --> 00:19:42.142
a piece of meat.
- Yeah, a pair of breasts,

00:19:42.146 --> 00:19:44.146
just on their own, isn't sexual.

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They need to be attached
to a, at least for me,

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to a person.

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- [Kristen] Separating
my breasts from my body

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makes them look like
dismembered lumps of flesh.

00:19:58.603 --> 00:20:00.603
They're no longer
sexy, the opposite.

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It made me feel like a thing.

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I'm a whole package.

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You don't just get
to choose one part.

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- Are you serious?
- Yeah.

00:20:15.055 --> 00:20:16.861
- [Man] The movie's about you
getting a breast reduction?

00:20:16.865 --> 00:20:18.865
- [Kristen] Yeah, I mean,
it's about more than that,

00:20:18.865 --> 00:20:20.825
but that's like yes, yes.

00:20:20.825 --> 00:20:22.066
- But serious, you're
not fucking serious.

00:20:22.066 --> 00:20:23.708
- I am serious, why, why?

00:20:23.712 --> 00:20:25.712
- Why are you getting?

00:20:26.228 --> 00:20:28.228
Is that not OK?
- Well, no, I mean,

00:20:28.228 --> 00:20:30.033
it's, I mean, it's
like a part of you,

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like why would you change that?

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- It is a part of
me, but I'm in pain,

00:20:32.276 --> 00:20:34.037
you know, I've got
a terrible back.

00:20:34.037 --> 00:20:35.720
Arol and I were in an off
Broadway play together

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15 years ago.

00:20:39.802 --> 00:20:41.802
- Let me look at
you in this light.

00:20:41.806 --> 00:20:43.806
- Why?
- I'm drawn to you.

00:20:43.806 --> 00:20:44.929
- You mustn't get too close.

00:20:44.933 --> 00:20:46.933
- Why?
- My father's at this party.

00:20:46.933 --> 00:20:48.573
- Is he the jealous type?
- No.

00:20:48.577 --> 00:20:50.577
He's the rich type.
- I'm going to become rich.

00:20:50.577 --> 00:20:51.936
- Are you?

00:20:51.940 --> 00:20:53.940
- I'm determined to.
- Well, then, do it quickly.

00:20:54.055 --> 00:20:56.055
- There's got to be
something else you can do

00:20:56.059 --> 00:20:58.059
besides like a breast reduction.

00:20:58.059 --> 00:20:59.904
- Do you know how many
times I've heard that?

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And it's not all
men that say that.

00:21:01.546 --> 00:21:03.027
But it's like, oh,
so get a better bra,

00:21:03.031 --> 00:21:05.031
why don't you lose 10 pounds,
do some back exercises.

00:21:05.590 --> 00:21:07.590
- No, but you know,
but you're missing my,

00:21:07.952 --> 00:21:09.952
it's not like, I'm to
like a big breast guy,

00:21:10.315 --> 00:21:12.315
so obviously I wouldn't
care about your breasts,

00:21:12.315 --> 00:21:13.438
either way--
- Right.

00:21:13.438 --> 00:21:15.279
- But it's just like, I don't
know, something about it,

00:21:15.279 --> 00:21:17.121
it's like it's a part
of you, like, why?

00:21:17.125 --> 00:21:19.125
- No, I get that.
- It's like killing,

00:21:19.364 --> 00:21:21.364
like I don't believe in
breast implants, either.

00:21:22.086 --> 00:21:24.086
But like the reduction's
almost worse, in a way.

00:21:25.127 --> 00:21:27.127
- In what way?
- I've never been asked

00:21:27.127 --> 00:21:29.092
that question before, I never
thought about that question.

00:21:29.096 --> 00:21:31.096
But I don't know, just something
about it makes me like sad.

00:21:33.137 --> 00:21:35.137
You know?

00:21:35.137 --> 00:21:36.100
I mean.

00:21:36.104 --> 00:21:38.104
Why are you laughing?
- It is sad.

00:21:38.503 --> 00:21:40.503
- Wow.
- No, I mean,

00:21:41.104 --> 00:21:43.104
your point is completely
true, that it is gonna change

00:21:43.588 --> 00:21:45.588
me physically--
- What if you feel

00:21:46.148 --> 00:21:48.148
totally different, what
if you like regret it?

00:21:48.152 --> 00:21:50.152
I guess you can like
get 'em augmented,

00:21:50.753 --> 00:21:52.753
but then they're fake.

00:21:52.753 --> 00:21:54.118
So you can't undo this.
- No, it's true.

00:21:54.122 --> 00:21:56.122
- What if you feel like, oh
my God, I made a mistake?

00:21:58.200 --> 00:22:00.200
It's not emotional for me, like,

00:22:00.200 --> 00:22:01.124
because what do I care?

00:22:01.128 --> 00:22:03.128
- You keep saying
that, which means,

00:22:03.128 --> 00:22:05.128
he doth protest too much.

00:22:05.132 --> 00:22:07.132
Is that Shakespeare?
- It is, it is.

00:22:07.490 --> 00:22:09.490
- Yeah, thank you.
- I think you know that.

00:22:09.494 --> 00:22:11.494
- I still care what men
think about my breasts.

00:22:13.217 --> 00:22:15.217
It's embarrassing.

00:22:16.139 --> 00:22:18.139
That I use my breasts
as objects, after all.

00:22:19.384 --> 00:22:21.384
(bass music)

00:22:34.879 --> 00:22:36.879
I started seeing my breasts
differently when I had a baby.

00:22:43.366 --> 00:22:45.366
Hey.

00:22:45.370 --> 00:22:47.370
Hey lady.

00:22:47.692 --> 00:22:49.692
Cat.

00:22:53.938 --> 00:22:55.938
Hi.

00:22:56.220 --> 00:22:58.220
What does it say,
motherhood is my what?

00:22:58.220 --> 00:22:59.864
My muse.

00:22:59.868 --> 00:23:01.868
- I wore it just for you.
- Hi.

00:23:03.227 --> 00:23:05.227
- So happy to see you.
- So nice to see you.

00:23:05.828 --> 00:23:07.828
Hi gorgeous.

00:23:07.828 --> 00:23:09.634
I just can't believe
that you have a baby.

