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In this theatre, I used to conquer the world

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the world!

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I could see the audience loved me.

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And for me, my greatest joy
was seeing the whole place full...

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That’s enough!

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I am old, nearly 88

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however I feel young in spirit
and my heart is young.

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- Where are you going?
- We’re going with you.

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Oh! With me!...
So, we have to go?

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The Sweet Taste Of Success

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Don’t forget the umbrella.

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I’m really curious to see
where are you taking me to.

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Once a neighbour told me

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“Wow! Who would have said
that María Teresa Paniagua was going to be my neighbour?”

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I said: “Did you know me?”
“Yeees!

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I saw you in «El Puñado de Rosas»,
I saw all your plays.

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I was going to see you in all plays at Zarzuela”.

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I thought, “You wouldn’t believe it!”

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They also recognised me in the street...

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People in the street also knew me.

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...I’m old, nearly 88, however
I feel young in spirit and my heart is young…

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How good! Too bad I have never met her,
I would have loved to!

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There are artists, and I am one of them

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who are very demanding with what we do.

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Therefore, success is possible

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nearly in every singing performance.

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But full success is when you feel that everything went well

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when you feel that it was a really special day.

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We are nothing without the audience.

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And success can only be achieved with that audience.

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And it is that audience who decides.

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You can do whatever you want

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you can tell yourself:
“I must succeed here, I must succeed there”…

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It’s the audience who decides!

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I realize that we do something to provoke that success

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but it is still not very clear what it is.

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I see success...

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as an empty word,
there is nothing inside.

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As a word, it doesn’t convey
anything to me anymore.

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It has been used so much.

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Words that from being used that much,
like feminism, have lost their meaning.

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We need to create new words

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that are similar but sound different to us.

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I’ll shut up during the announcement

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so that there’s no cacophony!

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With the boom of “La ley del deseo”
[film by Pedro Almodovar]

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everybody knew me

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and it was very uncomfortable then...

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For me, such a sudden celebrity felt like a trap...

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it felt like there was no content in the container.

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I didn’t feel that I deserved all that attention
for having a big nose.

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For me good success
needs to be in relation to your nature

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and be connected to your inner self...

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Sometimes the simplest things,
a simple moment is a moment of success for yourself.

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But then success as perceived by others,
well, let everyone interpret it as they want.

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But to be successful in the eyes of others
is not very relevant neither interesting.

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Glitter is also a huge success as you can see!

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It gives you the effect of immediate success.

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So, if you want a little bit of success,
just put “une paillette” on your eyelid and you’ll feel better!

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Success for me
was watching others enjoy.

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They say that from the stage
you can’t see the faces in the stalls.

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This is not true!

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I could see them very well
up to the third row.

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And seeing these happy faces

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and then hearing the applause...

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that’s what stays inside me.

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That I made many people happy.

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I was always the lead singer of all zarzuelas.
I was first figure in zarzuela.

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“For María Teresa Paniagua de Arribas

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great interpreter of our lyrical genre

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with the friendship and admiration of Santos Yubero”.

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As he was the critic

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he had to take pictures from the first row.

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And then, in all this he sent me all the performances.

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They were stars! They walked around
the cities where they were on tour

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and people stopped them in the streets,
invited them for lunch or coffee.

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They were received with great affection.
People awaited them in train stations, airports...

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with bouquets of flowers: “Such or such is coming!”

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The public loved us.

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People would stand over there and wait

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in order to touch us and say “Congratulations!”.

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When a baby was born

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if a singer or someone who had a nice voice
would cut his first little fingernails

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he would supposedly become
a better singer than Pavarotti.

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So let me tell you,
I cut a lot of nails to toddlers!

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I don’t know if any of them is now a singer
because I didn’t know their parents.

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And after that...

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Who is this?... What?...

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[in Catalan] Very well, very well...
And you? What are you up to?

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…You doing great…

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What did you direct in the theatre Lara?

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All zarzuela...

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So many memories, right?

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And so nice, so wonderful, all of them...

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Oh yes, “El Calderón de Barcelona”!...

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Yes, “El gato montés”...

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Yes, I used to do it, yes, it’s divine...

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And Císcar,
it’s the company I started with...

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The duo of tenor and treble is wonderful.

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And “La Solbes”... “El barbero de Sevilla”...

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It has a duo and the romance that I sing to the priest...

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Oh! It is so nice, all the music, all of it.

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[in Catalan] Big kiss!

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Bye.

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Well, ontologically...

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we are extremely fragile human beings.

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And humanity deserves credit for that

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for the fact of having accomplished things,
for having achieved art, done surprising things

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...or even extraordinary massacres.

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Having done something so unusual

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being so cosmically small

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is somehow funny.

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I believe that’s why death
brings the need for humor in life.

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Knowing that we are going to die

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whomever does not have sense of humor
and sees things with humor

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hasn’t understood the game.

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These girls must be thinking

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“Here we are, totally bored

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and this old lady there, with this handsome guy...

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How can it be?”

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And I laugh, thinking

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“Come on, envy me, envy me!”

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I am so evil, right?

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She is so wonderful, really!

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The joy of living

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and such youth,
she calls herself old but she’s young

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because she is funny;
what a handsome boy... and such

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she’s so fun.

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…how pretty we are, we’re gorgeous…

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I love it! Two little girls!

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Success is a bit like,
sorry for the expression, a “little fuck up”

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because everybody expects a lot
from you once you reach success.

