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Based on letters, diaries and watercolors
by Heloïsa Buarque de Hollanda, Miúcha.

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Let\'s hit it!

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\"Olhos nos Olhos\", studies and arrangements
Miúcha guitar

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I will now sing a song that moves me very much,

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because it was composed
by my brother, Chico Buarque de Hollanda

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What is it that moves me so
That stirs me from inside, what could it be

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That erupts from my skin, what could it be

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And it crawls up my face and makes me blush

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And it spurts from my eyes
And betrays me

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And it crushes my chest and makes me confess
What is useless to conceal

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I didn\'t consider myself a singer.

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It was like a fairytale, that just happens or not.

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And I never thought it\'d happen to me.

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What is it that makes me beg and makes me implore.
What is it that has no measure and never will.

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What is it that has no cure and never will.
And what is it that has no formula...

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I can say that I was among those absolutely
taken by the sound of Bossa Nova.

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It was like when movies went from black and white to color.

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The voice of Bossa Nova

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Paris, September 27th, 1963

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Here goes a bunch of letters I never sent... Have fun!

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And a crazy drawing that I made when I was high. Forget it!

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There\'s only one drawing that\'s good,
the rest are just silly.

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Not valid for Cuba

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Admission of single daughter

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I wanted to live my life,
to get out of my parent\'s house and live alone.

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I wanted to go out and see the world.

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Your letter arrived just as I was out on the road

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Traveling with my guitar as I\'d promised.

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I returned with a fresh mind but in the worst of situations.

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No money, the apartment\'s lease about to end, no hope of a job.

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What to do?

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All I could do was to sing my sorrows away.

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By the sea, a common place

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Beginning the walk

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towards the margins of another place

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Seaside, every sea is unique

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Beginning a path

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into the deep blue

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I went to Paris in \'62 with a scholarship to study art history.

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At the time I worked in advertising

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And I bought my ticket by doing musical jingles.

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I traveled by ship, on a wonderful English ship, called Amazon

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I was in 3rd class with the students
who wanted to have a lot of fun.

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I started to sing on the streets with Dudu do Banjo.
I played the guitar, he played the banjo.

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We\'d have a lot of fun.

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We traveled to Greece, to Florence, singing on the streets.

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It was a fantastic experience, incredible.

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INTERNATIONAL FESTIVAL OF FOLKLORE,
at the SORBONNE, 17/03/63.

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The scholarship recipient Heloïsa Maria Buarque de Hollanda
participated in the Brazilian performance.

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I performed at the Sorbonne.

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My aunt Gilda worked in the cultural department
of the Brazilian Embassy.

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They had to put up a show, and all they had was me.

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There was a band playing frevo...

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I looked at the sky

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How confusing

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I touched the sky

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With my feet on the ground

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Where I walked
With no direction

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Later I was invited to record an album, but that didn\'t happen.

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Hey Mom, with her feet on the ground
Hey Dad, with his feet on the ground

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Mom hated the idea of me becoming a singer.

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Mom thought that being a performer was horrible.
Only writing or painting were ok.

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Ballerinas showing off their legs was already a no.

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She used to say that \"exposing yourself\"
on stage was forbidden and ugly.

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My name was not my name, it was my Grandma\'s name.
Heloïsa with an umlaut.

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I thought Heloïsa, even more with an umlaut,
was never really my name.

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They said I was a small and restless baby.

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So I started being called Miúcha at home.

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Mom was completely fascinated by Dad.

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She was above all Dad\'s wife and because she was very
Catholic, she had a thing about having children.

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Although she didn\'t find much fun in having them.

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I think she wanted to give Dad a nice environment to work in.

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She\'d scream: \"Be quiet, your father\'s working!\"

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And she\'d be noisier than everyone else!

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When I had polio, Mom said that Dad was devastated,
and that I was really happy.

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I got a room with a view and my own telephone.

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With time everyone got used to the way I\'d move around.

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I couldn\'t crawl, so I\'d swim across the floor.

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I would go down the stairs with ease.

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With the constant crawling I was always dirty.

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When guests arrived, I would be rushed to bed
and covered up to my chin.

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Dad found the \"ideal\" book to give me.

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It was Kafka\'s \"Metamorphosis.\"

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Our family home was in São Paulo, on Bury Street.

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Dad was a real bohemian.

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Mom \"turned the house into a bar,\"
and our home became the place to be.

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There was always a party going on.

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Having arrived in São Paulo is Jean Paul Sartre
and his wife Simone de Beauvoir.

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Hello from Jean-Paul Sartre to all the intellectuals
and the citizens of São Paulo.

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We are very happy to arrive in São Paulo.
and wish the best to the students who have welcomed us.

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I remember when Sartre and Simone de Beauvoir came
to our house. I was very impressed.

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I was reading Le Deuxieme Sexe, \"The Second Sex.\"

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I was very interested in Simone de Beauvoir.
It was a moment of self-awareness.

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\"To Heloïsa, with all my affinity,
Simone de Beauvoir.\"

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When I wrote The Second Sex I had a vivid hope

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that the status of women would change profoundly.

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What I say at the end of the book is that
I hope that one day this book will be obsolete.

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And unfortunately, it still isn\'t.

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The first time I got on stage...

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I remember Dad, Mom, and I were at a restaurant
eating cheese fondue.

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Vinicius [de Moraes] was supposed to meet us there.

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The waiter told us that Vinicius was already
waiting for us at the bar upstairs.

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The bar was half empty and Vinicius sat at the piano
with a microphone, singing.

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In a matter of seconds,
I was singing with the microphone in hand,

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feeling overwhelmed by the sound of my amplified voice.

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And I enjoyed the feeling right away!

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Standing in the dark, bright lights on my face,
with an incredible feeling of stepping into a different world.

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It was like a revelation, a miracle.
At that moment, I felt irremediably like a singer.

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Vinicius was around before I was born,

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he had been my father\'s friend for many years.

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Vinicius was 10 years younger than my dad,

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He was a prodigy, a promising poet, acclaimed and loved by all.

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Dad loved Vinicius and Vinicius loved him.

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He liked to compose with everyone around him,
I\'d find that funny.

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I was there when he composed several
songs with Baden Powell.

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Love is only good if it hurts

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He would come visit us often. Vinicius was never alone.
It was always Vinicius and friends.

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Go, go, go, go live
I am not one to go

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Forgetting, the sadness of a love that has gone

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No I\'ll only go if I see that star appear

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We would sit there learning, like a real chorus.
That\'s how we understood what it meant to be a composer.

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The singer tells a story then repeats the chorus a few times.

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\"Oh, so that\'s how it\'s done?!\"
And then we all started making music at home.

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Go, go, go, go love

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Go, go, go, go suffer

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Go, go, go, go cry

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Go, go, go, go say

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Go, go, go, go love

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Go, go, go, go suffer

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Go, go, go, go cry

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live

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I remember a very short song I made when I was little.

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The music was good.

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But my parents said it didn\'t count because
I was imitating (Dorival) Caymmi

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Except imitating Caymmi at age eight still wasn\'t bad at all!

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So, I got very upset with their reaction.

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Later on, I made a song with my father,
called \"Larga da minha perna / Get lost\".

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Get off me, Get lost

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Go hit on someone else, don\'t mess with me.

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It was a big hit at home.

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We began to sing a lot at home.
We sang a capella and imitated American singers.

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This was way before Elvis Presley and The Everly Brothers.

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I played the guitar badly at the time.

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Vinicius taught me the first chords, and I taught Chico.

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Mom took me to see Edith Piaf perform in São Paulo,
hoping that I\'d give up my interest for singing.

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Then she said, \"To be a singer you have to be at least like Piaf.\"

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I was very impressed with Piaf as an artist, by her strength,
but I knew that wasn\'t the kind of artist I wanted to be.

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When Bossa Nova arrived, it was crazy.
We listened to the records nonstop, over and over.

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\"What\'s this sound?\"

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SAMBA IS DYING.

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Our dear Street Hustler has died

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Pushy but very esteemed

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Another rascal who bit the dust
And it made me sad

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Go, go, go

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Go

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I danced the Twist too much

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Now, at the time that Bossa Nova appeared,
at the end of the 50s, and into the 60s,

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It was kind of a hidden desire, you know?

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The sea falls asleep in silence

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And the sand is forgotten

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Leaving the seagulls
Sing the song

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Of this love between you and me

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I was at home one night with my father,
reading in the living room,

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when Chico came in at around 11pm…

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And I said, \"What the hell? Chico\'s younger
than me but already has the house keys?\"

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I started arguing with Dad,

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\"Aren\'t you always saying that men and women are equal?\"

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He answered \"Yeah, men and women are equal,
but your mother\'s the boss around here.\"

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\"You son of a bitch!\"

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I don\'t know if it\'s true or
if I only think I remember it,

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but it was agreed that I would leave home and go to Europe

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the moment I found out that Chico, aged 14
at the time, had been given the keys to the house

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while I was considered quirky and dazed.

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I started singing at a place called La Candelaria,

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when Bossa Nova was at its peak.

