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People told me that time will heal us.

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But that was the biggest lie.
How can you heal from losing a sister?

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Since that day, our life has changed a lot.

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We look like a normal Syrian family.

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I am brave, brave, brave, just like David...

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Emotional.

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Loud.

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Messy.

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Sometimes we even look happy.

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But this is only on the surface.

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None of us talks about you.

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And none of us
hangs your photo in our homes.

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The truth is that since that moment,
we've been living in a silence.

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It's not about talking,
it's that I don't want to remember.

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She's always on my mind.

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I dream about her...

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...and she's always smiling
and feeling comfortable.

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No one knows about this story at work.

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But if someone asks me
how many sisters I have, I say three.

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I don't say any more...

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...maybe because I don't want to believe it.

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Most people, when they talk
about their lives...

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...say "before my marriage"
and "after my marriage"...

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..."before motherhood"
and "after motherhood".

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For me, it's before and after my sister's
accident, because that changed my life.

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Maysoon...

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...today is the first time in five years
I'm talking to you...

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...and it's also the first day
I've decided to look for you.

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I want to know exactly
what happened to you.

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I may not find the answers
to my questions...

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...but I just want to mention you
every day.

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I feel it's my right
to mention you every day.

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I'm going to start making a film
about Maysoon.

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Did you hear what I said?

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Do you want to say anything?

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What do you want me to say?
Do it.

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Start shooting.

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I hope it will be good.

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So you're okay with it?

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Yes.

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Oh, my God.

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A bridge has collapsed in Iraq.

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I'm going to start
making the film about Maysoon.

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Really?
- The one I told you about.

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Really?
- Yes.

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That's fine.

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I hope it will bring
some good to our lives.

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So you're okay with me making the film?

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Yes, I'm okay with anything you do
for Maysoon.

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What are you hoping for?

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I hope that if the film is released,
it can help us find something.

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I hope so.

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Why don't we talk about Maysoon?

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Because it opens big scars.

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You know I'm traveling to Italy?

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By yourself?

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No, with my Italian friend, Alessia.

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We spent months
conducting online research.

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We're going to meet Angelo Milazzo,
the Italian investigator of this accident.

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I was talking to Mum,
she feels that Maysoon is in Italy.

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What do you think?

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I don't want to answer that.

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It just feels for me...

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...that we didn't have closure.

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We are still in a process of...

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...grieving?

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It's not grieving because grief...

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...requires an answer...

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...and sometimes you don't have one.

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Only 24 corpses have been
officially reported and identified.

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More casualties were reported
from other shipwrecks...

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...which received more media coverage
and respect...

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...than this one, which had
only 24 casualties reported...

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...even though we know
there were many more.

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There were more than 200 casualties
linked to this one.

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Yes, for sure.
But it didn't happen in Italy...

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...but in waters far from Italian territory...

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...even though
the Italian Navy intervened.

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Your sister's body...

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...didn't arrive in Italy.
I'm certain about that.

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In the videos that I've seen,
there may be...

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...some trace of your sister.

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We can only see the profile of a woman...

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...who, from the picture I saw,
could be your sister.

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This...?

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This?
- No.

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No, this is not Maysoon.

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It felt like the boat
was about to flip over.

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It was moving violently
from one side to the other.

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From this side to that, wildly.

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It felt like it was about to flip over.
I told Mohammed:

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"I will jump into the water..."

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"...then you push Maysoon out,
then you jump in yourself."

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I jumped...

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...and I looked up at Maysoon...

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...I saw Mohammed holding her,
and at that moment the boat keeled over.

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I pushed Maysoon out,
but the boat flipped over...

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...and the water pulled us in.

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Then I didn't understand anything
that happened after that.

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I pushed her with my leg
to make sure she got out.

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I thought that the one who got out
would have a bigger chance of survival.

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I pushed her out...

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...and the water pulled us in.

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The boat flipped over on top of me.

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I went down...

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...and I couldn't come back up.

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I don't know what happened after that.

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I died.
I felt like I had died.

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I didn't think I would survive,
because when the water pulled you in...

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...you either knocked your head
against something or you couldn't get out.

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If I had thought I could survive,
I would have held on to her.

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Did Maysoon knock her head
against the boat?

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Was she pushed inside the boat?
I don't know...

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...but the boat went down.

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That's what happened.

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What happened to me after that
doesn't matter.

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Only Maysoon matters.

00:14:03.760 --> 00:14:06.120
But there were people inside.

00:14:06.240 --> 00:14:08.120
What did they do to the boat?

00:14:08.240 --> 00:14:11.360
They knew that
there were people inside.

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Those are the ones they saved.

00:14:15.960 --> 00:14:19.720
You see, a lot of them
had already received life vests.

00:14:20.280 --> 00:14:23.280
This is where the operation...
- And they left the boat.

00:14:23.400 --> 00:14:26.160
They left the boat with people inside it.

00:14:26.280 --> 00:14:30.080
What can they do?
- They can take them out!