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And then success means having no time for yourself.

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Failure is more peaceful in that sense.

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I am not even sure they do exist as concepts.

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To tell you the truth,
I don’t believe in success or failure.

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Each time you truly believe something,
like for example success

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something happens that makes you say:
“why did I ever believe in any of it?”

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and makes you sink.

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Same with failure, you think all is lost

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then something happens that makes you say:
“I saw the light again”.

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But like everything in life, these are just instants,
therefore it is better not to believe anything

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nor successful nor failure.

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It’s better to live in the present,
the carpe diem however best you can.

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Not anticipating

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because things like success
push you to anticipate to situations or events...

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You shouldn’t anticipate,
you need to stay tied to the present

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the only thing we really have.

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What is success for you?

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In my case many times
it meant just being alive.

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Success for me is this freedom I have.

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To be able to get up every morning,
be with the woman I love

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take the motorbike and go for a ride.

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Go out on the main road.

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Feeling happy.

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This is success for me.

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Not hurting anybody.

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Not being... bad,
even though it sounds silly.

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The problem is that the word success
has thousands of shades

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and it’s a little perverse.

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I don’t know if I am happy
because I am very dumb

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or because I deserve it, as (Fernando) Savater said.

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Well, I think that all these
are victories in life.

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You can’t always ask everybody else
if you are successful or not.

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You have to ask yourself.

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That’s why I always thought envy is absurd

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because we envy from the outside

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but we don’t even know if the other person
is really happy with himself, is enjoying or not.

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There can be people not envied by anybody,
who are, let’s say, very blessed with their life

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and others instead envied by many,
like the famous “Citizen Kane” (Orson Welles, 1941)

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but not precisely very happy.

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I am in love with my neighbourhood.

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I am crazy for Madrid
but even more for my neighbourhood.

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The best neighbourhood of Madrid for me...

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Please don’t ever take me away from it.

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It’s my life.

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I lost part of my life when he died.

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After it happened,
they wanted to take me to Zaragoza

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but I said: “No, I just lost half of my life

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if you take me away

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it would be like losing the other half”.

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I’m happy here.

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When I reach the plaza or Lavapiés

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Oh! My heart feels something special...
I am home!

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Even if I had millions now

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I would still live here, in Lavapiés.

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I am happy for everything around me

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because you all treat me
with much respect and affection.

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For this I am very, very happy

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but then you miss that other life.

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And this one is “La Corte de Faraón”.

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My husband put it on.

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When I was 55 years old

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being (Francisco) Franco alive,
though shortly after he died

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I remember my dear Ricardo
who had set up “La Corte de Faraón”

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he asked me: “Darling,
why don’t you do the queen’s part?”

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That piece was forbidden in Spain,
totally forbidden!

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By Franco and all that.

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With Franco’s death came our ruin.

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We had signed contracts all over Spain.

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Success here in Madrid
brings you contracts all over Spain.

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Big audience and all delighted

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because it really was a funny zarzuela piece.

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So, from here we go to Valencia.

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Then Franco dies.

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Six days of mourning

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and after that, nobody was going to the theatre anymore!

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Everybody in Spain
was so scared of what was going to happen

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that nobody went to the theatre.

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Nobody, nobody...
That’s why his death was our ruin.

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Success also...
something so ephemeral and fast

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that it lasts, let’s say

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what the foam of a beer lasts.

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That’s it.

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It is a moment of communion.

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A moment when it goes “click”.

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I don’t believe in success coming from the sky

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nor anything esoteric.

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I think it is the sum of your day by day work.

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Work makes you reconnect

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find and have that click with the audience.

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This was Enrique del Portal...

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Quique! What a surprise, dear!

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I came to congratulate you
and share this moment with you...

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Who called you?

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This one here, with his father,
we had a lot of successes...

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Enrique del Portal and María Teresa Paniagua...

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What great hits...

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I shouldn’t say it, but he is younger than you
yet he looks much worse than you.

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– Really?
– A lot worse than you.

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– I know he’s much younger.
– He always looked worse!

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Oh shut up! Shut up!

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I brought the libretto
“La Revoltosa” in the Daimon edition

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these are librettos with comments.

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And so that you know who you’re talking to

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the illustration of “La Revoltosa”
is a picture of María Teresa Paniagua.

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– Really?
– Of course!

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It is!

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In the opera there is no talking, only singing.

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In the zarzuela you also talk

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meaning you need...

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expertise, an extraordinary acting quality

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also because the worst thing for singing is talking.

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There are tremendous scenes in zarzuela

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when you’re in the middle
of a very dramatic moment

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and then you suddenly have to start singing.

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The difference between zarzuela and opera

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is that despite sentimental triangle complications

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there is no tragedy.
At the end everything finishes well.

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There is sometimes some sadness
but in most zarzuelas there is a happy ending.

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Hello! Good morning!

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The thing is I never have breakfast at home.

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I always need to go down the street
and have my “churros”.

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Small things are what make life more pleasant.

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What happens is that we got used...

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to inconvenience.

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To the inconvenience of rhythms, of the rules

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of what has to be

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of what you must do

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of what’s expected of you.

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Instead of teaching specific values to children

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everything is hurries, pressure.

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Therefore we have gotten used... to discomfort.

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Because you tell me

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what is comfortable with this rhythm of life of ours?

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And now comes the tough part.

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This one is for depression,
this one for the heart

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this one for cholesterol

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and this one for dizziness.