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Sacha Distel released an album with a guide on
how to dance the Bossa Nova.

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If there\'s one thing that can\'t be danced to, it\'s Bossa Nova,
but in existed in France, you know.

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We were hired to teach others how to dance the Bossa Nova,
but we couldn\'t even learn the steps ourselves.

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Paris, November 1st, 1963

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Yesterday I went to Candelária. There I was,
embroidering variations on a \"One-note samba\",

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when I was told someone wanted to talk to me.

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I played it cool, shrugged it off,

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and ended up being introduced to a shy fellow
who told me things I didn\'t really understand.

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His voice and face seemed familiar, though.

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The guy shaking my hand was none other than João Gilberto.

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I stuttered, felt dizzy and lightheaded.
And the funny thing is, he also got embarrassed.

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So neither of us could say a thing!

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An Argentinian friend had taken
João Gilberto to meet Violeta Parra.

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It was in an old Parisian building with an entrance to the bar, and
next to it a corridor with a staircase leading to the upper floors.

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Violeta lived there.

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What have I done with the names printed on the wall?

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Just like the calendar, everything changes in this world.

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Violeta was an incredible poet, you couldn\'t
imagine her strength just by her singing

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She told him \"There\'s a Brazilian girl
who sings Bossa Nova ...\"

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João got curious and went to spy at me from backstage.

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At the time, there weren\'t that many photos all over,
so we didn\'t recognize celebrities as easily.

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It\'s the sound of his voice that struck me.
I think I recognized João Gilberto by ear.

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I said, \"So, you\'re really you?\"

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I was with friends that night.

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I said, \"Everyone\'s going out, shall we join them?\"

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It was a tiny French car,
and we were 6 or 7 people crammed in it.

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Before getting in, João whispered to me, \"When the car stops
at a red light, we\'ll open the door and run off.\"

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I opened the door and started running.

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I thought, \"Did he say that to get rid of me?\"
But he was also running.

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It was like a whirlwind, and very romantic, of course.

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We drifted in aimless conversation and an endless walk
through the streets of Saint-Germain-des-Prés.

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We went in and out of bars without paying much attention.

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In one of them I was hugged by a drunk who backed off
when Joãzinho sighed in his sweet Bahian accent,

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\"What are you doing, man?\"

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We went out for dinner.

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I was dying to go to this particular restaurant
that served fondue and crêpe Suzette.

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I was a student, eating at cafeterias
or homemade scrambled eggs

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João asked \"Let\'s have dinner?\"
And I said, \"We could go to this amazing restaurant...\"

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\"...on top of the subway entrance!\"

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So we went to the restaurant.

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When João saw the fire on the fondue base he screamed out
\"Somebody call the fire department!\"

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\"Oh my God, but that\'s how the dish works, João!\"
\"No, no, put it out, put it out...!\"

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So we sat there, eating raw meat.

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When it was over the waiter came back
with the crêpe Suzette in his hand.

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\"Not again!\"

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João was my hero, I only thought about music.
So, he totally won me over.

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We dated in Paris and after a few months,
I joined him in New York.

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João sent me a letter asking me to work with him.

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I didn\'t even speak English.

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New York, 1964

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I finally got your letter with all the news
about the post-revolutionary uprisings.

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With the Brazilian censorship,
we hardly know what\'s going on.

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It\'s so emotional out on the street

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They told us that the National Student Union, and the
Última Hora newspaper were raided and ransacked.

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And that many people have been arrested.

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Things are crazy out on the streets

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The lights have gone out on the streets

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The American newspapers printed headlines
praising the \"good sense\" of the Brazilian people,

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who managed to escape Russian rule, unlike Cuba. Irony!

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There\'s no sun on the balcony today

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There\'s no sun on the balcony today

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João has found many talents in my playing,

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he says that I am the only person
in the world who can accompany him.

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I\'ve been working really hard.

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I think that within a month I\'ll be playing as well as João,
or at least much better than before,

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which isn\'t really saying much.

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I think you would love New York.
If I stick around, I\'ll fly you over.

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News came out in Brazilian papers that João and I were dating,
that we\'d gotten engaged.

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My parents sent me a letter saying,
\"Newspapers are announcing

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your marriage to João Gilberto: we await your denial.\"

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I thought, \"Now what?\"

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So João called his friend Jorge Amado
and explained the situation to him.

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Jorge, a writer from Bahia, sent my parents a letter.

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My Dear Sergio,

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I have received a letter from my good and dear friend,
the composer, João Gilberto, who is in the United States.

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This Bahiano from Juazeiro,
on the banks of the San Francisco river,

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is one of the most talented Brazilians
and one of the best people I know.

00:26:23.280 --> 00:26:27.480
He wrote to let me know of his upcoming marriage
to your daughter Heloïsa.

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He asked me to write to you and introduce him,
which I have done in the lines above

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\"João is one of the smartest,
most talented people I know. He\'s amazing.

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A bit crazy like all musicians, but still a good person.\"

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My parents were delighted with this letter
and my mother fell in love instantly with João Gilberto.

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She liked him a lot more than I did.

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I was already having second thoughts on our wedding day,
but I can\'t really say that out loud, can I?

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And I even forgot the wedding rings at home.
So, I had to cross the whole city to retrieve them.

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I took a cab to get there and back.

00:27:22.680 --> 00:27:25.080
Meanwhile the guests kept on drinking.

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When we got to the church, the priest was about to leave.

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I said: \"No, no! Hold on just a minute!\"

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So, he put his cassock back on, I fixed my train and veil,

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and we got married.

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My father came into the church half drunk.

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He didn\'t know he had to walk me down the aisle,
hand me to João Gilberto,

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turn around and sit down in a certain spot. He only
vaguely remembered he had to sit somewhere.

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So, he walked halfway down the aisle and sat down.

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What\'s that song?

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Dad, what\'s that song again?

00:28:29.280 --> 00:28:32.280
The one in German...

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Men buzz around me,
like moths in the light,

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And when they burn,
it\'s not my fault

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It was very funny!

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Very few people attended, but all of them very dear to us.
We had the party at Delmonico\'s.

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We had a cocktail party in one of the big suites.

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Bonfá stood on a chair to film the food.

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João said, \"How embarrassing! There is so little to eat
and he\'s acting like it\'s a Bahian banquet!\"

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And that was it!

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We left Delmonico\'s the next day and when we got home,
it was total chaos.

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He brought me a doll

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Then he gave me jewels

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He told me about his travels

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And bragged about his luck

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He showed me his watch

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And said I was his queen

00:30:37.720 --> 00:30:40.680
He found me so fragile

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That my heart was touched

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Dirty dishes everywhere...just horrible!

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It was like, \"Hey, let me go get married,
I\'ll be back in a sec\".

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So I put on yellow rubber gloves to do the dishes.

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It was a shock to start married life like that,
after it had been so good back at Delmonico\'s.

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On each palm tree by the road
there\'s a girl reclining

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One is my girlfriend

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And this road leads to the sea

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New York, September 27, 1965

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Can you imagine me, a mother?

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We\'re bursting with joy and I plan to put on my best
motherly appearance for you all.

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João\'s been working really hard on his new record;
it’s just the most beautiful work in the world.

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I can\'t imagine having a better husband!

00:31:53.400 --> 00:31:59.200
João plays all night long for me, putting his thoughts
into words, explaining, singing, asking,

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\"So, two chords. Which one? This one or that one?\"
And there\'s always a reason why.

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I think we have a telepathic connection.

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I photograph the harmony in my ear\'s memory
and transmit it to him.

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Let\'s walk down the road

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That leads to dawn\'s balcony

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On dawn\'s balcony

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I\'d never thought about getting married or becoming a mother.

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So, I\'d wonder, \"Will I even like this baby growing inside of me?\"

00:32:51.720 --> 00:32:57.000
My so-called \"painless\" delivery was actually
the most painful thing in the world.

00:32:57.960 --> 00:33:02.400
People say that all mothers forget the pain of childbirth. I didn\'t.

00:33:03.720 --> 00:33:10.840
When I started to feel contractions I said,
\"Well, it\'s time to head out to the hospital.\"

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We called a cab, but there was a taxi strike in town that day.

00:33:16.320 --> 00:33:21.720
A friend of João\'s came to pick us up from the suburbs.

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Then we waited 14 long hours for Bebel.

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When she was finally born, I held her for the first time.
She was all red, and crumpled and wanted to suckle,

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and I had no idea it would feel so good!

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It\'s so late...

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João wanted to name her after his sister, Maria da Conceição.

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So, I wrote it down and test it on the nurses.

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\"Con-kay-cow?\"
Big name for such a little baby!

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I thought, \"True! Why give such a serious
name to such a tiny baby?\"

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I started thinking about the names that I liked
and Isabel was one of them.

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I would repeat her name to João: \"Isabel, Bel, Babel, Beleleu...\"
And he started to like it.

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That\'s how her name was chosen.

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Daddy will sing you to sleep

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What does it mean?

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Here\'s a man
You\'re a man

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Man\'s turn

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And why talk?