00:23:09.638 --> 00:23:11.638
- Me neither.
- It's so nice to meet you.

00:23:14.196 --> 00:23:16.196
Hi.

00:23:16.196 --> 00:23:17.362
He's like, I'm in the position.

00:23:17.366 --> 00:23:19.366
I know what's happening, I
know what's happening, Mama.

00:23:21.404 --> 00:23:23.404
Yeah, there you go.

00:23:23.408 --> 00:23:25.408
- This thing where
he holds my hand.

00:23:27.370 --> 00:23:29.370
Is new.

00:23:29.374 --> 00:23:31.374
He's, yeah.

00:23:32.213 --> 00:23:34.213
Yeah.

00:23:34.216 --> 00:23:36.216
Thank you.

00:23:36.220 --> 00:23:38.220
Freud, apparently, used to
say, that for his patients,

00:23:42.547 --> 00:23:44.547
he would say, "I am the breast."

00:23:45.388 --> 00:23:47.388
This is something
where I was like,

00:23:47.388 --> 00:23:49.033
Kristen needs to
know about this.

00:23:49.033 --> 00:23:49.954
He would say, "I am the breast."

00:23:49.955 --> 00:23:51.955
Like that he was
providing all the things

00:23:51.959 --> 00:23:53.959
that the breast would
provide for his patients.

00:23:54.357 --> 00:23:56.357
- Wow.
- Like he was like

00:23:56.361 --> 00:23:58.361
really into mother
father stuff, Freud.

00:23:58.761 --> 00:24:00.761
So I was thinking about that
while I was walking today.

00:24:00.765 --> 00:24:02.765
I was like, "I am the
breast, I am the breast,

00:24:04.247 --> 00:24:06.247
"I am the breast."
- You have the best mommy.

00:24:07.332 --> 00:24:09.332
- I am the breast.
- Best mommy, you do.

00:24:12.254 --> 00:24:14.254
Breasts are made to feed babies,

00:24:14.258 --> 00:24:16.258
but first they attract
the opposite sex

00:24:16.581 --> 00:24:18.581
so you can actually have a baby.

00:24:25.029 --> 00:24:27.029
My breasts fed my daughter.

00:24:27.268 --> 00:24:29.268
They did their job.

00:24:29.268 --> 00:24:30.795
I won't have more babies.

00:24:30.799 --> 00:24:32.799
I'm no longer young, and
soon I won't have big boobs.

00:24:36.120 --> 00:24:38.120
(soft rock music)

00:24:58.262 --> 00:25:00.262
There's one more.

00:25:01.065 --> 00:25:03.065
(laughing)

00:25:04.749 --> 00:25:06.749
Why do you think
I have you around?

00:25:06.791 --> 00:25:08.791
It's so nice to have a
man around the house,

00:25:09.311 --> 00:25:11.311
as my mother would like to say.

00:25:11.311 --> 00:25:12.637
Now that's sexist,
and that's not helping

00:25:12.637 --> 00:25:14.599
my feminist cause,
but it is true.

00:25:14.603 --> 00:25:16.603
We do need men for some things,
like lifting heavy things

00:25:16.603 --> 00:25:18.082
when you have a bad back.

00:25:18.086 --> 00:25:20.086
If only I could
escape these roles.

00:25:20.086 --> 00:25:21.966
But you're bigger and stronger.

00:25:21.970 --> 00:25:23.970
I'm getting trapped
in the very cliche

00:25:23.970 --> 00:25:25.530
I'm trying to disrupt.

00:25:25.534 --> 00:25:27.534
OK, here we go, people,
give me my lane.

00:25:30.455 --> 00:25:32.455
Don't touch my van.

00:25:32.455 --> 00:25:34.258
I love this, actually.

00:25:34.258 --> 00:25:35.860
I would like to be a
taxi driver in New York.

00:25:35.864 --> 00:25:37.864
I think I'd be very,
very good at it.

00:25:38.303 --> 00:25:40.303
And I could totally
do that as a job,

00:25:41.025 --> 00:25:43.025
if no one ever hurt
me or molested me

00:25:43.748 --> 00:25:45.748
or was inappropriate talking
to me or murdered me.

00:25:52.234 --> 00:25:54.234
I'm on my way to Hollywood.

00:25:54.238 --> 00:25:56.238
The place where cliches
are made and perpetuated.

00:25:59.324 --> 00:26:01.324
(soft rock music)

00:26:10.373 --> 00:26:12.373
I didn't move to LA
because I never thought

00:26:12.377 --> 00:26:14.377
I could make it here.

00:26:15.217 --> 00:26:17.217
(chattering)

00:26:17.217 --> 00:26:17.822
I wasn't enough.

00:26:17.826 --> 00:26:19.826
Pretty enough, thin enough,
tan enough, blonde enough,

00:26:22.026 --> 00:26:24.026
cool enough.
- Welcome to Hollywood.

00:26:24.388 --> 00:26:26.388
You have arrived.
- Oh my goodness.

00:26:26.511 --> 00:26:28.511
Thank you, that's
so nice of you.

00:26:30.955 --> 00:26:32.955
(rock music)

00:26:39.882 --> 00:26:41.882
(engine revving)

00:26:41.886 --> 00:26:43.886
- Early 30s female, LOC.
- I was not enough,

00:26:44.489 --> 00:26:46.489
and yet too much
at the same time.

00:26:47.972 --> 00:26:49.972
I constantly tried to downplay
my big boobs at auditions

00:26:50.294 --> 00:26:52.294
and on set, but there they
were, stealing the spotlight.

00:26:54.899 --> 00:26:56.899
Angela.
- Connie.

00:26:57.419 --> 00:26:59.419
(laughing)

00:26:59.423 --> 00:27:01.423
- You better call it off, honey.

00:27:01.786 --> 00:27:03.786
Because if I ever
catch you two together.

00:27:07.431 --> 00:27:09.431
- [Man] Public opinion sways.

00:27:09.834 --> 00:27:11.834
A starlet doesn't
get any younger.

00:27:12.234 --> 00:27:14.234
(laughing)

00:27:14.238 --> 00:27:16.238
- That, my darling,
is sadly the truth.

00:27:21.566 --> 00:27:23.566
(chattering)

00:27:23.608 --> 00:27:25.608
Here she is.