00:14:30.720 --> 00:14:33.880
What he said to you before,
but I can ask again:

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They don't have the skill to do that.
- Why are they rescuing then?

00:14:40.800 --> 00:14:45.800
What she wants to know is:

00:14:46.640 --> 00:14:49.280
There's a boat that capsized
with people inside.

00:14:49.400 --> 00:14:53.320
Not everyone received life vests,
we didn't have enough.

00:14:55.960 --> 00:14:57.760
The boat went down...

00:14:57.880 --> 00:15:02.400
...and they knew that
there were people inside.

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They didn't have anyone dive
to take the bodies.

00:15:06.080 --> 00:15:08.320
Like he said, you have to ask
the government.

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This is not an operation of saving
anymore.

00:15:11.400 --> 00:15:15.760
It takes years and a ton of money
to recover a boat...

00:15:15.880 --> 00:15:20.200
...and to recover the bodies inside.

00:15:20.320 --> 00:15:26.120
Because when a boat sinks,
it's not just a few metres you have to dive.

00:15:26.240 --> 00:15:28.000
The sea is very deep there.

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And then, frankly, I don't understand
why the Italian state must do this...

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...and not the states
these people came from.

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There are two different operations.
The rescue is what they did.

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The other is diving...

00:15:43.840 --> 00:15:46.240
...and searching
and collecting the boat...

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...and this is another department.
It's not these people.

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I can't hide my anger...

00:16:28.040 --> 00:16:30.480
...you know, I'm angry.

00:16:31.200 --> 00:16:33.720
Do you believe the answers
he gave you?

00:16:33.840 --> 00:16:37.320
There is nothing making sense
in this story.

00:16:37.440 --> 00:16:41.640
There are a lot of things that happened
that don't make sense.

00:16:41.760 --> 00:16:44.000
I don't think that
they don't make sense.

00:16:44.120 --> 00:16:48.240
But it's an answer that is not enough.

00:16:48.760 --> 00:16:53.760
It's not enough, but you want me to believe
my sister is dead. I don't want to believe that.

00:16:53.880 --> 00:16:57.520
I don't want you to believe anything
you don't know the answer to.

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That's what Angelo was saying
and what you are now trying to tell me.

00:17:02.240 --> 00:17:06.960
No, I want to tell you...
- That it doesn't make sense that she's alive.

00:17:07.080 --> 00:17:11.600
That's the fact that everyone
is trying to push in my face.

00:17:11.720 --> 00:17:13.680
And I don't want to believe it.

00:17:13.800 --> 00:17:17.440
There is part of me saying
Maysoon might be alive...

00:17:17.560 --> 00:17:19.880
...and I don't want to believe
she is dead.

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I don't want to believe
that the girl who lived with me...

00:17:23.640 --> 00:17:27.560
...in the same room for 20 years,
is dead...

00:17:27.680 --> 00:17:31.560
...she didn't continue her life,
she didn't achieve anything in her life...

00:17:31.680 --> 00:17:35.000
...and I don't want to believe
that she is dead.

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I'm her sister. I'm crazy.
I don't make sense.

00:17:50.480 --> 00:17:53.000
Why didn't you name her Maysoon?

00:17:55.240 --> 00:17:57.080
Mum didn't approve.

00:17:57.840 --> 00:18:01.080
Meaning...

00:18:02.400 --> 00:18:07.960
...she loves Jana, we all love her...

00:18:08.080 --> 00:18:11.000
...but no one can take
Maysoon's place.

00:18:14.160 --> 00:18:18.760
If I asked you to describe Maysoon,
what do you remember most about her?

00:18:18.880 --> 00:18:20.160
Her smile.

00:18:21.160 --> 00:18:23.920
Her smile and her dimples.

00:18:25.960 --> 00:18:30.760
She was the one among us
who laughed the most from the heart.

00:18:30.880 --> 00:18:32.760
Her smile was amazing.

00:18:32.880 --> 00:18:36.000
Jana has the same dimples as Maysoon.

00:18:40.160 --> 00:18:44.200
How many sisters does Dad have?

00:18:44.320 --> 00:18:46.360
He has 1, 2, 3.

00:18:46.480 --> 00:18:48.320
Three?

00:18:48.440 --> 00:18:50.280
Maysoon...

00:18:50.400 --> 00:18:52.480
...Auntie Nour...

00:18:52.600 --> 00:18:53.680
...and Batoul.

00:18:53.800 --> 00:18:55.320
I'm Batoul.

00:18:55.440 --> 00:19:00.200
Maysoon is on a faraway journey.

00:19:00.320 --> 00:19:03.440
Can I call Maysoon?

00:19:04.240 --> 00:19:06.880
She doesn't have a phone.
- Why?

00:19:10.120 --> 00:19:16.680
I don't know why, but she told me
that she loves you a lot.

00:19:17.600 --> 00:19:21.360
How did she tell you that
if you can't hear her?

00:19:21.480 --> 00:19:22.920
I heard her.

00:19:23.040 --> 00:19:28.240
How do you hear her,
if you can't visit her?

00:19:29.840 --> 00:19:33.800
Where did you get these from?