00:34:31.440 --> 00:34:33.600
Silver woman

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Rose Woman

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Moon woman

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When we are small

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We usually switch

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My dear viewers, this is Marilena Muller.

00:34:52.440 --> 00:34:58.480
The famous Brazilian composer, singer,
and guitarist João Gilberto,

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has now lived in the United States for several years.

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He currently lives in a town called Weehawken in
New Jersey, from where we’re currently broadcasting.

00:35:14.320 --> 00:35:21.400
We came here to say hello to João and to know more
about his affairs in the United States.

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What are you doing here in New York,
are you recording anything?

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Yes, I\'ve got a show coming up at the Rainbow Room,
I\'m preparing for it.

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No, I\'m first talking about recordings, I know the Rainbow Room
is one of the most famous clubs in New York.

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Recording is something serious that I really want to do.
But, I want to do it very carefully.

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I started, then stopped,
because I want to do it just right.

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I haven\'t recorded for a long time,
I want to do something beautiful.

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João, how did you decide to live
in this small town, Weehawken?

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I don\'t know, things just happened.

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Come here, Heloïsa!

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One day Heloïsa went looking for a house and found this one.

00:36:15.040 --> 00:36:19.840
We had to move in about 15 days.
We were looking for a place, and by chance we came here.

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And are you happy here?

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Very much.

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I thought my job was to solve problems,
and João\'s problem was performing.

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We were so broke, we were late on rent.

00:36:33.360 --> 00:36:39.000
\"It\'s so good João that you\'re doing this gig!
We\'ll be able to pay our rent, which is two or three months late.\"

00:36:39.400 --> 00:36:45.400
He answered, \"You want me to do this just to pay your rent?\"

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I wasn\'t as much of a feminist as I should have been back then.

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You have a little American girl, by the way,
she was born here in the United States.

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But she\'s Brazilian.

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A Brazilian at heart, born in the United States.

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Bebel, come here!

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Oh, is this your little girl?

00:37:09.120 --> 00:37:10.440
What\'s her name?

00:37:10.800 --> 00:37:11.800
This is Isabel!

00:37:11.800 --> 00:37:13.200
Hello Isabel!

00:37:13.680 --> 00:37:18.960
João, so when are you going to start
working at the Rainbow Room?

00:37:19.120 --> 00:37:26.520
Next Monday! Come here baby, come sit with Daddy.

00:37:26.560 --> 00:37:28.000
It’s okay, it’s okay.

00:37:28.080 --> 00:37:29.400
She wants to be next to Mommy!

00:37:29.520 --> 00:37:30.520
Carry on Marilena, go on, go on!

00:37:30.720 --> 00:37:36.280
I wanted you to tell us more about
what you\'re going to do at the Rainbow Room.

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I\'ll be performing three weeks with piano,
drums, bass, me on guitar and another percussionist.

00:37:48.480 --> 00:37:54.640
João, do you think that Brazilian music still has
a wide acceptance in the United States?

00:37:56.160 --> 00:38:01.480
I think so. I think Brazilian music is very beautiful.
Looking at from a distance. I think so.

00:38:02.520 --> 00:38:08.400
And Heloïsa, do you accompany João
when he performs outside of New York?

00:38:08.560 --> 00:38:11.320
She accompanies on drums.

00:38:11.640 --> 00:38:15.280
That\'s not my plan... but who knows!

00:38:15.600 --> 00:38:17.520
No, I always travel with João.

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And would you like to sing someday too?
A musical family.

00:38:23.160 --> 00:38:25.800
Maybe I\'ll think about it someday.

00:38:39.240 --> 00:38:41.760
Spin, everybody spin

00:38:42.240 --> 00:38:43.800
Around this afternoon

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This square is so beautiful

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And the rose in the middle of the wheel

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In the middle of the afternoon of an immense garden

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Rose, don\'t wait for me

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We moved to Mexico City in 1969. We lived there for two years.

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Mexico City, February 27, 1969

00:39:16.720 --> 00:39:19.800
So we have finally landed here.

00:39:19.800 --> 00:39:24.840
João was terrified that as soon as he set foot
in Mexico, he would have a fit and pass out.

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So he began walking in a weird way,
hopping and dragging his leg,

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with one hand on his chest counting his heart beats
while leaning on my shoulder with his sunglasses and beret on.

00:39:37.080 --> 00:39:45.840
He said that he\'d finally figured out how to walk around Mexico.
An irresistibly comic manner, as you can imagine.

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Important details:

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All of João\'s concerts earned twice
as much as the previous performers.

00:39:55.120 --> 00:40:01.440
His last show broke the all-time
record held by the Bolshoi Ballet.

00:40:01.440 --> 00:40:07.120
It was beautiful to see the overcrowded auditorium
made up of mainly modest people,

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who paid the equivalent of 20 cents per ticket.

00:40:11.760 --> 00:40:15.120
Suburban buses came in bursting
with people to attend João\'s concert.

00:40:19.080 --> 00:40:24.240
Mexico City, May 11, 1969

00:40:24.760 --> 00:40:30.360
There\'s a party at Bebel\'s school today.
It\'s for Mother\'s Day, imagine how embarrassing!

00:40:30.880 --> 00:40:34.200
So, I put on the best motherly face I could manage.

00:40:34.560 --> 00:40:38.520
I was late because of the plumber,
who showed up just as I was about to leave.

00:40:38.880 --> 00:40:44.400
Bebel was sitting on a chair looking sadly out the door.

00:40:44.880 --> 00:40:51.520
When she saw me, she kissed me and introduced me,
\"Mira mi mamita!\"

00:40:51.880 --> 00:40:57.040
The other mothers were so dull
that I couldn\'t find a way to chat with them.

00:40:57.480 --> 00:41:02.200
I ended up barefoot in the garden playing tag.

00:41:02.440 --> 00:41:08.760
I also got the surprise of getting Bebel\'s first record singing
\"Mamita Linda\".

00:41:09.400 --> 00:41:14.160
When you become a mother you don\'t know how to behave.
I probably messed up a lot.

00:41:14.320 --> 00:41:18.480
Shall we sing old nursery rhymes?

00:41:19.200 --> 00:41:22.200
Do you want to? The one about the beans.

00:41:22.560 --> 00:41:27.360
This one\'s already been recorded. Shall we do another one?

00:41:27.600 --> 00:41:33.880
Let\'s sing: \"Let\'s go to school\"

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Let\'s go to school, let\'s study

00:41:37.600 --> 00:41:40.920
so that tomorrow we can work

00:41:43.200 --> 00:41:48.840
Over here we wake up with
sunlight glinting through the shutters,

00:41:48.840 --> 00:41:53.160
Bebel\'s voice asking,
\"Madam, would you like some chocolate milk?\"

00:41:53.400 --> 00:41:58.600
Dogs barking, chickens clucking,
the voices of workers repairing the roof.

00:41:59.040 --> 00:42:02.440
The day is long and round.

00:42:02.560 --> 00:42:06.600
João hasn\'t done anything for months
because he is theoretically recording the album.

00:42:06.600 --> 00:42:10.320
And whenever João\'s about to record,
he plays Mandrake the magician, pulling out a trick.

00:42:10.320 --> 00:42:15.600
He grabs his guitar, invents a new problem,
and has everybody brooding over it.

00:42:15.840 --> 00:42:20.640
Then he goes to bed and makes up a different problem.

00:42:20.880 --> 00:42:26.160
Once that problem is solved,
he repeats the trick over and over.

00:42:26.440 --> 00:42:32.760
I don’t enjoy being in this position that João puts me in,
of being the problem solver.

00:42:33.000 --> 00:42:36.880
He always manages to turn things around so that
I\'m always to blame for everything.

00:42:45.400 --> 00:42:52.360
Excuse me, excuse me, my good sir.

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Reverberates and distorts

00:43:05.880 --> 00:43:09.840
I feel as depressed and tired as if I were 200 years old.

00:43:11.880 --> 00:43:17.440
The other day I went target shooting at the arcade
and I hit 8 out of 10, which comforted me a little.

00:43:17.760 --> 00:43:20.080
Well, I\'m going to make Bebel dinner.

00:43:24.240 --> 00:43:27.400
I didn\'t even think about making lunch and dinner

00:43:27.720 --> 00:43:31.080
I was the one doing all the chores at home,
like laundry in the bathtub.

00:43:31.320 --> 00:43:34.320
All of my clothes, plus João\'s and Bebel\'s, can you believe it?

00:43:34.560 --> 00:43:36.600
Such a hardworking girl!

00:43:38.920 --> 00:43:42.480
Mexico City, November 18, 1970

00:43:42.840 --> 00:43:46.800
I spend my days waiting for night
and my nights waiting for day.

00:43:47.160 --> 00:43:52.800
I\'m so afflicted by this notion of time. It goes by so painfully
slow for me while for others it goes by in a heartbeat.

00:43:53.160 --> 00:43:56.160
Do you know that I turned 33 yesterday?