00:27:27.572 --> 00:27:29.572
My girl, Jane.

00:27:31.856 --> 00:27:33.856
Once I saw directors
notes on my audition

00:27:33.856 --> 00:27:35.820
after he left the room.

00:27:35.824 --> 00:27:37.824
Next to my name, he'd
written only boobs.

00:27:40.905 --> 00:27:42.905
Dina Shore.

00:27:45.430 --> 00:27:47.430
My body was a trap.

00:27:48.472 --> 00:27:50.472
But it could have
been an opportunity.

00:27:51.473 --> 00:27:53.473
I wonder how many of
these women had to bow

00:27:53.477 --> 00:27:55.477
to the wishes of men
promising to make them a star?

00:27:56.959 --> 00:27:58.959
- You can be a star, guys.

00:27:58.963 --> 00:28:00.963
Put your name in
the walk of fame.

00:28:01.966 --> 00:28:03.966
Be a Hollywood star.

00:28:05.007 --> 00:28:07.007
Put your name.

00:28:07.007 --> 00:28:08.252
Name here, man.
- I never went into

00:28:08.256 --> 00:28:10.256
a hotel room with a powerful
producer to get my big break.

00:28:12.134 --> 00:28:14.134
(chattering)

00:28:14.138 --> 00:28:16.138
I wish nobody had to.

00:28:26.188 --> 00:28:28.188
- Thank you for
calling Wabe Sabe,

00:28:28.192 --> 00:28:30.192
Kim speaking, how
may I help you?

00:28:34.278 --> 00:28:36.278
OK.

00:28:36.278 --> 00:28:37.762
OK.

00:28:37.766 --> 00:28:39.766
And the name on
your reservation?

00:28:39.766 --> 00:28:41.525
You're very welcome.

00:28:41.529 --> 00:28:43.529
See you soon, bye bye.

00:28:43.808 --> 00:28:45.808
- OK, so, I'm sorry,
just to have say this.

00:28:46.048 --> 00:28:48.048
So when I came into
the restaurant,

00:28:48.052 --> 00:28:50.052
I noticed your beautiful
smile and your face,

00:28:50.052 --> 00:28:51.496
and everything, but then
I noticed your boobs,

00:28:51.496 --> 00:28:52.897
and I'm like making
a movie about boobs,

00:28:52.897 --> 00:28:54.459
and I'm usually the one
with the biggest boobs

00:28:54.463 --> 00:28:56.463
in the room, but
yours are bigger.

00:28:56.463 --> 00:28:58.262
- They are.
- So I just need to say

00:28:58.266 --> 00:29:00.266
like, oh my God.
- Thank you.

00:29:01.946 --> 00:29:03.946
If I may ask.

00:29:04.068 --> 00:29:06.068
I am a 36HH.
- OK.

00:29:07.031 --> 00:29:09.031
- And I was wondering,
what size are you?

00:29:09.474 --> 00:29:11.474
- I'm a 36 G or H.

00:29:11.754 --> 00:29:13.754
G mostly, sometimes an H.

00:29:13.758 --> 00:29:15.758
And in Europe it's like an
85, I think or something.

00:29:17.239 --> 00:29:19.239
- It's just now that I went,

00:29:19.243 --> 00:29:21.243
{\an7}because I went from triple
D, which was like great,

00:29:21.565 --> 00:29:23.565
and then I even went
to F, which was fine.

00:29:24.008 --> 00:29:26.008
And then I went to G,
and then I went to H,

00:29:26.931 --> 00:29:28.931
and I was an HH and I'm like,

00:29:29.093 --> 00:29:31.093
HH is a little heavy.

00:29:32.576 --> 00:29:34.576
H is hella heavy.

00:29:34.578 --> 00:29:36.578
No.

00:29:36.578 --> 00:29:37.581
(laughing)

00:29:37.581 --> 00:29:38.743
- Hella heavy.
- Hella heavy.

00:29:38.743 --> 00:29:39.704
So I was like, OK.

00:29:39.708 --> 00:29:41.708
And it's so funny because
we've been together so much

00:29:42.586 --> 00:29:44.586
of my life, that I know
my mom's always like,

00:29:45.428 --> 00:29:47.428
you should do this, you should,

00:29:47.428 --> 00:29:48.793
my grandma's like,
you're gonna get too old

00:29:48.793 --> 00:29:50.194
if you don't hurry
up and do it now,

00:29:50.198 --> 00:29:52.198
and I'm just like, my friends.

00:29:53.117 --> 00:29:55.117
- Yeah.
- They're like my friends.

00:29:55.480 --> 00:29:57.480
- And the best moment
of your day is what?

00:29:57.642 --> 00:29:59.642
- Taking my bra off.
- Yes, right?

00:29:59.642 --> 00:30:00.885
I mean, my God.

00:30:00.889 --> 00:30:02.889
- I can not be in my house
for more than five minutes

00:30:03.406 --> 00:30:05.406
without snatching my bra off.

00:30:05.410 --> 00:30:07.410
Women with smaller breasts
have never had a third boob.

00:30:07.410 --> 00:30:09.253
Like.

00:30:09.253 --> 00:30:10.615
It's like the third
boob, you know,

00:30:10.615 --> 00:30:12.337
like right in the middle.
- Oh, I know.

00:30:12.341 --> 00:30:14.341
- Where it's like,
and you're like.

00:30:15.780 --> 00:30:17.780
And so I will be no clothes
in the house all day

00:30:17.822 --> 00:30:19.822
until it's time,
the last thing I do

00:30:19.862 --> 00:30:21.862
is put on my bra and my clothes.

00:30:21.865 --> 00:30:23.865
I do my hair, I do my
makeup, I do everything,

00:30:23.869 --> 00:30:25.869
I take my showers,
I eat, everything,

00:30:26.070 --> 00:30:28.070
and I wear my robe, until I'm
done with everything else.

00:30:30.795 --> 00:30:32.795
And then I put this torturous,

00:30:33.838 --> 00:30:35.838
wonderfully supportive
contraption on my body.

00:30:36.638 --> 00:30:38.638
(laughing)

00:30:38.641 --> 00:30:40.641
And go out and push
my shoulders back.