00:19:33.920 --> 00:19:36.000
This is also Maysoon.

00:19:36.120 --> 00:19:42.160
Is this a guitar?
- Yes, she was making music.

00:19:42.280 --> 00:19:46.480
It's something similar to a guitar,
called a lute.

00:20:02.120 --> 00:20:04.360
Maysoon had an amazing voice.

00:20:04.480 --> 00:20:09.240
I think that her voice is better
than she thought it was.

00:20:09.360 --> 00:20:14.040
When she sang, she moved me.

00:20:14.480 --> 00:20:19.360
She made me listen to her sing each day
for half an hour, to hear my opinion.

00:20:19.960 --> 00:20:23.520
She looks like Mum.

00:20:28.520 --> 00:20:32.280
She was a decent person.

00:20:32.960 --> 00:20:35.920
And calm.
She was very musical.

00:20:39.520 --> 00:20:45.000
She studied at the High Institute of Arts
and Music, and did Architecture at university.

00:20:45.440 --> 00:20:47.600
All Maysoon.

00:20:50.120 --> 00:20:53.720
I want to show them to Aarnoud.

00:20:53.840 --> 00:20:57.280
This is Batoul and Maysoon.

00:20:59.040 --> 00:21:02.560
My father is the sister of Maysoon and...

00:21:02.680 --> 00:21:05.480
Your father is the brother of Maysoon.

00:21:08.960 --> 00:21:11.640
What is this on the table?

00:21:11.760 --> 00:21:13.760
That's candle wax.

00:21:24.440 --> 00:21:30.160
When the regime arrested and tortured
our brother, we were devastated.

00:21:30.280 --> 00:21:33.280
When he was released,
our parents wanted to leave fast.

00:21:33.400 --> 00:21:41.200
They said that if we stayed and
refused to travel, one of us might die.

00:21:43.040 --> 00:21:45.400
I feel bad for Mohammed.

00:21:45.520 --> 00:21:49.520
On top of what happened to him,
he lost you, Maysoon.

00:21:51.560 --> 00:21:53.840
I don't know why they arrested me.

00:21:53.960 --> 00:21:59.400
I asked them to investigate me...

00:21:59.520 --> 00:22:02.600
...because my life was under threat
if I stayed in the country.

00:22:02.720 --> 00:22:06.520
They investigated me...

00:22:06.640 --> 00:22:10.080
...claiming that...

00:22:10.200 --> 00:22:15.200
...I wrote a post about the Syrian Army
on Facebook. But it wasn't true.

00:22:15.320 --> 00:22:19.520
I offered to give them my username
and password...

00:22:19.640 --> 00:22:23.640
...so they could check my history.
They wouldn't find anything.

00:22:23.760 --> 00:22:31.560
So they just pressure you
until you confess.

00:22:35.600 --> 00:22:37.080
I remember that...

00:22:37.200 --> 00:22:42.080
...years ago, when you started the project,
was it your brother that had a connection?

00:22:42.200 --> 00:22:48.720
Yeah, he submitted the request in 2014.
- And this is the first time they call you back?

00:22:48.840 --> 00:22:50.520
Yes.
- From 2014?

00:22:50.640 --> 00:22:55.400
Yeah. They had many meetings
with my brother, but nothing happened.

00:22:57.360 --> 00:23:02.280
Welcome today. My name is Lucia.
You are here to speak about Maysoon.

00:23:02.960 --> 00:23:05.560
Rami, Diaa and Maysoon went missing.

00:23:05.680 --> 00:23:09.680
My father and my brother
and Karam survived.

00:23:10.680 --> 00:23:13.040
I have a list.

00:23:13.160 --> 00:23:15.360
We just found it, actually.

00:23:15.480 --> 00:23:18.880
Of all the names of people
who went missing.

00:23:19.000 --> 00:23:22.600
Thanks to this
we discovered that 70 people...

00:23:22.720 --> 00:23:25.760
...maybe the number is wrong,
I will double-check the number...

00:23:25.880 --> 00:23:30.960
...but around 70 people were found in Tunisia
and we didn't know about that.

00:23:31.080 --> 00:23:35.000
The number of the missing is around 170...

00:23:35.120 --> 00:23:40.760
...because we have this list,
we have the 24 people in Italy...

00:23:40.880 --> 00:23:43.080
...but we don't know the exact number.

00:23:43.200 --> 00:23:47.600
Basically Zuwarah in Libya is around here...

00:23:47.720 --> 00:23:50.840
...and here is where they found the bodies.

00:23:50.960 --> 00:23:55.360
There were also 40 or 50 bodies
found in Libya.

00:23:55.480 --> 00:24:00.960
But do you work with the Red Cross
in Italy, Tunisia, Libya?

00:24:01.080 --> 00:24:02.840
Yeah, we work together.

00:24:02.960 --> 00:24:07.440
It varies per country what is possible,
but we are connected.

00:24:07.560 --> 00:24:10.760
I have to check what is possible
in each country...

00:24:10.880 --> 00:24:14.880
...and they can see
if the physical description we make...