00:43:56.400 --> 00:44:00.120
I\'m stunned. I don\'t understand
where I\'ve been all these years.

00:44:00.280 --> 00:44:03.400
Just the other day I was 24 and leaving for Europe.

00:44:04.440 --> 00:44:07.800
It\'s not much use becoming a singer at this point.

00:44:08.760 --> 00:44:12.240
I think I\'m going crazy from the inside,
very slowly so as not to make any noise,

00:44:12.480 --> 00:44:15.480
while on the outside I smile and continue to comb my hair.

00:44:16.200 --> 00:44:18.360
Talk soon, Miúcha.

00:44:21.360 --> 00:44:31.680
My heart never tires
of hoping

00:44:32.800 --> 00:44:40.320
Of one day being all it wants

00:44:40.800 --> 00:44:44.760
My child heart

00:44:45.960 --> 00:44:52.560
Is not only the memory

00:44:52.560 --> 00:44:58.800
Of a happy woman\'s face

00:44:59.520 --> 00:45:05.760
This letter should probably start with \"my dear diary,\"
given how frequent they are.

00:45:06.000 --> 00:45:07.960
João hasn\'t improved much with me.

00:45:08.280 --> 00:45:12.600
I put up with him torturing me,
picturing myself as the martyr of Bossa Nova,

00:45:12.600 --> 00:45:15.840
believing that\'s my contribution to the creation of this album.

00:45:16.080 --> 00:45:20.200
A sort of good deed in life, in the best pioneering tradition.

00:45:21.120 --> 00:45:24.280
Did you know that I\'ve gotten quite good at making music?

00:45:24.720 --> 00:45:28.600
It was hard in the beginning, João kept locking up his guitar.

00:45:28.920 --> 00:45:33.640
I now have one of the guitars in my closet.
And at night I let myself go.

00:45:34.080 --> 00:45:36.840
I have to wait for João to sleep to make the most of my time.

00:45:39.160 --> 00:45:42.600
Every day is different

00:45:42.760 --> 00:45:45.360
One day at a time

00:45:46.320 --> 00:45:49.920
and we never know

00:45:50.160 --> 00:45:53.920
but we feel, feel, feel

00:45:54.280 --> 00:45:56.800
I\'ll tell you a story

00:45:57.600 --> 00:46:01.680
Have you heard the theory that misery and need
serve as a source of inspiration?

00:46:02.040 --> 00:46:03.720
Well, it\'s true!

00:46:03.760 --> 00:46:09.960
I\'m now using all the things that ever haunted me to my favor.

00:46:09.960 --> 00:46:17.920
The result is that I feel more and more like singing.
As if there\'s something beautiful inside me waiting to come out.

00:46:18.840 --> 00:46:26.280
Once upon a time there was a God, thank God
without any intelligence,

00:46:26.520 --> 00:46:33.280
but he liked music
and thought of harmonies

00:46:33.480 --> 00:46:41.640
So he composed this universe
with infinite melodies

00:46:41.880 --> 00:46:45.280
Days
Days

00:46:45.480 --> 00:46:53.080
My dream right now is to head back to New York,
get my act together and dive headfirst into music.

00:46:53.320 --> 00:46:56.200
In three month’s time, something either happens or doesn\'t.

00:47:00.360 --> 00:47:09.400
Ah, dawn has broken

00:47:09.720 --> 00:47:12.640
You will abandon me

00:47:12.840 --> 00:47:18.120
I feel that forgiveness you didn\'t deserve

00:47:18.360 --> 00:47:21.000
I wanted the illusion

00:47:21.280 --> 00:47:25.440
Now the pain is me

00:47:25.600 --> 00:47:27.240
Poor is he who doesn\'t understand

00:47:27.480 --> 00:47:30.840
That the beauty of love is to give

00:47:31.200 --> 00:47:32.680
And only wanting to ask

00:47:33.000 --> 00:47:35.560
Never knew what it is to lose in order to find

00:47:36.600 --> 00:47:39.840
New York, April 20, 1972

00:47:40.080 --> 00:47:43.920
We\'ve been enjoying our cozy apartment
facing Central Park ever since we got here.

00:47:44.040 --> 00:47:46.200
We now have with well-defined territories.

00:47:46.440 --> 00:47:51.000
The living room is mine, the bedroom is João\'s
and the bathroom and kitchen we share.

00:47:51.240 --> 00:47:55.680
We tacitly live within our territories,
with closed doors, most of the time,

00:47:55.920 --> 00:47:59.160
or open, on the rare days when we hang out.

00:47:59.880 --> 00:48:02.080
We also have organized schedules.

00:48:02.320 --> 00:48:07.240
I get moody at around 7 or 8 a.m. and sleep until 2 or 3 p.m.

00:48:07.480 --> 00:48:11.680
João falls asleep even later and sleeps on.
It\'s 9:30 p.m. right now and he hasn\'t woken up yet.

00:48:16.600 --> 00:48:18.520
The vibes in this town are incredible nowadays!

00:48:18.600 --> 00:48:23.520
People on TV say they smoke,
and celebrities say they get high in interviews.

00:48:23.640 --> 00:48:25.800
You can figure out the rest.

00:48:30.000 --> 00:48:34.120
Sometimes I go out, take a stroll around Central Park,
which is great.

00:48:37.360 --> 00:48:44.280
My hair has grown longer, fuller and curlier.
It doesn\'t match my conventional clothes.

00:48:45.120 --> 00:48:51.840
I\'m very excited about work these days.
I got incredible calluses on my fingertips from playing so much.

00:48:52.120 --> 00:48:55.200
I\'m losing my fear of playing the guitar.

00:48:55.440 --> 00:48:58.240
I used to play quietly, so that nobody would notice my mistakes.

00:48:58.440 --> 00:49:01.200
Now I see how easy it is to learn some songs
without any mistakes,

00:49:01.200 --> 00:49:04.920
to play louder, have fun with some crazy chords

00:49:05.160 --> 00:49:09.720
and with a voice, a real voice, playing in between them.

00:49:09.960 --> 00:49:14.040
But I don\'t know...these magical things
almost never happen unless I\'m alone.

00:49:15.120 --> 00:49:17.760
My biggest problem is João.

00:49:18.000 --> 00:49:20.520
He gets in the way of my work,
interrupts me, makes fun of me,

00:49:20.520 --> 00:49:24.840
calls me \"maestro\", doesn\'t let me leave the house.
It’s a living hell.

00:49:55.840 --> 00:49:59.680
New York, July 10, 1972

00:50:00.280 --> 00:50:07.320
I was going to write a dull letter to send along with this one,
but it\'s so hard because I\'m always high!

00:50:07.800 --> 00:50:14.160
I\'m sitting on a bed with five pillows, on a white satin duvet
with a black cat on top of it.

00:50:14.520 --> 00:50:20.040
I\'m surrounded by record players, Billie Holiday,
a guitar, stacks of paper and notebooks.

00:50:25.240 --> 00:50:28.120
The place is in Irvington, N.Y.

00:50:28.320 --> 00:50:30.600
It\'s at Stan Getz and Monica\'s house.

00:50:32.280 --> 00:50:39.840
Stan Getz lived in an incredible country house
in upstate New York.

00:50:39.840 --> 00:50:42.840
Some say that he bought it with the earnings
from the first Getz-Gilberto album,

00:50:42.840 --> 00:50:45.960
even though João Gilberto barely made a buck with that record.

00:50:45.960 --> 00:50:51.960
Stan Getz had decided to remake a Getz-Gilberto album
because the first two had been a great success.

00:50:51.960 --> 00:50:55.080
I was invited to interpret the female voice.

00:51:29.200 --> 00:51:33.160
I\'m here to record an album with João.
We\'ve already started doing it.

00:51:33.280 --> 00:51:39.520
I made a wonderful recording of Tom Jobim’s,
\"Double Rainbow\", with Stan\'s group.

00:51:40.120 --> 00:51:43.480
I am enjoying being a singer to the fullest.

00:51:43.960 --> 00:51:48.520
It might all come crashing down, but now is now.

00:51:55.720 --> 00:51:57.760
I wanted a job, something to do.

00:51:57.760 --> 00:52:01.000
I also wanted to earn some money,
but I didn\'t in this case.

00:52:01.000 --> 00:52:05.800
I earned nothing for those recordings.
I gave up my copyrights for 1 Brazilian Real.

00:52:24.040 --> 00:52:26.440
I went to the U.S. twice to record this album.

00:52:26.440 --> 00:52:28.480
The first time I went without Bebel.

00:52:28.720 --> 00:52:32.280
She freaked out because she felt abandoned
at my mother\'s house,

00:52:32.280 --> 00:52:34.480
thinking her parents had left her just to have fun.

00:52:35.320 --> 00:52:37.600
So, the second time I said I\'d only go back with Bebel.

00:52:37.600 --> 00:52:42.520
When we got there, we found João and Monica Getz,
but no Stan Getz.