00:30:40.645 --> 00:30:42.645
Go off into the world and
get ready for the hugs

00:30:43.888 --> 00:30:45.888
and the gropes and
the pictures and the--

00:30:45.888 --> 00:30:47.492
- Do you feel like
an object, though?

00:30:47.496 --> 00:30:49.496
Do you feel like people
don't take you seriously

00:30:49.496 --> 00:30:51.336
because of your breasts?

00:30:51.336 --> 00:30:52.937
- Absolutely, all the time.

00:30:52.941 --> 00:30:54.941
Jobs.

00:30:54.941 --> 00:30:56.100
Groups of people.

00:30:56.104 --> 00:30:58.104
Like when I meet people in
certain social settings,

00:30:58.104 --> 00:30:59.704
like they'll just treat me like,

00:30:59.708 --> 00:31:01.708
"Oh, some girl with fake
breasts coming along

00:31:02.666 --> 00:31:04.666
"to put her boobs in
everybody's man's face."

00:31:04.666 --> 00:31:05.990
And I'm not like that at all.

00:31:05.994 --> 00:31:07.994
I'm like so sweet and
kind and I'm just like,

00:31:09.033 --> 00:31:11.033
it's heredity, I didn't
buy 'em, I just got 'em,

00:31:12.196 --> 00:31:14.196
and I keep 'em up and
lifted, like my smile.

00:31:16.401 --> 00:31:18.401
Do what I can do, you know?

00:31:18.401 --> 00:31:20.325
But actually, when
I was younger,

00:31:20.329 --> 00:31:22.329
because I was a C cup when
I was in the fourth grade.

00:31:23.808 --> 00:31:25.808
And it was, I had
some traumatic like,

00:31:26.208 --> 00:31:28.208
little terrible like
experience I've had,

00:31:28.212 --> 00:31:30.212
like janitors at my school
say very inappropriate things.

00:31:32.697 --> 00:31:34.697
And I had this one
job where it was like

00:31:35.697 --> 00:31:37.697
a part time job,
I was in my 20s,

00:31:37.697 --> 00:31:38.823
and I was working
at a warehouse,

00:31:38.827 --> 00:31:40.827
like helping ship things,
and one of the managers

00:31:42.307 --> 00:31:44.307
came to me and told me
I was a distraction.

00:31:44.669 --> 00:31:46.669
And I was like, how is
it that I'm a distraction

00:31:46.708 --> 00:31:48.708
when I come in and
I'm working hard,

00:31:48.712 --> 00:31:50.712
I'm wearing T-shirts
and jeans and you know,

00:31:50.873 --> 00:31:52.873
I'm working, working,
working, working every day,

00:31:52.877 --> 00:31:54.877
and I'm like, if they're
not doing their jobs,

00:31:55.199 --> 00:31:57.199
you can't come to me and
tell me I'm the distraction.

00:31:57.562 --> 00:31:59.562
You go to them and tell them
to stop flirting with me

00:31:59.562 --> 00:32:00.724
and go back to work.

00:32:00.728 --> 00:32:02.728
So I've had those issues,
where jobs look at me

00:32:02.807 --> 00:32:04.807
like a liability
or like a lawsuit.

00:32:04.927 --> 00:32:06.927
Like I would just be a lawsuit

00:32:06.931 --> 00:32:08.931
because I'm just some
big chested bimbo

00:32:09.733 --> 00:32:11.733
coming in and trying
to cause problems.

00:32:14.178 --> 00:32:16.178
(jazzy music)

00:32:18.501 --> 00:32:20.501
- I still get angry
thinking about

00:32:20.505 --> 00:32:22.505
all the times I've been
groped, catcalled, harassed.

00:32:24.989 --> 00:32:26.989
And worse.

00:32:30.752 --> 00:32:32.752
You know, boobs are
really the one thing

00:32:32.756 --> 00:32:34.756
people feel, they feel some
sort of ownership with them

00:32:35.438 --> 00:32:37.438
because they're so
in the public domain

00:32:37.442 --> 00:32:39.442
and they're so, you know,
glorified and objectified,

00:32:39.682 --> 00:32:41.682
that for some
reason people think

00:32:41.686 --> 00:32:43.686
that if you have big boobs,
you want to show them

00:32:43.767 --> 00:32:45.767
to the world, and you want
people to comment on them

00:32:46.008 --> 00:32:48.008
and you're a bimbo and an idiot

00:32:48.012 --> 00:32:50.012
and you know, it's
happened many times.

00:32:50.575 --> 00:32:52.575
And actually in Zurich is not
a place where men catcall,

00:32:53.217 --> 00:32:55.217
but it's definitely a place
where I've had have happen

00:32:56.060 --> 00:32:58.060
in the past several years,
men make comments like that.

00:32:58.780 --> 00:33:00.780
And one guy in the
(speaking foreign language)

00:33:00.783 --> 00:33:02.783
just started walking next
to me and was staring at me

00:33:02.786 --> 00:33:04.786
and then finally I stopped
and I said, "What?"

00:33:04.790 --> 00:33:06.790
And he said, "Those are
amazing, are they real?"

00:33:07.031 --> 00:33:09.031
And again, it was like,
it just feels violating.

00:33:10.074 --> 00:33:12.074
It feels like you're
being molested.

00:33:12.397 --> 00:33:14.397
It feels like
verbal molestation.

00:33:15.600 --> 00:33:17.600
That sounds extreme, but
that's what it feels like.

00:33:25.289 --> 00:33:27.289
That's just one story.

00:33:27.289 --> 00:33:28.812
I have more.

00:33:28.816 --> 00:33:30.816
Bigger, uglier.

00:33:31.135 --> 00:33:33.135
Every woman does.

00:33:34.899 --> 00:33:36.899
Our bodies are somehow shameful.

00:33:37.342 --> 00:33:39.342
We're told to hide
them, until we're not.

00:33:39.864 --> 00:33:41.864
And when we show them,
the world owns us.

00:33:45.550 --> 00:33:47.550
(sighing)

00:33:47.831 --> 00:33:49.831
Elevator anxiety, OK.

00:34:00.284 --> 00:34:02.284
This is the one.

00:34:02.565 --> 00:34:04.565
(doorbell ringing)

00:34:04.569 --> 00:34:06.569
I'm meeting my good friend
Jeanne and her mother, Iris.