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What is lost somehow are ways
of enjoying other aspects of life.

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It’s a real impoverishment.

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I have nothing against consumption

00:25:22.333 --> 00:25:25.458
but I do believe that there are other
types of consumption that are fine too.

00:25:27.208 --> 00:25:30.291
I would say...

00:25:30.291 --> 00:25:34.041
the difference between
a cultured person and an uneducated person

00:25:34.625 --> 00:25:39.875
is that the more ignorant one is,
the more money he needs to spend his weekends...

00:25:39.875 --> 00:25:41.500
or his vacations.

00:25:42.041 --> 00:25:45.375
A cultivated person is content with himself

00:25:45.375 --> 00:25:49.125
he produces things,
and a stroll, a conversation

00:25:49.958 --> 00:25:52.791
or a little bit of music
are enough to make one feel happy.

00:25:52.791 --> 00:25:55.166
But of course, if you do not produce anything

00:25:55.166 --> 00:25:57.500
and feel empty inside,
then you need to buy everything.

00:25:57.500 --> 00:26:01.500
Like these countries that need
to import everything from the outside

00:26:01.500 --> 00:26:05.333
and they are an economic disaster.

00:26:17.333 --> 00:26:19.458
So I believe that even for economic reasons

00:26:19.458 --> 00:26:21.000
culture is important.

00:26:21.000 --> 00:26:26.000
A person with a rich culture already has a wealth

00:26:26.000 --> 00:26:28.000
that is important for his life.

00:26:33.250 --> 00:26:35.083
I saw her sitting there.

00:26:36.041 --> 00:26:40.041
“Can I sit next to you?”
and she said: “Yes, of course”.

00:26:40.666 --> 00:26:45.500
And there we were,
and it came out, talking...

00:26:46.041 --> 00:26:47.958
She sings really really well

00:26:48.833 --> 00:26:50.416
... cuplés.

00:26:50.583 --> 00:26:54.000
«Madrid, Madrid, Madrid...

00:26:54.000 --> 00:26:57.625
you’re very thought in Mexico

00:26:57.625 --> 00:27:01.041
because of the flavour
of your open-air dances

00:27:01.041 --> 00:27:05.416
because of so many good things
we dream about from here.

00:27:06.041 --> 00:27:12.875
You’ll see what is to be outstanding
and kick up a row when you arrive to Madrid».

00:27:13.375 --> 00:27:16.000
Yeah! That’s it!

00:27:23.083 --> 00:27:29.708
Look at how advertising, etc.,
insists a lot on non-commercial values.

00:27:31.375 --> 00:27:32.791
They sell you something

00:27:32.791 --> 00:27:35.708
but they sell it wrapped
in something that is not commercial:

00:27:36.666 --> 00:27:40.500
poetry, family, love, beauty, etc.

00:27:41.083 --> 00:27:44.875
In other words, you are not being sold
something commercial as purely commercial.

00:27:45.000 --> 00:27:47.500
That doesn’t deserve much credit.

00:28:01.583 --> 00:28:02.916
Money is not all.

00:28:03.583 --> 00:28:06.291
As a good Spanish, “I lead in my hunger”…

00:28:13.250 --> 00:28:17.708
Meaning that if I don’t feel like taking
a photo because I don’t like the client

00:28:17.708 --> 00:28:19.125
there is no photo!

00:28:21.458 --> 00:28:22.583
And I feel fine about it.

00:28:23.125 --> 00:28:25.000
I won’t be richer or poorer.

00:28:26.041 --> 00:28:27.291
I won’t eat better either.

00:28:28.458 --> 00:28:29.708
I lead in my hunger.

00:28:36.583 --> 00:28:41.458
We are in a society that pushes...

00:28:42.958 --> 00:28:46.250
to produce, to be competitive

00:28:47.791 --> 00:28:51.708
to create a world of material comfort

00:28:53.958 --> 00:28:57.208
and live in that world of comfort
totally indifferent

00:28:57.208 --> 00:29:02.208
to other problems
suffered by the rest of the world

00:29:02.208 --> 00:29:03.208
or your neighbour.

00:29:21.416 --> 00:29:23.625
This extreme neoliberalism

00:29:24.750 --> 00:29:29.458
is making us reach quickly the limits of our society

00:29:29.458 --> 00:29:33.500
with the feeling that none of this makes sense

00:29:33.500 --> 00:29:36.333
and that another dimension is missing...

00:29:48.541 --> 00:29:50.583
We are fully aware

00:29:50.583 --> 00:29:53.208
that this doesn’t make us happy
but we still get into the game.

00:29:53.208 --> 00:29:56.833
And at the end
the most important thing we have is our time.

00:29:57.791 --> 00:30:00.875
Therefore, when you spend your time
doing what you like

00:30:01.625 --> 00:30:02.458
you can be happy.

00:30:02.458 --> 00:30:04.916
But if you dedicate your time
to do what you don’t like

00:30:04.916 --> 00:30:08.416
in order to buy this new tv, car
that won’t bring you happiness

00:30:08.416 --> 00:30:09.208
it is absurd!

00:30:09.208 --> 00:30:13.166
«What one wants but still seems insufficient.

00:30:13.166 --> 00:30:15.625
We kill ourselves to get what we do not need.

00:30:15.625 --> 00:30:17.833
And we cheat, lie and defraud».

00:30:17.833 --> 00:30:19.583
Recently, someone was telling me

00:30:19.583 --> 00:30:25.375
“Now that you make a good living...
how come you still have this old car?”