00:24:15.000 --> 00:24:20.200
...matches the information they have.
The information about bodies found.

00:24:20.320 --> 00:24:24.240
I have to be very honest with you:
this is a hard conversation...

00:24:24.360 --> 00:24:29.960
...the whole search can take a long time and
often there is no result, nobody is found.

00:24:58.880 --> 00:25:01.600
Welcome.
- You haven't changed at all.

00:25:01.720 --> 00:25:06.040
Really? I don't look older?
- Not at all.

00:25:11.840 --> 00:25:13.800
This is a messed-up world.

00:25:22.760 --> 00:25:24.680
Don't cry.

00:25:31.480 --> 00:25:33.960
Okay, come in.

00:25:35.240 --> 00:25:39.120
Every success I've had in my work
was because of Maysoon.

00:25:40.040 --> 00:25:47.200
Everyone who considers Taher
to be a good architect...

00:25:48.240 --> 00:25:54.200
...should know that the first project I got
belonged to Maysoon.

00:25:54.320 --> 00:25:57.720
I finished it for her
and it was a big success.

00:25:57.840 --> 00:26:00.440
Many clients came to me after that.

00:26:01.520 --> 00:26:03.960
It's hard when people ask me
how I started my work...

00:26:04.080 --> 00:26:09.280
...and I say I finished a project
of my girlfriend's who isn't here anymore.

00:26:09.720 --> 00:26:12.920
I'm selfish when it comes to Maysoon,
very selfish.

00:26:13.040 --> 00:26:15.880
I feel like I'm the only one who's sad.

00:26:17.080 --> 00:26:23.480
I wanted to come and blame you
because you pushed her to travel.

00:26:25.400 --> 00:26:28.120
Did you come to blame me today?
- No.

00:26:28.240 --> 00:26:32.920
Honestly?
- No, but that's definitely how I felt at the time.

00:26:33.360 --> 00:26:34.720
Definitely.

00:26:38.880 --> 00:26:40.120
Taher?

00:26:41.160 --> 00:26:43.880
Tell me that you love me.
- I love you.

00:26:45.200 --> 00:26:47.840
Once, we were out with friends...

00:26:47.960 --> 00:26:51.360
...and we saw a little girl called Selena.

00:26:51.480 --> 00:26:55.120
We played with her,
she was playing in the water.

00:26:55.240 --> 00:26:59.600
We decided that if we had a girl,
we would call her Selena.

00:27:01.080 --> 00:27:04.960
We went shopping...

00:27:05.080 --> 00:27:12.000
...and we bought a dress for a baby girl,
for Selena. I still have it in Syria.

00:27:14.280 --> 00:27:16.000
I went back...

00:27:17.400 --> 00:27:20.520
...to hug the dress and I cried.

00:27:25.680 --> 00:27:29.960
I asked Nour, and she said that
Mohammed told her Maysoon was gone.

00:27:30.960 --> 00:27:33.480
I will never forget this word.

00:27:35.600 --> 00:27:37.160
The route.

00:27:37.280 --> 00:27:40.920
I wasn't at all aware of
the route they took.

00:27:41.040 --> 00:27:43.720
I asked Maysoon, where are you going now?

00:27:44.600 --> 00:27:47.000
To my death, she answered.

00:27:51.040 --> 00:27:53.800
I believe people can feel these things.

00:27:56.680 --> 00:27:58.560
She felt it.

00:28:01.760 --> 00:28:04.480
I was able to communicate with Nour.

00:28:05.240 --> 00:28:07.440
I couldn't talk to you.

00:28:10.080 --> 00:28:12.560
Why not to me?
- I don't know why.

00:28:13.880 --> 00:28:21.160
Because you were the first one who travelled.
It may have been your right...

00:28:22.400 --> 00:28:24.280
...but you can't prevent me...

00:28:28.760 --> 00:28:30.760
Give me a second.

00:28:33.800 --> 00:28:37.200
But I was the reason?
- You are not.

00:28:38.280 --> 00:28:43.280
I couldn't talk to Mohammed.
I knew he was in a lot of pain.

00:28:44.040 --> 00:28:45.600
What could I say to him?

00:28:45.720 --> 00:28:50.040
"Why didn't you hold her better?
Why didn't you drown with her?"

00:29:04.120 --> 00:29:08.840
I'm not the type of person...

00:29:08.960 --> 00:29:13.960
...who usually blames himself a lot.

00:29:14.840 --> 00:29:19.520
But in this case, it took me a year
of thinking that it was my fault.

00:29:21.280 --> 00:29:24.960
Have you overcome that feeling by now?
- No, I haven't.

00:29:25.080 --> 00:29:27.200
But I don't think...

00:29:28.280 --> 00:29:33.360
...that Maysoon is upset with me.

00:29:38.560 --> 00:29:42.960
I'm the first one who came here.

00:29:43.080 --> 00:29:46.600
I'm the one who encouraged everyone
to follow me here.

00:29:49.480 --> 00:29:52.840
Six years have passed,
and every day I say...