00:34:09.574 --> 00:34:11.574
Jeanne and I met before
my boobs got huge.

00:34:12.857 --> 00:34:14.857
And when they arrived,
and I was desperately

00:34:14.939 --> 00:34:16.939
trying to hide them, she
was the one who told me

00:34:17.742 --> 00:34:19.742
it's all right to have boobs.

00:34:22.307 --> 00:34:24.307
- Well, you know,
after Jeanne was born,

00:34:25.710 --> 00:34:27.710
I was a size D.

00:34:27.832 --> 00:34:29.832
And I went to a size C,
and I was very upset.

00:34:31.155 --> 00:34:33.155
Because I felt I had, all
of a sudden, it was like,

00:34:34.878 --> 00:34:36.878
hey, I had something
that was good.

00:34:38.561 --> 00:34:40.561
Now I'm not as good.

00:34:40.561 --> 00:34:41.885
- You didn't think
you were as good

00:34:41.885 --> 00:34:42.886
because your boobs got smaller?

00:34:42.886 --> 00:34:44.569
- I've been talking
to David about it.

00:34:44.569 --> 00:34:46.411
My boobs are smaller.

00:34:46.415 --> 00:34:48.415
And I guess that certainly
was part of my identity.

00:34:51.374 --> 00:34:53.374
I was a D.

00:34:53.377 --> 00:34:55.377
- When I was 13 years
old, I already could feel,

00:34:55.381 --> 00:34:57.381
I mean, maybe like my
mother, I could already feel

00:34:57.901 --> 00:34:59.901
like I got attention
from men that were

00:34:59.901 --> 00:35:01.346
way too older than me.

00:35:01.350 --> 00:35:03.350
I got attention from
men that were older

00:35:03.868 --> 00:35:05.868
because I had breasts
that were a size C.

00:35:06.469 --> 00:35:08.469
I mean, I had adult
woman breasts.

00:35:08.473 --> 00:35:10.473
So it already was like, I
don't, there wasn't like,

00:35:12.114 --> 00:35:14.114
ooh, this gets me, I didn't want

00:35:14.114 --> 00:35:15.880
that attention from breasts.

00:35:15.884 --> 00:35:17.884
I mean, in our family, my
mother and her sisters, I mean,

00:35:19.604 --> 00:35:21.604
and me, I mean,
this was breasts.

00:35:21.884 --> 00:35:23.884
I mean, eighth grade
I was a size C.

00:35:23.888 --> 00:35:25.888
I mean, that's, you know,
we all were breasts.

00:35:27.091 --> 00:35:29.091
And they certainly were

00:35:29.814 --> 00:35:31.814
desired, I mean, Dad
photographed you in the nude

00:35:35.458 --> 00:35:37.458
with your breasts.
- Right.

00:35:37.462 --> 00:35:39.462
- He liked--
- Men love to photograph

00:35:40.343 --> 00:35:42.343
women nude, they do.

00:35:42.347 --> 00:35:44.347
You know, this is no
if ands buts about it.

00:35:46.351 --> 00:35:48.351
And it's art.
- It's art.

00:35:49.874 --> 00:35:51.874
- You know.
- It's art, sure.

00:35:51.874 --> 00:35:53.237
- You know who I am.

00:35:53.237 --> 00:35:53.957
You know.

00:35:53.958 --> 00:35:55.958
What really bothers me
about the whole thing

00:35:55.962 --> 00:35:57.962
is that, especially women who
have to hide their bodies, OK?

00:36:00.883 --> 00:36:02.883
You know, in the burkas.

00:36:02.887 --> 00:36:04.887
This disturbs me
greatly, I mean, because,

00:36:04.968 --> 00:36:06.968
you know, we're not gonna
recognize your human beingness,

00:36:09.971 --> 00:36:11.971
because you're a woman.

00:36:11.975 --> 00:36:13.975
And you may turn us on,
and that's your problem.

00:36:16.621 --> 00:36:18.621
You know, so I have
really a huge--

00:36:20.064 --> 00:36:22.064
- [Kristen] We're women
before we're people.

00:36:22.224 --> 00:36:24.224
- You have to wear long sleeves.

00:36:24.228 --> 00:36:26.228
- Things to look at and own.
- Wear a skirt, be covered.

00:36:29.233 --> 00:36:31.233
(jazzy music)

00:36:31.876 --> 00:36:33.876
- I'm so tired of desperately
clinging to my youth.

00:36:34.479 --> 00:36:36.479
Or feeling depressed when
I look in the mirror.

00:36:46.248 --> 00:36:48.248
Why shouldn't I feel
sexy and powerful

00:36:48.252 --> 00:36:50.252
and confident at
my age and not care

00:36:50.615 --> 00:36:52.615
about the size of my breasts?

00:36:53.257 --> 00:36:55.257
(jazzy music)

00:37:19.644 --> 00:37:21.644
Sam was my boyfriend when
I was 18, before the boobs.

00:37:25.007 --> 00:37:27.007
The reason I wanted to,
well, there's lots of reasons

00:37:27.011 --> 00:37:29.011
I wanted to see you, it's been
a really, really long time.

00:37:29.251 --> 00:37:31.251
- Yeah, hello, I was pretty
surprised to get that call.

00:37:31.255 --> 00:37:33.255
- Well, here's the thing.

00:37:34.258 --> 00:37:36.258
I'm making this movie
about my breasts.

00:37:38.823 --> 00:37:40.823
I'm getting a breast reduction.

00:37:41.746 --> 00:37:43.746
- Oh.

00:37:43.746 --> 00:37:45.068
OK.

00:37:45.068 --> 00:37:46.070
- Yeah.
- Have you talked to

00:37:46.074 --> 00:37:48.074
your daughter about this?
- She knows, she knows.

00:37:48.751 --> 00:37:50.751
- What's she say?
- She asked me

00:37:50.751 --> 00:37:51.676
what size I was going to.

00:37:51.680 --> 00:37:53.680
I said I'm an extra large now,
and I'm going to be a medium.

00:37:54.879 --> 00:37:56.879
You know?
- So, why are you doing it?

00:37:58.202 --> 00:38:00.202
- Back pain, neck pain,
constant headache.