00:30:25.375 --> 00:30:28.291
and I said: “It takes me everywhere I need.
I don’t need anything else”.

00:30:28.625 --> 00:30:31.875
Positive attitude consists in facing the world

00:30:33.583 --> 00:30:36.041
knowing how to rely upon oneself

00:30:37.291 --> 00:30:39.291
realizing you are alone

00:30:39.291 --> 00:30:42.500
and from there
going out to be with those you want to be with.

00:30:44.125 --> 00:30:45.000
So, there she is.

00:30:45.375 --> 00:30:48.500
…I feel young in spirit and
my heart is young…

00:30:49.666 --> 00:30:52.541
I’m specially interested in a few things
she said that are important

00:30:52.541 --> 00:30:58.375
like for example, placing a lot,
a lot of value on our everyday life.

00:31:00.208 --> 00:31:05.375
«Having daily contact with others
even by phone...

00:31:05.916 --> 00:31:12.500
helps us keep alive the consciousness
of ourselves in relation to our environment.

00:31:15.458 --> 00:31:21.875
Our positive attitude is what brings us
closer to the others and creates interest in us».

00:31:24.750 --> 00:31:28.083
That paragraph was written for me!

00:31:54.791 --> 00:31:57.208
Well, bye! See you later!

00:32:49.958 --> 00:32:52.833
The potatoes not too big.

00:32:53.791 --> 00:32:56.083
Small, yes, because I’m by myself...

00:33:52.291 --> 00:33:56.000
You are not a great person, well you are,
but not because you have a lot of knowledge

00:33:56.000 --> 00:33:58.416
or experience.

00:33:59.125 --> 00:34:01.291
You are a great person
because of the way you are.

00:34:01.291 --> 00:34:04.750
Always, always always, always, always...

00:34:04.750 --> 00:34:06.291
we can choose our attitude.

00:34:06.291 --> 00:34:08.791
This is the last freedom we,
as human beings, have.

00:34:08.791 --> 00:34:13.000
It is true that circumstances can influence,
that the environment does condition, sometimes a lot

00:34:13.000 --> 00:34:16.583
but there is always that small room
for us to decide our attitude

00:34:16.583 --> 00:34:17.791
and how to deal with it.

00:34:20.583 --> 00:34:22.958
Look, I’m having lentils today.

00:34:27.083 --> 00:34:30.291
I’ll make this, ok?
I’ll explain it to you now.

00:34:35.833 --> 00:34:40.375
I wash it,
then I cut it into thin slices.

00:34:40.375 --> 00:34:44.583
With this flour, called tempura

00:34:46.333 --> 00:34:48.375
I make a sauce

00:34:49.208 --> 00:34:53.416
not thin thin, not thick thick either.

00:34:54.291 --> 00:34:59.458
I roll in the eggplant.
And then, I fry them in very hot oil.

00:35:00.208 --> 00:35:02.416
Delicious!

00:35:25.083 --> 00:35:31.958
And now I’m only going
to lie down on the couch and read.

00:35:31.958 --> 00:35:34.958
– What are you reading right now?
– “The godfather”.

00:35:35.625 --> 00:35:39.291
«Don’t hit the head. Just the face».

00:35:47.250 --> 00:35:48.291
See how good it is!

00:35:49.041 --> 00:35:50.791
I was born in Zaragoza.

00:35:52.166 --> 00:35:57.541
Then they relocated my father
from Zaragoza to Pamplona

00:35:59.791 --> 00:36:03.875
and then from Pamplona to Tarragona.

00:36:04.416 --> 00:36:10.583
We were always moving the furniture
from one place to another. I hated traveling.

00:36:13.083 --> 00:36:19.625
But ironically, I later chose a profession

00:36:20.583 --> 00:36:23.625
which was all about traveling.

00:36:24.375 --> 00:36:29.166
I came back from Colombia

00:36:30.666 --> 00:36:31.916
Puerto Rico...

00:36:32.375 --> 00:36:33.416
Venezuela...

00:36:33.916 --> 00:36:35.458
I came back to Spain

00:36:35.458 --> 00:36:40.333
and I had just arrived
when they called me again from Venezuela.

00:36:40.333 --> 00:36:44.750
And I said no,
that I was already booked.

00:36:44.750 --> 00:36:48.750
They were offering me
more money than here, but I said no.

00:37:11.708 --> 00:37:13.291
This is really good.

00:37:18.000 --> 00:37:21.083
I’m not supposed to in front of you,
but I’m leaking my fingers.

00:37:39.833 --> 00:37:42.083
– Which street is this?
– Atocha.

00:37:42.416 --> 00:37:43.250
Atocha.

00:37:45.833 --> 00:37:47.250
Look, the train station.

00:37:47.916 --> 00:37:50.250
Please, don’t ever touch this facade!

00:37:51.250 --> 00:37:54.000
I would be so upset.

00:37:54.000 --> 00:37:57.291
Like when they built there the Scalextric...

00:38:01.500 --> 00:38:09.083
What a mess, I was so furious!
They eventually took it away, finally.

00:38:14.625 --> 00:38:17.625
Speaking about happiness

00:38:18.541 --> 00:38:21.708
I think that the only thing
that saves me is having a young soul.

00:38:22.791 --> 00:38:28.875
Not losing this childish naivety
of loving what surrounds me.