00:52:42.520 --> 00:52:45.280
There were a lot of \"Hey! How are you?\"
And \"How\'ve you been?\"

00:52:45.280 --> 00:52:48.520
They all answered: \"Almost okay, nothing you can\'t help us with.\"

00:52:49.120 --> 00:52:56.080
It was hard and tiresome work. We recorded,
and mixed the album and fought a lot.

00:52:56.080 --> 00:52:58.840
It was all so confusing, so complicated...

00:52:58.960 --> 00:53:02.920
I had to be there to speak English and Portuguese
and to play translator for João.

00:53:05.040 --> 00:53:07.240
Then they called me in for another mix.

00:53:07.440 --> 00:53:11.400
João has been fighting with Stan Getz all this time.
Getz was a total pain!

00:53:11.800 --> 00:53:15.280
I had to stand between them,
keep them from ripping each other apart.

00:53:15.760 --> 00:53:18.960
I mixed that record, but my mix
disappeared the moment I left.

00:53:18.960 --> 00:53:21.520
The saxophone is too loud on this album.

00:53:21.520 --> 00:53:24.960
He (Stan Getz) did another mix...
You have to listen to it like that.

00:53:25.920 --> 00:53:31.120
João, Getz, Miúcha: First Recording

00:53:32.160 --> 00:53:34.840
The album\'s a big hit.

00:53:35.040 --> 00:53:41.200
Getz called enthusiastically to say that ten thousand copies
had been sold today only in New York.

00:53:43.960 --> 00:53:50.560
João actually refused to be photographed
with Stan for the album cover.

00:53:50.760 --> 00:53:55.560
If you look closely, you\'ll see that the
photo has been assembled on Photoshop.

00:53:55.560 --> 00:53:58.240
João looks smaller in that picture than he actually was.

00:53:59.160 --> 00:54:01.240
João hates this album.

00:54:01.360 --> 00:54:04.600
He says he couldn\'t sing or play because he was sick,

00:54:04.600 --> 00:54:07.480
and that the album was done in a single day,
so it couldn\'t be any good.

00:54:07.720 --> 00:54:09.760
But the truth is it\'s a big hit.

00:54:10.920 --> 00:54:15.720
On the first day of promotion João decided that he wouldn\'t play.

00:54:15.720 --> 00:54:17.760
\"So what do we do then?\"

00:54:17.760 --> 00:54:21.520
He said: \"You can sing the songs
you recorded and send in Bebel.\"

00:54:21.520 --> 00:54:24.240
Bebel exclaimed: \"Great, I\'m in!\"

00:54:25.600 --> 00:54:30.520
So, she got up on stage and started \"One, Two, Three!\"

00:54:30.520 --> 00:54:32.280
She totally rocked!

00:54:40.800 --> 00:54:45.000
At the time, I worked with Stan Getz at
a place called Rich Space.

00:54:45.000 --> 00:54:50.760
It was a jazz bar, and I sang the songs
that I recorded on this first album.

00:54:52.920 --> 00:54:56.400
While Stan Getz played with his quartet.

00:54:56.400 --> 00:55:01.440
I was the lead singer.

00:55:02.080 --> 00:55:06.360
After his solo, Stan Getz would start off
with a different note every time.

00:55:06.360 --> 00:55:10.000
He was a very jealous and complicated guy.

00:55:10.000 --> 00:55:14.440
He wanted to scare me and catch me off guard.

00:55:14.440 --> 00:55:18.120
During the \"Double Rainbow\" solo,

00:55:18.120 --> 00:55:22.480
he\'d play a bridge then lead towards
a different direction without telling me.

00:55:22.480 --> 00:55:25.080
He\'d do it just to be mean to me.

00:55:25.080 --> 00:55:28.560
Once he even kicked the stage floor
during the bass player\'s solo

00:55:28.560 --> 00:55:30.880
just to piss him off because the crowd
was getting too enthusiastic.

00:55:30.880 --> 00:55:35.160
He kicked the floor: BAM BAM BAM
And went in with his sax...

00:55:35.200 --> 00:55:37.840
Because he was so possessive about his musical space.

00:55:37.840 --> 00:55:39.520
It\'s absolutely crazy!

00:55:43.720 --> 00:55:48.160
Guess what! I came up with a song
and I played the whole thing on the piano.

00:55:48.520 --> 00:55:53.800
It was an imaginary piano, of course,
but the music existed. Truly.

00:55:54.160 --> 00:56:01.360
It hurt. It really hurt. I swear that if it had been any
more beautiful, I wouldn\'t bear it.

00:56:13.080 --> 00:56:19.440
I started to work with a wonderful American pianist,
Albert Dailey, who had accompanied many female singers,

00:56:19.800 --> 00:56:21.240
including Sarah Vaughan, whom I love.

00:56:25.200 --> 00:56:34.080
We had an agreement: he\'d give me lessons,
not on singing but on interpreting, on creating a mood.

00:56:34.440 --> 00:56:38.400
And I showed him some of Chico’s and Tom’s songs
which he did not know.

00:56:38.520 --> 00:56:42.960
We worked on the songs for some time,
and the album came from these meetings.

00:56:44.160 --> 00:56:50.200
I have been studying with Albert Dailey, a jazz pianist
who has worked with many female singers.

00:56:50.520 --> 00:56:55.720
He told me to sing louder,
to fly, to improvise.

00:56:55.840 --> 00:56:58.560
I felt very guilty thinking about João\'s mellow tone,

00:56:58.840 --> 00:57:01.680
It was time to do things, the psychiatrist said,

00:57:02.080 --> 00:57:04.240
and I understood, which was already a step.

00:57:04.600 --> 00:57:07.480
If I’m not careful, the fear could hold me back.

00:57:18.480 --> 00:57:24.000
You have everything she has

00:57:24.600 --> 00:57:30.000
The same perfume, the same color

00:57:30.600 --> 00:57:35.040
The same yellow rose

00:57:35.640 --> 00:57:39.720
You just don’t have my love

00:57:40.200 --> 00:57:43.560
As I was leaving for the recording,
I was feeling more and more sorry for myself

00:57:43.560 --> 00:57:46.320
because João pretended that the album didn\'t exist

00:57:46.560 --> 00:57:48.000
and wouldn’t even say \"good night\".

00:57:48.240 --> 00:57:50.520
Just \"go make me coffee\".

00:57:50.640 --> 00:57:54.000
I got into the elevator and started to cry furiously.

00:57:54.240 --> 00:57:58.320
I went to a place in my mind,
which is probably The Women\'s Lib headquarters,

00:57:58.560 --> 00:58:00.640
and I watched everything from above,

00:58:00.640 --> 00:58:05.760
me needing João’s \"permission\" to go and record,
him knowing it and denying it to me.

00:58:05.880 --> 00:58:10.080
I felt so unliberated having to depend on someone like that.

00:58:10.200 --> 00:58:16.080
After all that crying, I freed myself and went to the studio.

00:58:16.320 --> 00:58:19.320
There I got excited and totally went for it.

00:58:19.440 --> 00:58:24.000
I did heaps of variations, I really had fun.
I feel so relieved.

00:58:24.360 --> 00:58:27.600
I wanted to throw a party, a trip to celebrate.

00:58:27.840 --> 00:58:32.760
It’s that feeling that I rarely had, of doing well on an exam.

00:58:32.760 --> 00:58:35.280
I wonder how this record will come out.

00:58:35.280 --> 00:58:39.240
I know the story of every song, every arrangement, every night.

00:58:39.600 --> 00:58:41.880
But it\'s still a total mystery.

00:58:41.880 --> 00:58:45.840
As for drawing I never got as far as I did with music.

00:58:46.080 --> 00:58:50.880
I think what I like most is all the cool drawing material.

00:58:51.000 --> 00:58:53.520
What a crazy letter, right?
Ciao!

00:59:56.880 --> 01:00:00.240
I guess I\'m not ready to record a piece of myself yet.

01:00:00.600 --> 01:00:03.480
I look at that studio, at the microphones, and I cringe.

01:00:03.600 --> 01:00:06.480
João makes it worse, plays the
guitar just to make me tick.

01:00:06.720 --> 01:00:11.160
It makes me very angry, because I can\'t stop helping him,
encouraging him, unburdening him,

01:00:11.160 --> 01:00:14.280
being the good Samaritan, in tradition and servitude.

01:00:14.400 --> 01:00:16.200
He refuses to do the same thing for me.

01:00:16.440 --> 01:00:21.720
He even tells me clearly and coldly that he is using me
because he’s got no one else.

01:00:21.960 --> 01:00:24.480
I no longer have patience for these things,

01:00:24.720 --> 01:00:27.120
I want to go home; I want to be with Bebel.

01:00:29.520 --> 01:00:34.320
Tell her I am crazy to be with her, to see how she is doing.

01:00:34.680 --> 01:00:39.480
Despite this separation, I have a lot of faith in the relationship
I established with her when she was a little girl,

01:00:39.600 --> 01:00:43.080
when I would take care of her and be around her all day.

01:00:45.600 --> 01:00:48.120
Then there’s the part about getting poor.

01:00:48.240 --> 01:00:50.040
Poorer than ever, this time.