00:29:53.880 --> 00:29:56.320
...I wish I was the one who's gone.

00:29:56.440 --> 00:30:00.920
I wish I was the one who had drowned.

00:30:03.320 --> 00:30:06.680
I wish I was the one who was hurt.

00:30:06.800 --> 00:30:10.160
After all, I was the one who wanted to leave.

00:30:11.040 --> 00:30:15.480
Every day I ask myself
if I'm doing the right thing.

00:30:15.600 --> 00:30:19.400
Every day I feel guiltier
than the day before.

00:31:01.720 --> 00:31:05.160
You've stopped for a long time.
- Yes, about five months.

00:31:06.080 --> 00:31:09.520
What are you waiting for?
You need to go on.

00:31:10.920 --> 00:31:15.760
As long as there is new information
in Tunisia, you should go on.

00:31:15.880 --> 00:31:20.800
You start something, you need to continue it.
At least for our mother.

00:31:22.440 --> 00:31:25.400
Ladies and gentlemen, welcome to Tunisia.

00:31:28.880 --> 00:31:32.280
We are landing at Djerba-Zarzis airport.

00:31:32.400 --> 00:31:34.560
It's now 5 p.m.

00:31:42.920 --> 00:31:46.880
Ben Gardane is a border area
between Tunisia and Libya.

00:31:47.000 --> 00:31:51.240
Most people there work
in trading and smuggling.

00:31:53.240 --> 00:31:55.440
It has sea and desert.

00:31:56.280 --> 00:31:59.480
It has desert and sand piles.

00:31:59.600 --> 00:32:03.720
In the southwest, there are mountains.

00:32:06.240 --> 00:32:11.400
There are thousands of Syrian,
Libyan and African migrants here.

00:32:12.800 --> 00:32:14.560
Thousands of them.

00:32:24.640 --> 00:32:28.280
According to your information,
how many bodies turned up here?

00:32:28.400 --> 00:32:30.520
There are 54 bodies here.

00:32:30.640 --> 00:32:34.320
The north of Tunisia is closer to Italy
than the south.

00:32:34.440 --> 00:32:40.160
True, but most Syrians travelled from Libya.
That is why the bodies turned up here...

00:32:40.280 --> 00:32:45.000
...as Ben Gardane is closer to Libya
than the north of Tunisia.

00:32:46.760 --> 00:32:49.920
Migrants don't travel from ports.

00:32:50.040 --> 00:32:54.760
Do you know how illegal migration works?

00:32:54.880 --> 00:32:58.880
Slim, I also travelled to Europe
by boat across the sea.

00:32:59.000 --> 00:33:00.920
Okay.

00:33:01.040 --> 00:33:03.080
By boat?
- Yes.

00:33:03.200 --> 00:33:05.200
Ah, so you have experience.

00:33:20.720 --> 00:33:22.200
Hello.

00:33:24.400 --> 00:33:27.560
There were nine women.

00:33:27.680 --> 00:33:31.080
Nine women, four children
and the rest were men.

00:33:31.200 --> 00:33:37.360
It was August 31, 2014.

00:33:37.480 --> 00:33:40.920
We started burying them
on the first of September.

00:33:41.040 --> 00:33:45.520
What made the process easier...

00:33:45.640 --> 00:33:49.160
...was that some of the bodies had belts...

00:33:49.280 --> 00:33:54.360
...that contained documents.

00:33:54.480 --> 00:33:58.680
Then we realized
that these bodies were Syrians.

00:33:58.800 --> 00:34:04.400
Someone like me, who lost her sister,
how can I know if she was in this port...

00:34:04.520 --> 00:34:08.120
...if you only listed a few documents?
You didn't take DNA samples?

00:34:08.240 --> 00:34:10.760
Yes, no...

00:34:10.880 --> 00:34:12.960
Yes or no?

00:34:13.080 --> 00:34:17.040
Here, no, we didn't take samples.

00:34:17.160 --> 00:34:24.360
I suppose that Human Rights Watch...

00:34:24.480 --> 00:34:27.880
...should do more to identify bodies...

00:34:28.000 --> 00:34:34.400
...than just relying on passports.

00:34:38.440 --> 00:34:42.600
They told me it was a mass burial.

00:34:42.720 --> 00:34:47.520
No individual burials,
which is what happens now.

00:34:47.640 --> 00:34:52.360
And no DNA samples were taken,
unfortunately...

00:34:53.280 --> 00:34:57.880
...we are sorry to say.

00:34:58.000 --> 00:35:02.400
Then the Red Cross intervened.

00:35:02.520 --> 00:35:08.680
They were interested in the matter
and wanted to identify the bodies.

00:35:08.800 --> 00:35:14.440
So they brought in a forensic expert...

00:35:14.560 --> 00:35:18.880
...who said it would be extremely expensive...

00:35:19.000 --> 00:35:23.000
...to identify the bodies.

00:35:23.120 --> 00:35:28.040
It would cost 1.5 million dollars.

00:35:28.160 --> 00:35:31.080
It was too expensive,
so they stopped working.