00:38:40.583 --> 00:38:44.916
This lack of wonder, of innocence

00:38:44.916 --> 00:38:48.083
it is the misery of our time.

00:38:49.000 --> 00:38:50.500
Everything is unpredictable.

00:38:51.416 --> 00:38:55.958
So as much as we try to calculate,
to control everything

00:38:56.500 --> 00:38:58.708
it is impossible from the start.

00:38:59.500 --> 00:39:03.083
Therefore, sometimes...
we waste a wonderful time

00:39:04.083 --> 00:39:06.541
of doing things, of creating things

00:39:07.250 --> 00:39:10.333
because we are too worried trying
to take control of everything.

00:39:16.250 --> 00:39:21.333
It seems to me a painting

00:39:21.750 --> 00:39:23.583
where they feel happy.

00:39:24.833 --> 00:39:27.125
This is what it transmits to me.

00:39:29.916 --> 00:39:33.666
Look at this one there, with the umbrella,
and a bikini I believe she’s wearing.

00:39:34.916 --> 00:39:36.125
The other one also.

00:39:38.541 --> 00:39:42.583
And these two,
happily taking a walk.

00:39:43.000 --> 00:39:45.250
– It’s a photo!
– A photo?

00:39:46.416 --> 00:39:51.416
Don’t let bitterness or hate
invade you…beat them!

00:39:52.916 --> 00:39:54.666
Win over yourself

00:39:55.875 --> 00:39:56.958
by giving yourself away.

00:39:56.958 --> 00:39:59.708
Even how you give yourself
is a way to give oneself...

00:40:01.000 --> 00:40:04.833
The fact of giving yourself to your loved ones,
give yourself to life… Offer yourself.

00:40:11.166 --> 00:40:14.708
Me, I can’t be many hours here

00:40:18.875 --> 00:40:21.083
alone... No, I can’t.

00:40:24.250 --> 00:40:25.583
I shut the door

00:40:27.000 --> 00:40:28.166
and I go down to the street.

00:40:57.083 --> 00:40:59.583
I forgot to congratulate you, Carmen!

00:41:00.125 --> 00:41:01.833
Happy birthday!

00:41:04.291 --> 00:41:05.125
Hi!

00:41:06.666 --> 00:41:07.708
Hi Esther!

00:41:12.458 --> 00:41:13.541
Hi!

00:41:14.458 --> 00:41:15.916
See you later!

00:41:19.958 --> 00:41:21.541
Don’t you want to sit
and have something?

00:41:21.875 --> 00:41:24.791
Bye! Bye!

00:41:49.708 --> 00:41:54.666
I like her a lot.
Each time I see her I give her a hug.

00:41:55.458 --> 00:41:59.583
Then one day she says to me with her accent:
“What happening? What happening?”

00:42:00.708 --> 00:42:02.916
and I tell her that my husband had died.

00:42:02.916 --> 00:42:07.375
“Oh! Poor you! Poor you!

00:42:07.875 --> 00:42:13.666
Calm down, we love you, we love you”.

00:42:14.333 --> 00:42:18.208
This brought me a little bit back to life.

00:42:19.000 --> 00:42:24.250
And it was true, I never lacked hugs or kisses.

00:44:05.791 --> 00:44:07.333
All the neighbourhood knows her.

00:44:26.875 --> 00:44:30.333
Emi! Emi!

00:44:30.333 --> 00:44:34.583
– Yes?
– Look, look what I have here.

00:44:34.958 --> 00:44:35.875
What is going on?

00:44:35.875 --> 00:44:40.416
They are all day doing with me...
ehm... whatever they’re doing...

00:44:41.458 --> 00:44:42.916
You’re going to be famous.

00:44:42.916 --> 00:44:44.500
– What?
– You’re going to be famous.

00:44:44.833 --> 00:44:47.375
– Open the door.
– It’s open.

00:45:09.791 --> 00:45:13.666
Before, we used to interact
with 20 or 30 people maximum in our day-to-day

00:45:13.666 --> 00:45:18.708
now, however, we deal with so many more.

00:45:18.708 --> 00:45:24.250
On Facebook we comment on our 400 friends,
on Whatsapp we write to such and such.

00:45:24.250 --> 00:45:27.875
Very stressful.
We used to have three parties, four friends

00:45:27.875 --> 00:45:31.000
but now it’s everyday, every week.

00:45:31.000 --> 00:45:35.166
Like a competition where you need
to show others that you are having a great time.

00:45:35.166 --> 00:45:39.458
You see the picture on Instagram and you think:
“Oh, I should have gone to that party!”

00:45:39.458 --> 00:45:44.166
Then you discover it was a mess
and the photo was taken just when everything looked perfect.

00:45:44.166 --> 00:45:47.333
This creates a sensation like:
“Everybody is having a great time but me!”

00:45:47.750 --> 00:45:49.208
Because that’s what they are selling

00:45:49.708 --> 00:45:53.375
that there are master formulas to reach happiness

00:45:53.375 --> 00:45:55.125
and it is a TOTAL-LIE.

00:45:56.375 --> 00:45:59.333
This obligation of being positive

00:45:59.333 --> 00:46:02.958
I see it like something
they would come up with in the US.

00:46:02.958 --> 00:46:05.208
This thing about always being positive... No!

00:46:06.333 --> 00:46:10.250
If human beings had not known fear, distress, etc...

00:46:10.250 --> 00:46:11.416
they wouldn’t have survived.