00:38:00.803 --> 00:38:02.803
- OK.
- Yeah.

00:38:02.803 --> 00:38:04.489
- [Sam] Well, then
that's a perfect reason.

00:38:04.489 --> 00:38:06.010
- And it would also be really
nice to have, you know,

00:38:06.014 --> 00:38:08.014
to be able to wear
different clothes and not be

00:38:08.089 --> 00:38:10.089
stared at like a freak
of nature, whatever.

00:38:10.089 --> 00:38:11.336
I'm not worried
about the surgery,

00:38:11.336 --> 00:38:13.137
but I am worried about
how I'm going to feel

00:38:13.141 --> 00:38:15.141
afterwards, identity wise,
and emotionally wise.

00:38:15.177 --> 00:38:17.177
It's a love hate relationship.

00:38:17.177 --> 00:38:18.463
They're a blessing
and they're a curse,

00:38:18.467 --> 00:38:20.467
and I feel like it's been such
a huge part of my identity

00:38:21.145 --> 00:38:23.145
because I self objectify,
I think, with them,

00:38:23.428 --> 00:38:25.428
plus the whole world, you know,

00:38:25.428 --> 00:38:27.392
I'm the chick with the
big boobs, you know?

00:38:27.396 --> 00:38:29.396
I feel like, you know, will
I become more invisible,

00:38:31.476 --> 00:38:33.476
you know, if I didn't
have these boobs

00:38:33.476 --> 00:38:35.440
and I was walking
down the street,

00:38:35.444 --> 00:38:37.444
would you still check me out?

00:38:39.564 --> 00:38:41.564
- That's a good question.

00:38:42.125 --> 00:38:44.125
Well, yeah, because you're
like my demographic.

00:38:45.490 --> 00:38:47.490
I'm a 50 year old guy,
you're a pretty hot

00:38:47.612 --> 00:38:49.612
40 something year
old woman, fuck yeah.

00:38:50.613 --> 00:38:52.613
I would totally check you out.

00:38:52.613 --> 00:38:54.218
I would totally hit on you.

00:38:54.222 --> 00:38:56.222
You've got great tits.

00:38:56.222 --> 00:38:57.782
No doubt about that.

00:38:57.782 --> 00:38:59.344
And as a man, I see that.

00:38:59.348 --> 00:39:01.348
But I also know you, and
I'm attracted to you,

00:39:03.144 --> 00:39:05.144
regardless of the boobs.

00:39:05.148 --> 00:39:07.148
It's nice, they're
nice to look at.

00:39:07.472 --> 00:39:09.472
It's nice to, any man
would love to have you

00:39:11.154 --> 00:39:13.154
on their arm, and the boobs
is just an added benefit.

00:39:16.361 --> 00:39:18.361
You know, something
to tell me friends.

00:39:19.522 --> 00:39:21.522
She's got huge boobs, awesome.

00:39:21.526 --> 00:39:23.526
But that's more bragging rights.

00:39:23.526 --> 00:39:24.809
That's what guys do.

00:39:24.813 --> 00:39:26.813
It's true, that's
what guys do, so.

00:39:26.813 --> 00:39:28.292
- It is what guys do.

00:39:28.296 --> 00:39:30.296
Yeah, I told you, oh, here's,
Jeanne Hoffman told me

00:39:30.373 --> 00:39:32.373
that we should get married.

00:39:32.377 --> 00:39:34.377
She said that, why
don't you marry Sammy?

00:39:34.377 --> 00:39:35.620
- I think it'll happen.
- You do?

00:39:35.624 --> 00:39:37.624
You think we'll get
married some day?

00:39:37.742 --> 00:39:39.742
- I think we will, I do.
- Like when?

00:39:41.184 --> 00:39:43.184
- Well.

00:39:44.467 --> 00:39:46.467
Maybe five or six years.

00:39:46.467 --> 00:39:48.313
You'll come out to LA.

00:39:48.313 --> 00:39:49.394
I do.

00:39:49.398 --> 00:39:51.398
If I was a betting man,
I'd say there's still

00:39:52.597 --> 00:39:54.597
a pretty heavy attraction
between us, I'm just saying.

00:39:55.838 --> 00:39:57.838
- Just saying.
- Yeah, I do.

00:39:57.838 --> 00:39:59.684
I've always felt that.

00:39:59.685 --> 00:40:01.685
Yeah.

00:40:01.685 --> 00:40:03.287
I think so.
- Cool.

00:40:03.291 --> 00:40:05.291
All right, five, six years huh?

00:40:05.291 --> 00:40:06.971
- I'll mark my calendar.

00:40:06.975 --> 00:40:08.975
I'll send you a calendar invite.

00:40:08.975 --> 00:40:10.213
(laughing)

00:40:10.213 --> 00:40:11.376
How about that?
- Send me a wedding

00:40:11.380 --> 00:40:13.380
calendar invite on Google.
- OK.

00:40:13.380 --> 00:40:15.299
But do we even want
to get married?

00:40:15.299 --> 00:40:16.581
I don't know if we
want to get married.

00:40:16.585 --> 00:40:18.585
Look at, I'm
already backing out.

00:40:18.585 --> 00:40:19.584
(laughing)

00:40:19.584 --> 00:40:21.225
- You are already, oh yeah.

00:40:21.229 --> 00:40:23.229
You are, you're already
backing out of getting married.

00:40:27.552 --> 00:40:29.552
All right, so 2000, April 20th,
2000, what is it right now?

00:40:30.231 --> 00:40:32.231
17?

00:40:32.231 --> 00:40:34.118
What about 2025,
is that too late?

00:40:34.118 --> 00:40:35.239
- That's fine,
that's eight years.

00:40:35.243 --> 00:40:37.243
- 2025?
- Yeah, I'll be, yeah.

00:40:37.243 --> 00:40:39.242
- What, will you be 70?

00:40:39.242 --> 00:40:40.365
- Fuck you.

00:40:40.365 --> 00:40:41.244
(laughing)

00:40:41.248 --> 00:40:43.248
- No, you're not that
much older than me.

00:40:43.248 --> 00:40:45.089
You look so good for almost 70.

00:40:45.093 --> 00:40:47.093
- Thank you.
- You're welcome.