00:35:53.680 --> 00:35:57.040
Do you remember what she was wearing?

00:35:57.160 --> 00:36:03.960
I remember her shoes.
She was wearing blue Converse sneakers.

00:36:04.080 --> 00:36:09.840
She was wearing this top
and over it a long black abaya.

00:36:10.200 --> 00:36:14.880
There was nobody wearing an abaya
with a life vest over it.

00:36:15.000 --> 00:36:19.080
Supposing we could see
the abaya and the life vest.

00:36:19.200 --> 00:36:21.400
I don't remember seeing anyone
in an abaya.

00:36:22.200 --> 00:36:25.840
Do you have photos of all 54 bodies?

00:36:25.960 --> 00:36:32.520
Not all of them, but most of them.
- Can you show me them one by one?

00:36:36.440 --> 00:36:39.400
This is a woman.
- A girl.

00:36:39.520 --> 00:36:42.120
Can you pause it?

00:36:45.480 --> 00:36:49.280
I think the hair is red.
- This is a girl.

00:36:49.400 --> 00:36:53.160
Okay.
- This is another girl.

00:36:53.280 --> 00:36:58.160
I think she is young.

00:36:58.280 --> 00:36:59.920
She's bloated.

00:37:09.040 --> 00:37:11.520
Is this a man or a girl?

00:37:45.800 --> 00:37:51.640
I volunteered to bury bodies
that washed up on Zarzis beach.

00:37:51.760 --> 00:37:54.760
How did you bury them?

00:37:54.880 --> 00:37:57.920
Each one by itself.
- Each one by itself?

00:37:58.040 --> 00:38:03.760
Yes, each one by itself,
then they put sand over all of them.

00:38:04.880 --> 00:38:09.840
Okay, but each body was in its own grave?
- Yes, it was.

00:38:10.320 --> 00:38:12.960
Is there a barrier between them?
- Yes.

00:38:13.080 --> 00:38:17.400
There was a stone between them.

00:38:18.680 --> 00:38:22.960
Have you seen a young woman
who looks like this?

00:38:24.640 --> 00:38:27.000
This is my sister Maysoon.

00:38:27.120 --> 00:38:31.040
Can she have been one of the nine women?
- I don't think so.

00:38:33.080 --> 00:38:39.480
These nine women
were all wearing dark clothes.

00:38:41.240 --> 00:38:45.240
The clothes were dark grey,
to be specific.

00:38:45.360 --> 00:38:48.360
And all of them were wearing a hijab.

00:38:48.480 --> 00:38:51.560
All of them wore a hijab?
- Yes.

00:38:58.400 --> 00:39:01.960
You're shooting the film now.

00:39:02.080 --> 00:39:06.400
If the film succeeds but you didn't find
Maysoon, will you feel guilty?

00:39:06.520 --> 00:39:12.400
Yes, because I'm shooting the film...

00:39:12.520 --> 00:39:17.960
...to find Maysoon,
but also to let people hear her story.

00:39:18.480 --> 00:39:22.480
I don't want to stop...

00:39:23.800 --> 00:39:30.680
...until I find an answer or until I can say
that I tried everything and couldn't find her.

00:39:30.800 --> 00:39:33.240
You said you're not able to do both...

00:39:33.360 --> 00:39:36.440
...so will you continue making the film
or searching for Maysoon?

00:39:36.560 --> 00:39:38.800
I will finish the film...

00:39:38.920 --> 00:39:44.760
...and also continue searching for Maysoon...

00:39:44.880 --> 00:39:48.240
...and the other missing people.

00:40:21.120 --> 00:40:27.440
I'm calling the man in charge here,
so he can show us the exact location.

00:40:43.640 --> 00:40:44.880
Hello?

00:40:46.160 --> 00:40:49.040
I'm fine. How are you?

00:40:50.160 --> 00:40:55.160
We've just entered the location
of the cemetery, but where is it exactly?

00:40:55.280 --> 00:40:59.560
We're in the rubble,
just in front of the tower.

00:41:02.080 --> 00:41:03.800
Where is it exactly?

00:41:06.000 --> 00:41:12.120
We communicate with everyone,
we have permission to be here.

00:41:13.280 --> 00:41:17.520
No, I'm a long way from the tower.
I'm outside.

00:41:23.760 --> 00:41:27.200
I understand.

00:41:30.920 --> 00:41:32.360
Bastards!

00:41:37.960 --> 00:41:42.200
They're sending someone
from National Security to guide us.

00:41:48.320 --> 00:41:50.600
Stop filming.
Who's responsible here?

00:41:51.440 --> 00:41:53.520
I am. I have a permit to film.

00:41:53.640 --> 00:41:57.480
You can't film here. This is a military area.
Tell him to stop filming.

00:41:57.600 --> 00:41:59.600
Hans, set down the camera, please.

00:41:59.720 --> 00:42:02.840
You need to come with me
and we will keep all equipment.

00:42:02.960 --> 00:42:05.360
Why? We have permission to film.