00:46:11.416 --> 00:46:19.916
Thanks to these so-called negative feelings,
which have awakened in us the desire for survival...

00:46:19.916 --> 00:46:23.083
as well as defense mechanisms,
we have survived.

00:46:23.416 --> 00:46:27.708
Someone positive would have disappeared
after just one generation.

00:46:29.000 --> 00:46:36.458
I believe that being positive is possible
and it can sometimes have many advantages.

00:46:36.458 --> 00:46:40.750
But other times, life has changed
and what one needs to be is realistic.

00:46:49.166 --> 00:46:55.583
Think about it,
this person next to you is almost 90.

00:46:55.916 --> 00:46:59.166
– You sure don’t look like it, my dear!
– Well believe it... that’s how old I am...

00:46:59.166 --> 00:47:03.416
– Well you really look younger, sweetie!
– I sometimes forget my age...

00:47:04.041 --> 00:47:06.375
Hey! He looks just like my neighbour’s dog.

00:47:06.583 --> 00:47:07.291
You’re right!

00:47:07.875 --> 00:47:08.875
The same exactly!

00:47:10.291 --> 00:47:13.583
– Well you went on longer than I did.
– No, that’s how it is!

00:47:14.333 --> 00:47:15.125
Singing.

00:47:16.541 --> 00:47:19.958
One of the biggest flaws I see in general
and specially in this country

00:47:20.625 --> 00:47:22.541
is that people are not taught how to sing.

00:47:28.791 --> 00:47:30.416
Communities with a strong culture

00:47:30.416 --> 00:47:33.041
are the ones where you study music at school

00:47:33.708 --> 00:47:35.750
where you are being motivated to read.

00:47:35.750 --> 00:47:41.666
I believe that the early years
of a child are essential for this

00:47:41.666 --> 00:47:46.666
because they give you tools.
I think the worst tool is when you have nothing.

00:47:47.041 --> 00:47:51.333
Culture really makes you better

00:47:51.958 --> 00:47:55.291
because when you read, when you write

00:47:55.875 --> 00:47:57.083
when you think

00:47:58.166 --> 00:48:01.000
then you can choose, because you can think.

00:48:03.041 --> 00:48:05.833
When you have none of that

00:48:07.416 --> 00:48:10.000
there is always someone who can manipulate you.

00:48:14.166 --> 00:48:16.416
Music is the wordless language of the heart.

00:48:17.375 --> 00:48:22.000
People who have received musical training
and the most musical countries

00:48:22.791 --> 00:48:25.291
they have more advantages
than others in all senses.

00:48:26.083 --> 00:48:27.416
They are more educated

00:48:27.750 --> 00:48:29.166
conviviality is better

00:48:29.666 --> 00:48:34.958
and they get an immense pleasure,
the pleasure of music, the joy of singing.

00:48:42.416 --> 00:48:45.166
I, as always, am looking for youth.

00:48:45.541 --> 00:48:48.333
Nowadays there is such freedom...

00:48:49.208 --> 00:48:50.666
I love it.

00:48:50.666 --> 00:48:52.416
In my times we did not have it.

00:48:52.416 --> 00:48:56.583
I prefer young to old people
even though I am old.

00:48:56.583 --> 00:49:01.750
I understand that young people don’t want to be with me
and prefer being with other young people.

00:49:02.291 --> 00:49:04.375
I understand because that’s
also what I do.

00:49:06.583 --> 00:49:10.791
He’s there taking pictures…and pictures…

00:49:16.375 --> 00:49:21.750
Oh! I wish you had taken photos
of me when I was young.

00:49:23.500 --> 00:49:27.750
They used to tell me:
“you are so pretty!”

00:49:27.750 --> 00:49:33.291
Now with 88 years there’s little left.

00:49:33.291 --> 00:49:34.375
You are beautiful!

00:49:34.375 --> 00:49:36.833
Sure! Gorgeous!

00:49:38.500 --> 00:49:42.041
This and the body become ugly

00:49:42.041 --> 00:49:46.791
however my heart and my spirit... are young!

00:49:47.125 --> 00:49:50.500
I feel really good when I am with you.

00:49:51.291 --> 00:49:55.166
With people like me not so much

00:49:55.166 --> 00:49:59.666
because they are always complaining:
“Argh, it really hurts there” and I have the same pain, uh?

00:50:00.083 --> 00:50:05.291
How painful, how many pills,
and so on... bah!...

00:50:05.833 --> 00:50:09.708
If I could replace my body
I would be happy

00:50:10.416 --> 00:50:13.958
because it hurts everywhere...

00:50:15.000 --> 00:50:15.791
Awful!

00:50:17.333 --> 00:50:18.833
But what can I do!

00:50:25.833 --> 00:50:27.958
«Europe will become the continent

00:50:27.958 --> 00:50:32.541
with more elderly and less young people
in the next 50 years».

00:50:32.791 --> 00:50:35.833
Another sign of stupidity in our society

00:50:35.833 --> 00:50:40.708
is that instead of seeing an elderly person
like a source of wisdom

00:50:40.708 --> 00:50:43.833
of knowledge, a walking library...

00:50:43.833 --> 00:50:49.541
He is seen as a bothering social problem
that needs to be kept away.

00:50:49.541 --> 00:50:53.000
And we forget one thing:
maybe today’s old people have less to say

00:50:53.000 --> 00:50:58.375
because they used to be “old-young” people
already taken by the world of material consumption.