01:00:50.280 --> 01:00:51.960
Now we only eat beans.

01:00:52.200 --> 01:00:55.320
Fights, drama,
the album getting thinner and thinner,

01:00:55.320 --> 01:00:58.200
going further and further away,
more and more like a flying saucer.

01:00:58.320 --> 01:01:01.200
Then I couldn\'t even sing anymore.

01:01:01.200 --> 01:01:05.320
I would sing, João would have a fit,
and I\'d end up losing my voice.

01:01:05.400 --> 01:01:08.800
Afterwards, I couldn\'t even think about the album as a distraction anymore, so everything became a living nightmare.

01:01:13.680 --> 01:01:16.200
My voice is all screwed up.

01:01:16.320 --> 01:01:20.280
I looked at myself in the mirror, said \"Hello\"
to Heloïsa in the mirror.

01:01:20.400 --> 01:01:21.840
Hello-isa.

01:01:22.080 --> 01:01:26.040
Happy-isa with an anguished face,
with her bulging mother\'s eyes,

01:01:26.040 --> 01:01:29.760
looking anxious, mad, and ugly.

01:01:29.880 --> 01:01:31.560
With the marked mouth.

01:01:32.640 --> 01:01:35.880
I must have been married for 6 or 10 years,

01:01:35.880 --> 01:01:41.280
but during \'71 and \'75 it was on and off,
so we don\'t consider that marriage.

01:01:48.000 --> 01:01:52.200
New York, March 3, 1973

01:01:55.480 --> 01:02:00.520
João tries uselessly to put an end
to my happiness and hypothetical singing career.

01:02:00.960 --> 01:02:04.320
But I don\'t care. I am feeling free.

01:02:04.440 --> 01:02:07.120
Nevertheless, I keep waiting to be punished.

01:02:07.680 --> 01:02:10.440
I don\'t think it\'s just my paranoid mind...

01:02:10.920 --> 01:02:16.800
On the other hand, I feel safe thinking that as soon as I record
\"Isaura\" there will be nothing tying me down.

01:02:17.440 --> 01:02:22.600
But that\'s only because I have my plane ticket, my bags are
packed, and my jewelery back from the pawnshop.

01:02:23.640 --> 01:02:29.280
The worst part now is that João is using
all his charm to convince me to stay.

01:02:33.840 --> 01:02:38.280
At one point, he finally became interested
in the album and the recording.

01:02:41.880 --> 01:02:45.600
So he came to the studio and we recorded \"Isaura\".

01:02:45.600 --> 01:02:50.040
\"Isaura\", like other songs, became a part of his album.

01:02:50.640 --> 01:02:53.640
Ay, ay, ay, Isaura.

01:02:53.880 --> 01:02:56.400
Let\'s do it again, I didn\'t like it.

01:02:56.400 --> 01:03:00.240
I can\'t stay today.

01:03:00.960 --> 01:03:10.200
If I fall asleep in your arms, there is no alarm
that could wake me up,

01:03:10.440 --> 01:03:20.520
Ay, ay, ay,
Isaura, today I can\'t stay.

01:03:21.000 --> 01:03:32.760
If I fall asleep in your arms, there is no alarm
that could wake me up, I have to work

01:03:34.440 --> 01:03:39.120
Better to be satisfied with singing \"Isaura\" on
his album and just forget about mine.

01:03:39.360 --> 01:03:42.840
He also stole \"A Tua Presença / Your Presence\" from me,
but he\'s not using it.

01:03:43.200 --> 01:03:48.120
His latest passion, \"Ela desatinou / She set herself free\",
is incredible.

01:03:48.480 --> 01:03:52.440
It all started because I was going to record it for my album
and he came to show me the harmony.

01:03:53.680 --> 01:03:56.640
She set herself free

01:03:56.800 --> 01:03:58.800
Saw the arrival of Ash Wednesday

01:03:58.960 --> 01:04:00.240
The end of the fun

01:04:00.880 --> 01:04:02.920
Then it became this incredible,

01:04:02.920 --> 01:04:08.160
wonderful thing that left my track list to become a part of his.
But it was worth it, of course.

01:04:08.400 --> 01:04:11.520
He says it’s the song he likes to sing the most right now.

01:04:19.680 --> 01:04:22.560
She set herself free

01:04:22.800 --> 01:04:25.680
Saw the arrival of Ash Wednesday
The end of the fun

01:04:26.160 --> 01:04:29.520
Carnival flags being torn

01:04:30.480 --> 01:04:33.480
But she\'s still dancing samba

01:04:34.320 --> 01:04:41.280
She doesn\'t notice everyone is already leaving

01:04:41.880 --> 01:04:45.960
All the town has forgotten,

01:04:46.440 --> 01:04:54.000
The fake life, the avenue where she\'s set herself free

01:04:54.360 --> 01:04:57.240
She saw the arrival of Ash Wednesday
The end of the fun

01:04:57.360 --> 01:05:00.960
Carnival flags being torn

01:05:01.920 --> 01:05:04.800
But she\'s still dancing samba

01:05:05.640 --> 01:05:07.800
She set herself free

01:05:08.160 --> 01:05:11.040
Saw the arrival of Ash Wednesday
The end of the game

01:05:11.400 --> 01:05:14.760
Carnival flags being torn

01:05:15.480 --> 01:05:18.960
But she\'s still dancing samba

01:05:28.600 --> 01:05:32.560
Naturally, my album went down the drain with all this business.

01:05:32.920 --> 01:05:39.120
It was impossible to fight for João\'s rights
and defend my own position at the same time.

01:05:39.160 --> 01:05:41.800
I had to pick João at this point.

01:05:42.120 --> 01:05:43.920
Imagine how depressed I am.

01:05:55.960 --> 01:06:03.120
My non-album, became João\'s white cover album,
where we recorded \"Isaura\" for the first time.

01:06:06.760 --> 01:06:11.640
A cataclysmic celestial event caused a drastic change.

01:06:11.640 --> 01:06:18.160
One day I just couldn\'t stand João anymore. Lately,
he\'s been screaming at me every time I start to sing.

01:06:18.160 --> 01:06:21.520
But I can’t get out of here, I feel guilty.

01:06:21.520 --> 01:06:26.680
The longer I stay, the harder it gets and
the more complicated the relationship becomes.

01:06:26.680 --> 01:06:34.240
I\'m afraid I\'ll die and break if I stay.
Unable to get back up ever again.

01:06:34.240 --> 01:06:40.120
I\'m in too much pain, inside and out.
I\'m weak, tired.

01:06:44.520 --> 01:06:52.720
A love so fabled and great that it had to discover
the madness, the evil and the violence on its own.

01:06:53.080 --> 01:06:59.560
I\'ve done everything, I\'ve done so much,
yet I\'m not even sure I\'m doing the right thing.

01:07:00.400 --> 01:07:03.400
Must I force João to get treatment?

01:07:03.880 --> 01:07:10.600
We had an unspoken treaty, to defend each other
against conformity, against others\' misunderstanding.

01:07:10.920 --> 01:07:15.120
And there\'s nothing more conventional
than taking João away to a hospital.

01:07:15.280 --> 01:07:18.760
João, who knew everything, got lost.

01:07:21.000 --> 01:07:24.520
Can the men who know nothing help him?

01:07:29.760 --> 01:07:33.400
There\'s no use to pretend

01:07:33.400 --> 01:07:36.760
We have come to the end

01:07:36.760 --> 01:07:43.320
All that\'s left is to say goodbye

01:07:43.320 --> 01:07:46.720
If I hold you with lies

01:07:46.720 --> 01:07:50.200
It will show in my eyes

01:07:50.200 --> 01:07:58.080
All that\'s left is to say goodbye

01:07:58.080 --> 01:08:06.720
I don\'t want to deny,

01:08:06.720 --> 01:08:10.200
don\'t want to betray

01:08:11.040 --> 01:08:15.400
I feel ready to say goodbye to New York.
I\'m even feeling a bit nostalgic.

01:08:18.960 --> 01:08:21.640
Yesterday we watched some old Super 8 movies.

01:08:25.360 --> 01:08:27.760
João thought I was a different person in those days.

01:08:27.760 --> 01:08:31.320
I stared at myself on the screen,
longing for all the happiness gone by,

01:08:31.320 --> 01:08:34.560
thinking that I was getting dragged
into a terrible situation.

01:08:36.400 --> 01:08:45.960
I see this end of season in New York as the last chapter in
Miúcha and João\'s adventures around the world.

01:08:50.560 --> 01:08:54.000
The last day in New York was hectic.

01:08:54.000 --> 01:08:57.640
We almost got into a fight because
he didn\'t want to take us to the airport.

01:08:57.640 --> 01:09:04.720
But I put my foot down and we left. Bebel and I,
safe and sound, far from the country of wonders and horrors.

01:09:05.760 --> 01:09:12.960
Oh great hill!
Belonging of the brave seamen.

01:09:13.320 --> 01:09:18.040
Hey Xangô, can you help me get there?

01:09:18.760 --> 01:09:20.640
I can\'t remember how I made it to Chico\'s house.