00:42:24.080 --> 00:42:30.080
I'm not sure if you can help me,
I want to ask about the bodies...

00:42:30.200 --> 00:42:35.760
...that washed up in Libya in 2014.

00:42:35.880 --> 00:42:39.680
I can't discuss this subject with you.

00:42:39.800 --> 00:42:45.280
I'm a member of the Red Crescent,
but you need to contact other people.

00:42:54.400 --> 00:42:56.600
I understand, but I would like...

00:42:56.720 --> 00:43:02.240
I might give you information
that causes problems between countries.

00:43:02.360 --> 00:43:06.640
Honestly, every time I talk to anyone there...

00:43:06.760 --> 00:43:13.280
...they give me different information.
So whenever I talk with an extra person...

00:43:13.400 --> 00:43:17.360
...he gives me a little bit more information.
So I'm trying to call everyone...

00:43:17.480 --> 00:43:20.040
...to put pieces together.

00:43:38.520 --> 00:43:41.920
There were people
that washed up in Tunisia.

00:43:42.040 --> 00:43:45.160
Bodies from the same accident.

00:43:46.080 --> 00:43:48.560
Some of them have names...

00:43:50.240 --> 00:43:57.240
...because they had passports
or other IDs.

00:43:58.520 --> 00:44:02.040
There were 54 of them.
- Bodies?

00:44:03.560 --> 00:44:06.280
Yes. One of them was Sudanese.

00:44:07.280 --> 00:44:09.640
The other 53 were Syrians.

00:44:11.440 --> 00:44:14.200
They buried them...

00:44:14.320 --> 00:44:19.400
...in an area
near where they found them...

00:44:19.520 --> 00:44:22.880
...called El-Ketef Port.

00:44:23.840 --> 00:44:25.800
I went there.

00:44:26.760 --> 00:44:29.400
It's a military area.

00:44:29.520 --> 00:44:32.880
As soon as we entered, they arrested us.

00:44:33.000 --> 00:44:38.360
They held us for about seven hours,
without our phones.

00:44:39.480 --> 00:44:44.200
If it was like that in Tunisia,
what will happen in Libya?

00:44:44.320 --> 00:44:47.280
I showed them Maysoon's photo,
they said they hadn't seen her.

00:44:47.400 --> 00:44:51.480
Did they remember?
- That's the problem, Mum.

00:44:52.240 --> 00:44:56.200
We're talking about their memories,
which aren't reliable.

00:44:56.880 --> 00:45:01.040
I remember when we arrived in Italy.

00:45:01.840 --> 00:45:07.000
They said they had 25 bodies.

00:45:08.080 --> 00:45:11.200
One of them was a woman.

00:45:12.040 --> 00:45:14.520
If you see the photo...

00:45:16.320 --> 00:45:23.800
...she was bloated, and the fish
had eaten parts of her, you see.

00:45:24.600 --> 00:45:27.920
You don't expect to be able to identify her.

00:45:28.040 --> 00:45:33.800
Only if you are her sister or her father,
you might recognize her.

00:45:33.920 --> 00:45:38.880
What I'm trying to say is that, even if they
told you they do or don't remember...

00:45:39.000 --> 00:45:45.720
...the photo you're showing them
is different from the bodies they found.

00:45:45.840 --> 00:45:48.640
Do you see what I mean?
- Yes, I do.

00:45:50.000 --> 00:45:56.360
Even if the body washed up there,
they wouldn't recognize it.

00:46:23.600 --> 00:46:26.680
In the end, I need to speak up.

00:46:46.640 --> 00:46:48.400
Maysoon's things?
- Yes.

00:46:49.640 --> 00:46:51.920
Karam gave them to me.

00:46:52.880 --> 00:46:56.720
I'm not sure if I should give them...

00:46:58.080 --> 00:47:00.360
...to Mum.

00:47:00.480 --> 00:47:05.640
I haven't opened this...

00:47:05.760 --> 00:47:08.640
...in eight years.

00:47:09.680 --> 00:47:11.800
What's in it?

00:47:12.520 --> 00:47:14.520
Her sunglasses.

00:47:15.720 --> 00:47:20.200
I still remember these things,
we shared them.

00:47:20.320 --> 00:47:22.360
I remember this.

00:47:29.400 --> 00:47:32.080
It won't open.
- Because of the salt.

00:47:36.400 --> 00:47:38.640
Should I give them to Mum?

00:47:39.360 --> 00:47:41.120
No.

00:47:42.120 --> 00:47:46.800
It would hurt her, especially now.

00:47:52.200 --> 00:47:57.080
Difficult. It was a decision.
I don't know what to say.

00:48:01.480 --> 00:48:03.680
Was it the wrong decision?

00:48:03.800 --> 00:48:05.720
Yes, it was.

00:48:06.320 --> 00:48:10.200
It was the wrong journey.

00:48:12.520 --> 00:48:15.280
When you come here, you realize...

00:48:15.400 --> 00:48:19.840
...that we are oppressed people.

00:48:19.960 --> 00:48:24.200
We're barred from everything,
even from recognizing the value of our lives...