00:50:58.916 --> 00:51:02.125
In ancient nations it’s not
that the elderly were more respected

00:51:02.125 --> 00:51:05.750
but that they were useful.
There were no computers.

00:51:05.750 --> 00:51:09.541
Old people were the “storage” for memory, experience, etc...

00:51:09.541 --> 00:51:12.250
So, they were looked after
while they were useful.

00:51:12.250 --> 00:51:14.125
As soon as an old man
did no longer serve

00:51:14.125 --> 00:51:17.166
he was left in a mountain to be eaten by wolves,
like nowadays.

00:51:17.166 --> 00:51:21.250
Though what happens now is that old people,
we are not useful like we used to

00:51:21.708 --> 00:51:26.750
so either we can still compete with the young
in some areas, or we have to retire.

00:51:26.750 --> 00:51:32.250
In any event, no other period
has protected the elderly like our times.

00:51:32.250 --> 00:51:34.791
All the rest is superstition
when they call us “poor old people”.

00:51:34.791 --> 00:51:38.416
The elderly have their pensions,
they are cared for...

00:51:39.541 --> 00:51:43.125
Old people have never ever
been cared for like nowadays.

00:51:43.750 --> 00:51:48.500
When do we become senior citizens?
After 60...70?

00:51:48.500 --> 00:51:52.458
And what is old age? The beginning of decline?
Of course not.

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At their 60 or 70 years old,
many people start their moment of fullness.

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They have accumulated
many experiences in their life

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they have a huge knowledge,
many resources.

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Old age from 60?

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This has to change and a new age period be created.

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Same as adolescence and youth:
the stage of fullness and contribution.

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Kant, the philosopher,
wrote his masterpiece at 70 years old.

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Sophocles wrote the great tragedy
“Oedipus the King” when he was 84.

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A society can be measured
by its ability to value its elderly people.

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«In the words of Swedish filmmaker
Ingmar Bergman:

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Old age is
like climbing a big mountain

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during the ascension energies diminish
but the sight is freer

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the view is larger and peaceful».

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«From the age of 75 you have
two options to choose from:

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be carried away by the situation

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or pursue your life and continue enjoying it».

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«Masao Okawa, born in 1898

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stated that the secret of happiness lies in...

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good food

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a stress-free life

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good health

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and friends».

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I see 25 year-old men
who look like grandpas, old people…

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empty, who don’t know anything

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easily manipulated, like lambs.

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Therefore, what will they have to say
when they are 60 or 70?

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Nothing!

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They have nothing to say today
and will have less to say in the future.

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It would really be much easier
to go by what one feels

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but this is something
that we don’t work on

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that we don’t encourage from childhood,
at school, through family education.

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On the contrary, what is being promoted are
structures prepared for global domination.

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Take a photo of me with her.

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Bye!

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I used to think a lot about suicide.
I had a deep depression.

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Maybe because I couldn’t find
a meaning to all of this

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and what was the point of being here.

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And there were foolish attempts.

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Once it got really serious
and I decided to set a date.

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I decided to fully live the week before...

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not like if it was the last one,
but because I thought it was.

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I had taken a very clear decision.

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I did live that week thinking it was my last one.

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Suddenly my studies and pretty much everything
did not matter anymore.

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What did matter was spending time
with that girl I liked, but didn’t dare get closer to

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and doing other things during that time.

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At the end of that week, I realised that what I
really needed was to live like this as long as possible

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live it like... it could really happen...
that every day could be my last.

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One last second of life

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and then nothing.

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We are nothing. It’s all over.

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Finished... all finished.

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Having lost loved ones
like my parents, uncles

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my aunt who was
like a second mother to me

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but over all
my younger sister two years ago

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it is something you can’t understand.

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There is no explanation for it.

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You just know that...

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nobody can escape from this!

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Yes I did think a lot about death.

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I even had my moments
of flirting with the idea of suicide

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and all that you think of
when you’re young and melancholic.

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If we still have living parents
or children we have no right to kill ourselves.

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Because they would suffer too much.

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You would be crazy,
really bad, to commit an act so selfish.

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The flirting with suicide was more like
a poetess thing, a tortured poetess.

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I’d only wish to die like my dear husband did.

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We went happily to bed one night

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and when I went to kiss him in the morning,
he was dead.

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I would like this type of death.

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Well, I jut got over a tumor.

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They discovered it one year ago

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here, in the vocal cords area.

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And once again you find yourself
fighting with this...tension

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fear

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and other things that illness brings.

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Death is terrifying.

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The idea of death gets into you like...

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sometimes also like a liberation.

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In my life I have seen many people die,
many friends.

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And I have been very sick myself many times.

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Pain is more specific and concrete
than success.

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I hope it comes as late as possible!

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In the middle of the night...I gather everybody

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and say:
“Look, don’t worry. I have lived enough.

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I leave all my love behind me.
I cherish you all.

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And then good bye!”

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But with my brain in its place.

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Because if the brain is not working,
it’s not worth living.

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I would like...
to die not too old.

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Not reaching the point where
“I can’t do anything and they have to take care of me”.

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I wouldn’t like that.

01:00:06.583 --> 01:00:10.083
Being in very bad shape at the hospital

01:00:10.083 --> 01:00:12.083
then they take you to a nursing home

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where nobody would remember me.

01:00:15.583 --> 01:00:20.000
No, I don’t think I’ll get to that,
and I’ll be in control of my life.

01:00:20.666 --> 01:00:21.333
I think so.