01:09:20.680 --> 01:09:23.040
I got there on a Thursday, it felt like I was fleeing.

01:09:23.200 --> 01:09:30.040
There had been so much havoc, and I felt so tired that
I barely had the strength to unpack my bags.

01:09:30.360 --> 01:09:36.360
The break at Chico and Marieta\'s house was exactly what
I needed. Softly landing, relaxing.

01:09:58.920 --> 01:10:00.840
Good morning America!

01:10:02.280 --> 01:10:04.920
Hey Bro, bring me some ice!

01:10:08.320 --> 01:10:10.080
MIUCHA SINGS HER HEART OUT

01:10:10.240 --> 01:10:15.000
The mood was joyful and light,
full of laughter and drinks.

01:10:15.000 --> 01:10:19.000
Happiness was nurtured and embraced.

01:10:19.000 --> 01:10:22.720
I can feel the change all around me.

01:10:23.560 --> 01:10:26.320
The air feels better all around me.

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Right after the big Bossa Nova tidal wave,

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which I reckon goes from the end of
the \'50\'s to the start of the \'60\'s,

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is when I really started working
in music and recording albums.

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I can feel the change all around me.

01:10:41.640 --> 01:10:44.040
I\'M MIÚCHA, NOT CHICO BUARQUE\'S SISTER.

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The air feels better all around me.

01:10:46.600 --> 01:10:49.000
FROM DREAM TO REALITY:
CHICO BUARQUE DEEPLY ADMIRES HIS SISTER.

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My heart beats excitedly

01:10:51.960 --> 01:10:54.360
for this region.

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Wake up again, America!

01:10:58.960 --> 01:11:04.240
We\'d chit chat about events and people,

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laugh a lot and enjoy each other\'s company.

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Colombia, Ecuador, Uruguay, Venezuela, Argentina
are growing for the better.

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Hello Brazil, my giant!
So much time without you, welcome back!

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For Miúcha, with much affection and respect from
your Cuban brother, Milanes.

01:11:25.000 --> 01:11:27.160
Good morning, America!
Good morning to my Cuban friends!

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Waking up here is great. Looking at the sea,
taking care of the plants on the terrace.

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The place where I live is beautiful, sunny,
in the middle of Ipanema,

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It has plants, sunflowers, a hammock,
a recorder. And Bebel, always, us and many friends.

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Tom (Jobim) showed up.

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He came by the house after a few magic spells
and a note left at Veloso bar.

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I only became friends with Tom when I got back to Brazil.
Then we became really good friends.

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Miúcha, life is no fun without you.

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Without your smile there\'s no music

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You are more than beauty,

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Ear, tooth, generosity.

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My pranks don\'t affect you,

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Partner and listener, you have it all and donate it to the poor.

01:12:21.640 --> 01:12:25.200
Tom Jobim

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I used to hang out with Tom in bars.

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They were special moments, plenty of people sitting
around the table, talking and joking.

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We would drink beer, so much beer.
We\'d pile up the used coasters to count how many we\'d had.

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This one time, there were towers of coasters.
So many that they were hard to count.

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Dawn

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The city is asleep

01:13:23.520 --> 01:13:26.040
Dawn

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Only this longing does not sleep

01:13:36.240 --> 01:13:45.400
In my sky, the sunlight no longer shines

01:13:47.280 --> 01:13:53.040
Because the sun that I once dreamed of

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Was only an illusion...

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I think I\'m quite immune to the general madness.

01:14:02.400 --> 01:14:05.320
No one\'s noticed mine for the moment.

01:14:06.720 --> 01:14:12.480
After all those years in gridlock, you can\'t even start
to imagine what I\'m capable of doing.

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At some point, Aloysio de Oliveira showed up.

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He had produced the most emblematic Bossa
Nova albums and he wanted to make a record with me.

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I asked Tom for songs, and we recorded two right away.

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It was a beautiful and intimate moment.

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We would look each other in the eyes.
Which is important, I think, for the vocals,

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so you can tell when one stops,
the other breathes, and so on.

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Vocals are usually recorded in separate cabins.

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But I said, \"That\'s nonsense!

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It’s much better to be close to one another\".
And that\'s how the album was recorded.

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When the light of my eyes
And the light of your eyes

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Decide to meet

01:15:13.680 --> 01:15:19.680
Oh my God, it feels so nice
I get a shiver from the meeting of these glances

01:15:19.680 --> 01:15:23.080
But if the light in your eyes
Resists my eyes

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Only to provoke me

01:15:26.400 --> 01:15:32.920
My love, I swear to God
I feel myself on fire

01:15:33.280 --> 01:15:37.680
Tom sat down at the piano and asked me
\"Do you think Vinicius would mind if

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we turned his samba into a waltz?\"

01:15:40.560 --> 01:15:45.000
And so the waltz began \"ta da da...\"

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So \"Luz dos olhos teus / In the light of your eyes\"
became a waltz with a little French twist.

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And Vinicius loved it!

01:15:54.280 --> 01:15:57.840
That the light of my eyes needs to get married

01:15:58.800 --> 01:16:03.480
Before our album, Tom had heard
everything I\'d ever recorded.

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He already knew how I sang.

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...needs to get married

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Certain things started happening.

01:16:27.160 --> 01:16:32.040
I resisted Tom\'s charms while we worked

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because my experience with João
had taught me to keep certain matters apart.

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Our record will probably come out before Christmas.
I think this could be a real turning point for me.

01:16:46.240 --> 01:16:50.760
During our recording sessions,
I\'d arrive at Tom\'s house at around 10 a.m.

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He used to keep these tin mugs in the freezer.
He\'d serve our first cold beers in them

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and we\'d just play music together.

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Tom enjoyed waking up early and playing
Ravel or Debussy on the piano.

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We\'d sing a lot together and sometimes alternate our pitches.

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I would sing the bass, he\'d sing the treble.
We would switch the male and female vocals.

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\"So I\'ll sing this part, and you sing that part,
but the octave above\"

01:17:22.360 --> 01:17:25.440
We\'d practice, then Tom would return to his piano to perfect it.

01:17:25.680 --> 01:17:31.240
[Tom] Here we\'re playing in E flat.

01:17:34.080 --> 01:17:37.120
You\'re full of malice

01:17:37.440 --> 01:17:43.480
A caress that comforts, scolds and kisses...

01:17:44.440 --> 01:17:50.160
A caress that comforts, scolds, and kisses...

01:17:50.640 --> 01:17:59.520
I know that the sublime torture of love can be seen in you

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(Miúcha) I\'m fully aware that you\'re handsome and
you make me go crazy

01:18:12.000 --> 01:18:15.960
(Tom) It\'s beautiful and
it makes me go crazy

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Because it lights up in flames

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I let myself burn,
whether you want it or not

01:18:36.600 --> 01:18:42.240
I carry in my heart

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My first real album was with Tom.

01:18:47.520 --> 01:18:50.920
We recorded two albums together,
then we traveled a long time doing concerts together.

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And that\'s when I really started to sing

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[Tom] Brazil\'s incredible!

01:18:58.000 --> 01:19:01.560
MIÚCHA\'S FIRST SOLO ALBUM A DEEP AND STRENGTHFUL
VOICE THAT TRANSMITS INTIMACY

01:19:01.560 --> 01:19:04.120
[Tom] I want ten cigars to celebrate!

01:19:04.920 --> 01:19:06.600
[Miucha] Look, there\'s a cigar right here...

01:19:08.800 --> 01:19:15.280
[Radio Host] Radio Jornal do Brasil AM special
focusing on the career and successes of singer Miúcha.

01:19:15.640 --> 01:19:22.360
Miúcha, a thousand wonderful things happened
during the recording of your album, in rehearsals...

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Tell us about it, we were talking when the record was playing,
and the microphones were turned off, so it didn’t go on air.

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Many of the musical arrangements resulted from the rehearsals.

01:19:32.520 --> 01:19:36.000
One of the musicians would play the flute, and Tom would say,
\"Let\'s keep that, it\'s a good intro.\"

01:19:36.360 --> 01:19:39.240
We really became a group with this album.

01:19:39.720 --> 01:19:43.960
He started by chasing off the violinists from the studio, right?
Violin, cello...

01:19:44.400 --> 01:19:51.400
Exactly! The album had been planned
with a big orchestra, violins, etc...

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And we ended up not using any of it. Like you said,
it\'s the mood during rehearsal that passed on to the studio.

01:19:57.520 --> 01:20:00.600
There are days when I am
thinking about life

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And truthfully,
I don\'t see a way out

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For instance, how is it
that one should understand

01:20:06.720 --> 01:20:09.480
That just as people are born
they begin to die

01:20:09.640 --> 01:20:12.480
After the arrival,
departure always comes

01:20:12.760 --> 01:20:15.480
Because there is nothing
without separation

01:20:15.600 --> 01:20:21.520
What do I know, what do I know
life is a great illusion

01:20:21.720 --> 01:20:27.360
What do I know, what do I know
I just know that life is always right

01:20:27.840 --> 01:20:32.760
[Radio Host] Another song that should be on the album,
and should probably be in the show,

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is Maninha, that Chico wrote for you, right?