00:48:24.320 --> 00:48:26.240
...and ourselves.

00:48:26.360 --> 00:48:30.640
They take everything from us.

00:48:30.760 --> 00:48:33.040
Even your feeling as a human being...

00:48:33.160 --> 00:48:36.920
...so you forget how to value yourself
as a human being.

00:48:40.440 --> 00:48:46.520
A human being who values himself
would never undertake such a journey.

00:48:46.640 --> 00:48:50.200
But they make you hate yourself.

00:48:50.320 --> 00:48:52.080
They push you to leave.

00:48:52.200 --> 00:48:56.080
They are responsible
for everyone who died out there.

00:48:57.120 --> 00:49:00.160
Even if it's not on their land,
they are guilty.

00:49:06.080 --> 00:49:10.680
Next week is August 24th.

00:49:11.560 --> 00:49:12.880
A Wednesday.

00:49:14.120 --> 00:49:18.360
Every year we do nothing,
and that annoys Mum.

00:49:19.560 --> 00:49:24.040
So I thought I'd call you
and ask you what you think.

00:49:24.760 --> 00:49:28.240
Batoul, I'm not in favour of filming.

00:49:28.360 --> 00:49:29.600
Okay.

00:49:29.720 --> 00:49:32.920
I suggest we go there and tell her...

00:49:33.040 --> 00:49:37.240
...we're coming to talk about Maysoon.

00:49:39.040 --> 00:49:43.240
It will hurt your mum...

00:49:43.360 --> 00:49:45.920
...if we act as if Maysoon is gone.

00:49:46.040 --> 00:49:47.200
Alright.

00:49:49.680 --> 00:49:54.880
Because this is the first time
we're getting together...

00:49:56.040 --> 00:49:59.960
...the filming might make it easier.

00:50:01.200 --> 00:50:03.560
Alright.

00:50:06.360 --> 00:50:08.360
Right, so we agree.

00:50:09.240 --> 00:50:11.680
Who will tell her?
- I will.

00:50:11.800 --> 00:50:14.360
Batoul, as she's the one filming.

00:50:23.440 --> 00:50:30.360
The problem is that no organization
takes the initiative or the responsibility...

00:50:30.480 --> 00:50:33.920
...to gather the necessary information...

00:50:34.040 --> 00:50:38.920
...such as who is missing and who survived.

00:50:39.040 --> 00:50:41.640
When the Italian ships came...

00:50:41.760 --> 00:50:47.160
...and before they started rescuing people,
they stayed for more than two hours...

00:50:47.280 --> 00:50:51.960
...just filming.

00:50:52.080 --> 00:50:56.600
Instead of immediately rescuing people,
they were just filming.

00:51:00.040 --> 00:51:06.120
When we arrived in Italy, they kept
filming us for three hours under the sun.

00:51:08.160 --> 00:51:13.040
But I think we must avoid...

00:51:13.160 --> 00:51:17.520
...mentioning Maysoon only
in the context of the accident.

00:51:20.160 --> 00:51:27.160
I used to come out of my room at midnight
to tell her to stop laughing.

00:51:28.720 --> 00:51:33.360
She'd be laughing with Batoul,
but Batoul had a softer laugh.

00:51:33.480 --> 00:51:36.360
Yes, she has a loud laugh.

00:51:38.840 --> 00:51:41.400
She used to love watermelon.

00:51:42.480 --> 00:51:45.360
It was her favourite fruit.

00:51:48.200 --> 00:51:51.120
I remember she loved chocolate.

00:51:51.240 --> 00:51:53.440
And instant noodles.

00:52:27.640 --> 00:52:31.800
Do you remember when we helped her
with an architecture project?

00:52:33.880 --> 00:52:38.920
She had a tight deadline,
so Dad and I helped her with a drawing.

00:53:05.480 --> 00:53:07.560
My last journey
was supposed to be to Libya.

00:53:07.680 --> 00:53:10.920
The country that took you away from me.

00:53:11.720 --> 00:53:16.120
I was supposed to go to Libya
and look for you.

00:53:16.880 --> 00:53:21.960
I tried to call a lot of people and
organizations that help refugees...

00:53:22.080 --> 00:53:24.640
...but no one would help me.

00:53:28.880 --> 00:53:32.360
And now I'm pregnant with a little girl.

00:53:34.600 --> 00:53:39.480
All this time, I thought that,
despite everything that happened to us...

00:53:39.600 --> 00:53:43.640
...you shouldn't have taken
this dangerous route.

00:53:43.760 --> 00:53:51.000
And now I feel I'd be putting my little girl
in the same danger if I travel there.

00:53:54.440 --> 00:53:57.440
When I've given birth
and my little girl is safe...

00:53:57.560 --> 00:54:00.280
...I will travel to Libya and continue.

00:54:00.400 --> 00:54:05.760
Because finding you was and still is
the most important goal in my life.

00:54:06.720 --> 00:54:08.480
I will go back soon.

00:54:09.440 --> 00:54:11.640
I love you so much.