01:00:22.458 --> 01:00:25.083
Viktor Frankl says it in his book
“Man’s Search for Meaning”.

01:00:25.958 --> 01:00:30.000
You can go where they are going
to shoot you with your head high

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or begging for mercy.

01:00:31.875 --> 01:00:34.875
Even in that last minute of your life, you can choose.

01:00:36.125 --> 01:00:42.208
But a painful death...
If it comes to that I’ll talk to the doctor

01:00:43.000 --> 01:00:44.583
and I’ll tell him: “Doctor,

01:00:46.666 --> 01:00:53.000
I assume responsibility
and I’ll sign everything you’ll do with me

01:00:53.000 --> 01:00:54.500
but please, I want to die now”.

01:01:00.375 --> 01:01:07.708
The more I live the more I discover things
I had no idea existed two years ago.

01:01:07.708 --> 01:01:11.458
And these things I know now open up other possibilities

01:01:11.458 --> 01:01:13.875
other windows to other realities.

01:01:13.875 --> 01:01:22.125
And to tell you the truth, I am really scared
now of dying before I can find new answers...

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What happened there?

01:01:28.375 --> 01:01:29.083
I don’t know.

01:01:33.625 --> 01:01:35.833
I moved something at quantum level!

01:01:55.250 --> 01:01:58.416
I haven’t been here for a long time!

01:01:59.666 --> 01:02:04.375
How much I sang here!
The names of all were written there!

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There! There!

01:02:10.083 --> 01:02:13.333
That much! That much!…

01:02:17.458 --> 01:02:20.583
Over there I used to eat croquettes...
Delicious!

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– Morning!
– Morning!

01:02:26.208 --> 01:02:28.708
María Teresa, welcome...

01:02:28.708 --> 01:02:30.166
Thank you so much!

01:02:30.166 --> 01:02:32.166
...to this house that was yours for so long!

01:02:32.166 --> 01:02:34.125
Thank you!

01:02:34.291 --> 01:02:38.041
– I came this way a lot…
– You came this way all your life.

01:02:38.041 --> 01:02:39.791
All my life I did.

01:02:39.791 --> 01:02:42.208
I used to work here a lot.

01:02:42.333 --> 01:02:45.208
That’s the mirror where I used to look at myself...this one!

01:02:45.208 --> 01:02:46.708
This one really!

01:02:46.708 --> 01:02:49.625
When I was going out from there,
the dressing rooms...

01:02:49.625 --> 01:02:52.125
Mine was this one here.
This one.

01:02:52.125 --> 01:02:56.541
That one for the tenor,
that one for the baritone, and this one was mine.

01:02:56.541 --> 01:02:58.916
We used to work evening and night

01:02:59.291 --> 01:03:01.666
you came in here sweating, you took a shower

01:03:01.958 --> 01:03:06.500
you put your make up again to be a little decent.

01:03:07.000 --> 01:03:11.125
Who would have thought
after so many years!

01:03:14.875 --> 01:03:16.791
How many times I went out from here!

01:03:19.958 --> 01:03:22.500
This is so great, so nice!

01:03:26.583 --> 01:03:27.750
So many memories!

01:03:52.708 --> 01:03:54.000
It’s wonderful!

01:04:35.166 --> 01:04:42.916
I would only wish to be 27 again
and sing over there the greatest opera or zarzuela.

01:04:43.541 --> 01:04:46.166
And look and be the same as I was then!
Of course! My God!

01:05:02.083 --> 01:05:06.083
I never feared the stage, never.

01:05:20.500 --> 01:05:22.583
I don’t know, everything is nice.

01:05:24.583 --> 01:05:28.083
Everything is beautiful
and we are unable to enjoy it.

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– Last name?
– Paniagua.

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Still waiting for a bed.
Still in emergencies.

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For María Teresa Paniagua

01:07:33.166 --> 01:07:36.583
…who gave us her joy until the end.

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The Sweet Taste Of Success

01:08:16.791 --> 01:08:24.875
I am nearly 88, however,
I feel young in spirit and my heart is young!

01:08:26.750 --> 01:08:30.250
This is great! So great!

01:08:35.500 --> 01:08:39.041
I’m really curious to see
where are you taking me to.

01:08:39.666 --> 01:08:41.416
When you took me to the theatre!

01:08:43.833 --> 01:08:45.791
That’s what I was thinking!

01:08:46.500 --> 01:08:47.958
I am so evil, right?

01:08:48.583 --> 01:08:53.458
That’s what I was thinking,
these girls must envy me.

01:08:57.708 --> 01:09:00.791
What? How?…
That’s my house!

01:09:02.541 --> 01:09:08.750
“Our positive attitude is what brings us
closer to the others and creates interest in us”.

01:09:09.291 --> 01:09:12.791
That paragraph was written for me!

01:09:13.875 --> 01:09:15.083
I agree!

01:09:16.708 --> 01:09:17.708
What a nice music!

01:09:17.708 --> 01:09:19.416
I shut the door and go down to the street.

01:09:20.375 --> 01:09:21.750
And I go down to the street!

01:09:23.166 --> 01:09:26.958
True!
Nothing I said, nothing, was a lie...

01:09:28.041 --> 01:09:35.833
The truth is that on all the pictures
and everything I have I am always smiling, always!

01:09:40.500 --> 01:09:42.916
Look, there, walking with no cane.

01:09:49.208 --> 01:09:54.083
What I have seen so far is really good,
it totally looks like me!