01:20:36.240 --> 01:20:40.800
[Miúcha] Of course, Chico gave a lot of insight into the new
songs, a lot of guidance, a lot of ideas,

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and this song he wrote for me is the most beautiful
gift a sister has ever gotten from a brother.

01:20:45.880 --> 01:20:52.920
I asked Chico for a song, and Chico was like,
\"My God, an order? A family request from my sister?\"

01:20:52.920 --> 01:20:58.000
So Tom answered,
\"That\'s right, it has to be very family oriented.\"

01:20:58.000 --> 01:21:01.240
Chico got really obsessed with the song.

01:21:01.240 --> 01:21:06.480
One day I was having lunch with Tom and Aloysio
when the waiter came and said:

01:21:06.480 --> 01:21:13.000
\"Chico\'s on the phone, he wants to talk with you guys.\"
No one had cell phones at the time, phones still had short wires.

01:21:13.320 --> 01:21:18.480
\"Hey, I came up with a song,
I think it might be what you\'re looking for.\"

01:21:18.480 --> 01:21:22.840
I didn\'t even think of telling
him that the album was ready to go.

01:21:22.840 --> 01:21:25.240
He played the song on his guitar over the phone.

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He\'d really composed it for his sister.
It sounded familiar, and old-fashioned with a hint of nostalgia.

01:21:33.120 --> 01:21:40.200
Remember the jackfruit tree,
the fruit on the grass

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The dreams that you told me

01:21:47.080 --> 01:21:52.560
The steps in the basement,
remember the haunting

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And the souls with the scent of jasmine

01:22:00.960 --> 01:22:07.080
Remember the garden, oh dear sister,
covered in flowers

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Because today there\'s only weeds
on the ground that he trod.

01:22:14.400 --> 01:22:20.800
Remember the future
that we planned

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I was such a child and still am

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Wanting to believe that the day will dawn
just because a lullaby said so

01:22:43.080 --> 01:22:49.440
But don\'t leave me like this,
so alone torturing me

01:22:50.040 --> 01:22:56.400
One day he\'ll be gone, dear sister
never to return again...

01:23:02.560 --> 01:23:09.480
Miúcha, as we reach the end, I wanted to ask you
if João Gilberto really exists or if he is fiction.

01:23:09.480 --> 01:23:11.080
I can guarantee you that he exists.

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Well, I think seeing Bebel sing, that\'s the proof.

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She’s the biggest proof he exists and continues to exist.

01:23:16.560 --> 01:23:19.440
So the genius is really hard to take on a day-to-day basis?

01:23:19.440 --> 01:23:23.440
No, we get along much better today than when we were married.

01:23:23.440 --> 01:23:28.200
I say: \"the formula for an ideal marriage is
to get divorced as soon as possible.\"

01:23:32.800 --> 01:23:35.640
Fair and swift winds have brought your letter.

01:23:36.000 --> 01:23:41.200
The stationery has run out and so I have to use the notebook
that I use for lyrics, short stories, recipes and drawings.

01:23:41.400 --> 01:23:44.640
I\'m totally into feminist literature right now.

01:23:45.000 --> 01:23:48.400
We are alone, hopelessly alone.

01:23:48.880 --> 01:23:52.960
Home, family and husbands are all things to cling on to.

01:23:53.280 --> 01:23:56.160
And marriage is like a bottomless pit.

01:23:56.160 --> 01:23:58.000
DON\'T GET MARRIED!

01:23:59.040 --> 01:24:06.360
Look at the words: security, stability...they\'re the exact opposite
of movement and transformation.

01:24:06.520 --> 01:24:09.840
Everything changes. Except people?

01:24:11.640 --> 01:24:15.600
You see, João and I locked ourselves away from the world,

01:24:15.600 --> 01:24:18.120
immersed ourselves in each other until
we got sick of one another.

01:24:18.120 --> 01:24:21.880
We forbade ourselves to
sleep with other people.

01:24:21.880 --> 01:24:23.880
There comes a time when you know everything
about that person;

01:24:23.880 --> 01:24:28.120
their thoughts, their answer and reaction
to every possible situation.

01:24:28.120 --> 01:24:31.000
It\'s obvious that you have to change the whole arrangement.

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You see how my mindset has changed?
Have you thought about the feminist society?

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In the end, when it\'s time to come up with a solution,
everyone always chooses some kind of community.

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Even to put an end to the family neurosis.

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For me, it\'s great, because I am definitely a social animal.

01:25:06.160 --> 01:25:08.920
I\'m looking for a right man

01:25:09.280 --> 01:25:12.520
For a girl all wrong

01:25:13.000 --> 01:25:18.760
Someone who knows how to fix
this poor woman

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Who cries in desperation
inside her own mirror

01:25:25.320 --> 01:25:30.640
With the red eyes of one
who can\'t see any more

01:25:31.000 --> 01:25:36.640
I look for the error in the mistake
Everything is right and nothing is

01:25:37.000 --> 01:25:43.000
Your sobs wake me
Your moans, nightmares

01:25:43.320 --> 01:25:49.120
I grab your arm in distress
Of one who falls off the cliff

01:25:49.480 --> 01:25:55.320
And the things she screams
Trouble my heart

01:25:55.800 --> 01:25:58.200
I forget her by day

01:25:58.480 --> 01:26:01.200
I drink beer, I laugh

01:26:01.480 --> 01:26:03.960
I talk to my friends

01:26:04.360 --> 01:26:07.960
I deserve some rest

01:26:08.560 --> 01:26:13.320
She only comes in the morning
or in the dark of dawn

01:26:13.720 --> 01:26:19.360
Almost always drunk
Almost never accompanied

01:26:19.680 --> 01:26:25.320
Except with a sad joy
that she cries in song

01:26:25.840 --> 01:26:37.120
Except with a fake joy
that she cries in song

01:26:50.440 --> 01:26:54.040
I was speaking in English...

01:26:56.200 --> 01:26:58.240
I\'ll just continue...

01:26:58.960 --> 01:27:07.360
You brother Chico Buarque de Hollanda called me from Rio
because he has a very important message for you.

01:27:07.360 --> 01:27:09.760
He asked me to tell you that:

01:27:10.000 --> 01:27:13.440
Even with all the fame
with all the beer

01:27:13.680 --> 01:27:16.360
with all the bed
with all the mud

01:27:16.720 --> 01:27:22.360
we\'ll carry on

01:27:22.360 --> 01:27:28.320
we carry on this flame

01:27:33.760 --> 01:27:39.960
Even with every ruthlessness, every exploit
Every rump, every campaign

01:27:40.320 --> 01:27:45.360
we\'ll carry on

01:27:53.400 --> 01:27:58.240
It turns out that the three biggest names in Bossa Nova
had a close relationship with me.

01:27:58.320 --> 01:28:05.680
I think I\'m the only singer who sang and recorded with
João Gilberto, Tom Jobim and Vinicius de Moraes.

01:28:06.400 --> 01:28:10.480
They were very intense relationships,
and I drank from the source.

01:28:13.080 --> 01:28:17.040
Yesterday I went through a stack of letters
that I\'ve written throughout my life.

01:28:17.040 --> 01:28:20.040
It helped me understand several things.

01:28:20.040 --> 01:28:23.280
Back then, I could already see
the face of music with and without vibes.

01:28:23.280 --> 01:28:28.320
And I knew music was coming towards me from
the tortuous and foolproof paths of life.

01:28:28.320 --> 01:28:29.760
So I looked it in the face.

01:28:29.760 --> 01:28:33.840
And every day and every night, I\'ve walked towards it.

01:28:35.640 --> 01:28:37.680
It\'s funny how all the stories I wrote

01:28:37.680 --> 01:28:43.320
when I was little always focused on the moment
when the character turns out to be a great artist.

01:28:43.320 --> 01:28:53.760
As if right there and then a supernatural blessing, a flame,
transformed the \"normal\" person into a God or half-God.

01:28:55.440 --> 01:29:00.000
What could it be that ails me
That burns me from inside, what could it be

01:29:00.240 --> 01:29:03.600
That disturbs my sleep, what could it be

01:29:03.840 --> 01:29:09.360
That all the tremors which come and shake me
That all the uncomfortable warmth comes to stoke me

01:29:09.600 --> 01:29:15.600
That all the sweats come to soak me
That all my nerves are imploring me

01:29:15.840 --> 01:29:18.600
That all my organs are clamoring for

01:29:18.840 --> 01:29:25.080
And a horrible affliction makes me beg
What has no shame, and will never have

01:29:25.200 --> 01:29:30.480
What has no rule, and will never have
What has no judgment

01:29:35.400 --> 01:29:38.160
I thought being on stage was something forbidden to me.

01:29:38.160 --> 01:29:42.840
I thought it was like a fairytale
that either happens on its own or not.

01:29:43.080 --> 01:29:45.000
And that it wouldn\'t happen to me.