00:40:47.093 --> 00:40:48.973
- It's the air.

00:40:48.973 --> 00:40:50.495
Boobs, it's the boobs.

00:40:50.495 --> 00:40:51.456
- It's the boobs and the smog.

00:40:51.460 --> 00:40:53.460
- Yeah, no, 2025.
- All right.

00:40:53.460 --> 00:40:55.259
- That's fine.

00:40:55.259 --> 00:40:56.381
OK.
- OK.

00:40:56.385 --> 00:40:58.385
(laughing)

00:41:00.665 --> 00:41:02.665
- You're so cute.
- I miss you.

00:41:03.388 --> 00:41:05.388
You're so cute.

00:41:06.631 --> 00:41:08.631
(guitar strumming)

00:41:28.291 --> 00:41:30.291
- [Man] I just heard
that you are going

00:41:30.291 --> 00:41:31.696
to have a breast reduction.

00:41:31.700 --> 00:41:33.700
- [Woman] You have
the best boobs,

00:41:33.700 --> 00:41:34.819
please don't cut them off.

00:41:34.819 --> 00:41:36.100
- [Woman] Getting
your boobs cut off?

00:41:36.104 --> 00:41:38.104
- [Man] That is a
crime upon humanity.

00:41:38.302 --> 00:41:40.302
Those globes should
never be reduced.

00:41:42.825 --> 00:41:44.825
- [Woman] They're your
calling card, honey.

00:41:44.825 --> 00:41:45.790
- [Man] You don't have cancer.

00:41:45.794 --> 00:41:47.794
Quit your complaining.
- I will miss them dearly.

00:41:48.873 --> 00:41:50.873
- I love your boobs.
- Can you give them to me?

00:41:51.313 --> 00:41:53.313
- [Woman] Don't get
rid of your boobs,

00:41:53.317 --> 00:41:55.317
then you'll just be
like everybody else.

00:41:58.843 --> 00:42:00.843
- [Kristen] This is my decision.

00:42:01.323 --> 00:42:03.323
I'm doing it for me.

00:42:03.327 --> 00:42:05.327
I've worked hard to
get here and it's time.

00:42:10.334 --> 00:42:12.334
Less visible, maybe.

00:42:13.337 --> 00:42:15.337
But more powerful.

00:42:18.102 --> 00:42:20.102
Before I go back to
Zurich and meet this new,

00:42:21.065 --> 00:42:23.065
smaller boobed Kristen, I
have one more stop to make.

00:42:26.350 --> 00:42:28.350
(chattering)

00:43:04.388 --> 00:43:06.388
The last time I saw
my sister Keira,

00:43:06.791 --> 00:43:08.791
she was still my little brother.

00:43:20.244 --> 00:43:22.244
I asked her if it changed her,

00:43:22.327 --> 00:43:24.327
now that she's fully
living as a woman.

00:43:24.449 --> 00:43:26.449
She said, "I'm not a girl
or a boy, I'm just me."

00:43:31.856 --> 00:43:33.856
(singing)

00:43:41.225 --> 00:43:43.225
- And when you both
ride on the back,

00:43:43.306 --> 00:43:45.306
there's a spot right here.

00:43:45.306 --> 00:43:46.430
So just put your
foot right here, OK?

00:43:46.430 --> 00:43:47.632
- [Kristen] I love
that Keira didn't stop

00:43:47.636 --> 00:43:49.636
doing the things she loved
just because they weren't

00:43:49.636 --> 00:43:51.396
what girls were supposed to do.

00:43:51.397 --> 00:43:53.397
- OK, and just sit back here--
- She's still the same person

00:43:53.401 --> 00:43:55.401
who loves speed and danger
and can fix anything.

00:43:57.081 --> 00:43:59.081
- It's as fun and as
stable as it looks.

00:43:59.682 --> 00:44:01.682
It's as easy as it looks.

00:44:01.686 --> 00:44:03.686
And if you fall, you
just fall in the snow.

00:44:06.128 --> 00:44:08.128
- OK, so we just hold on here.

00:44:08.128 --> 00:44:09.614
All right, and I lean with you.

00:44:09.618 --> 00:44:11.618
And there's nothing
else I need to know?

00:44:11.656 --> 00:44:13.656
- Nope, we're just
gonna do a small loop.

00:44:14.417 --> 00:44:16.417
- Please don't kill me, honey.
- We'll be fine.

00:44:16.417 --> 00:44:17.502
- OK.

00:44:17.506 --> 00:44:19.506
Mommy would not be
happy if I died.

00:44:19.944 --> 00:44:21.944
(engine revving)

00:44:23.788 --> 00:44:25.788
OK.

00:44:32.474 --> 00:44:34.474
- Do your boobs shake?

00:44:34.474 --> 00:44:35.079
- Yeah.

00:44:35.079 --> 00:44:36.521
- [Keria] My boobs
now shake, too.

00:44:36.525 --> 00:44:38.525
(laughing)

00:44:39.483 --> 00:44:41.483
(sentimental music)

00:45:10.514 --> 00:45:12.514
- Good, thank you.

00:45:13.277 --> 00:45:15.277
(laughing)

00:45:27.171 --> 00:45:29.171
- [Man] You want to borrow
your sister's dress?

00:45:30.532 --> 00:45:32.532
What for?
- I want to wear it

00:45:32.536 --> 00:45:34.536
for the Halloween party.
- There are names

00:45:35.139 --> 00:45:37.139
for boys who go around
wearing girls' clothes.

00:45:37.862 --> 00:45:39.862
- [Woman] Oh, don't
be silly, darling.

00:45:40.385 --> 00:45:42.385
- [Narrator] Glen did wear the
dress to the Halloween party.

00:45:43.346 --> 00:45:45.346
He even took--
- Did you want

00:45:45.346 --> 00:45:46.631
to wear your hair long
when you were little?

00:45:46.635 --> 00:45:48.635
- Always, but I couldn't,
I wasn't allowed to,

00:45:48.635 --> 00:45:50.435
it was a butch cut, you
know, it was always--

00:45:50.435 --> 00:45:51.916
- So cute, a little whiffle?
- No, I hated it.

00:45:51.920 --> 00:45:53.920
I mean, I made myself
look as good as I can,

00:45:53.920 --> 00:45:55.559
but I can't go
through that stage

00:45:55.560 --> 00:45:57.560
without everybody going,
"Oh, what are you a hippie,

00:45:57.560 --> 00:45:58.443
"what's wrong with you?"

00:45:58.447 --> 00:46:00.447
So therefore, even just
trying to be yourself,

00:46:00.965 --> 00:46:02.965
you go through a stage of
ridicule because people

00:46:04.048 --> 00:46:06.048
don't accept you trying
to grow your hair out.

00:46:06.729 --> 00:46:08.729
Little girls, no problem.

00:46:08.733 --> 00:46:10.733
And then they cut their
hair short, no problem.

00:46:10.855 --> 00:46:12.855
Little girls can get away
with anything they want

00:46:12.855 --> 00:46:14.819
as far as self expression.

00:46:14.819 --> 00:46:16.260
Little boys have
to fit into a mold.

00:46:16.264 --> 00:46:18.264
- [Kristen] You're right,
that's totally true.

00:46:18.580 --> 00:46:20.580
Yeah, no absolutely.

00:46:20.580 --> 00:46:22.266
- So, you know,
everybody had then,

00:46:22.266 --> 00:46:23.468
the women get a
little older and then

00:46:23.468 --> 00:46:25.269
they have to be, I'll
fit into the female mold

00:46:25.273 --> 00:46:27.273
of what is right, and then
the guys all try and say,

00:46:27.352 --> 00:46:29.352
oh, I have to be a guy, and
I have to draw that female,

00:46:29.594 --> 00:46:31.594
and the whole little game
of who you have to be

00:46:32.715 --> 00:46:34.715
and how you have to
be and how you have to

00:46:34.719 --> 00:46:36.719
represent yourself is a
horrible psychological mess.

00:46:39.003 --> 00:46:41.003
I'm surprised anybody
makes it through.

00:46:43.648 --> 00:46:45.648
(orchestral music)

00:47:01.906 --> 00:47:03.906
- [Kristen] Breaking
free from expectations

00:47:03.988 --> 00:47:05.988
and owning who you are is brave.

00:47:06.911 --> 00:47:08.911
Keira is much braver than I am.

00:47:09.394 --> 00:47:11.394
But I'm making progress.

00:47:13.678 --> 00:47:15.678
(jazzy music)

00:47:21.205 --> 00:47:23.205
Back in Switzerland.

00:47:23.647 --> 00:47:25.647
I actually have no idea what
size I'll be after tomorrow.

00:47:59.642 --> 00:48:01.642
(chattering)

00:48:01.642 --> 00:48:03.568
I'm excited about the surgery.

00:48:03.572 --> 00:48:05.572
And who I'll be beyond boobs.

00:48:13.017 --> 00:48:15.017
OK.

00:48:21.906 --> 00:48:23.906
I've been obsessed
with them for years.

00:48:24.708 --> 00:48:26.708
I use them to get
attention, for art projects,

00:48:27.552 --> 00:48:29.552
and to challenge people's
images of women and bodies.

00:48:34.717 --> 00:48:36.717
- [Doctor] All right.

00:48:36.721 --> 00:48:38.721
I would need to measure
your blood pressure.

00:48:38.721 --> 00:48:40.204
- OK.

00:48:40.204 --> 00:48:41.047
Oh, this one, OK.

00:48:41.049 --> 00:48:43.049
- Thank you so much.
- Why do you do the left one?

00:48:44.128 --> 00:48:46.128
Is that, is there a reason?
- It's closer to the heart.

00:48:46.569 --> 00:48:48.569
- Oh, sure.

00:48:48.569 --> 00:48:49.013
See?

00:48:49.017 --> 00:48:51.017
I didn't learn that
in nursing school.

00:48:52.296 --> 00:48:54.296
- [Doctor] As
comfortable as possible.

00:48:55.340 --> 00:48:57.340
(beeping)

00:48:57.739 --> 00:48:59.739
- It is time.

00:48:59.743 --> 00:49:01.743
It is time to say goodbye.

00:49:02.066 --> 00:49:04.066
Yeah, I'm gonna be fine,
it's gonna be fine, yeah.

00:49:08.230 --> 00:49:10.230
See you in a few hours, yeah.

00:49:10.230 --> 00:49:11.956
- You will be the same.
- I will be the same.

00:49:11.960 --> 00:49:13.960
I will still be loud
and obnoxious and
silly and outspoken.

00:49:15.239 --> 00:49:17.239
- And with the crazy laugh.
- And with the crazy laugh.

00:49:18.282 --> 00:49:20.282
That's right.

00:49:20.764 --> 00:49:22.764
I thought that was
just a gesture.

00:49:22.887 --> 00:49:24.887
It's to open the door.

00:49:24.969 --> 00:49:26.969
I'm shedding the
big busted costume.

00:49:27.771 --> 00:49:29.771
It was part of a role
I'm no longer playing.

00:49:34.419 --> 00:49:36.419
It's time for a more real me.

00:49:38.262 --> 00:49:40.262
I am not my breasts.

00:49:41.426 --> 00:49:43.426
(orchestral music)

00:50:48.533 --> 00:50:50.533
(hip hop music)

00:50:58.862 --> 00:51:00.862
♪ People ♪

00:51:01.426 --> 00:51:03.426
♪ Uh huh ♪

00:51:05.750 --> 00:51:07.750
♪ Baby ♪

00:51:17.522 --> 00:51:19.522
♪ People ♪

00:51:20.884 --> 00:51:22.884
♪ Uh huh ♪

00:51:26.890 --> 00:51:28.890
♪ Uh huh, people ♪

00:51:29.893 --> 00:51:31.893
♪ Uh huh ♪

00:51:33.137 --> 00:51:35.137
♪ Baby ♪

00:51:35.899 --> 00:51:37.899
♪ Come on ♪

00:51:53.478 --> 00:51:55.478
♪ Uh huh, people ♪

00:51:56.481 --> 00:51:58.481
♪ Uh huh ♪

00:52:02.926 --> 00:52:04.926
♪ Uh huh, people ♪

00:52:06.210 --> 00:52:08.210
♪ Uh huh ♪

00:52:10.895 --> 00:52:12.895
♪ Baby ♪